"Because, Evan."

not to take away from anything that happened this season but eddie was really gay

buck's first drawing from chris (3x01) / buck's first drawing from theo (9x17) + bonus

and eddie is trying, he really is, but it hurts and he's tired and he's about to close his eyes when buck snaps you can't die, i just got my fucking will updated, do you know how annoying it'll be to change it again.

so eddie groans out what does that even mean, and buck opens his mouth but that's when the doors open and the paramedics flood in.

afterwards in the hospital room eddie wakes up to chris playing with theo at his bedside and theo goes hi eddie!!!!!!!!! and chris goes dad!!!!!! and eddie's heart thumps all big and loud in his chest. buck runs in at the sound of their voices and their eyes meet and buck's mouth forms the shape of his name before the doctors come.

and later when chris is out distracting theo eddie goes so. your will? and buck just smiles at him with red-rimmed eyes and steady faith as he says well, to be fair, you did it to me first.

not maddie?

buck laughs. three kids might be a bit much for her-- and besides, she's already raised me once, i wanted to give her a break. and before eddie can frown and inform buck that taking care of him isn't work buck continues and says: he needs somebody who believes in him. nobody has ever believed in me the way you do. nobody will believe in him the way you can. that's what i want for him.

'theo c'mere, guess what, if we lock dad and buck in the bedroom together we can totally jump on the sofa, isn't that cool?'

'here have a marker, yeah you can draw on the door. why don't you draw a big heart and I can write both their names in? if you tell them it's because you love them they won't get mad at you :)'

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