It's that time of the year, friends.
(You can find my art account: @kahel-arcana here)
Would you like custom art of your blorbo, waifu, husbando, friend, or your lovely self? Then I might be the artist for you!
I'd love to also draw for anyone who'd like a book cover, fanfic cover (non-commercial of course), and for anyone who has a beloved TTRPG PC or NPC that they'd like depicted
Turnaround time: 1 week minimum. Please consult the table provided. At worse it can take 2-3 months. No Rush Orders please.
MOP: Paypal Invoice. Full upfront and 50/50 options available.
Send me a DM to begin or scan the QR code in the sheets above!
Some reasons under the cut ^^; if, you know, that's something you look for
Where will your commission fee go?
Erm. I got laid off actually. So. This is gonna be my main source of income while I look for a job. I have also been attending more events recently, so some of the earnings will go to helping me attend more events. As is usual these days for people my age, I'm in a lot of debt and would really really like to not be in debt any longer.
Character sheet commissions?? Is that FR??
Yes. I actually just need to finish samples. But, I can definitely just make use of the current time to take on some commissions in the meanwhile. Maybe I'll be ready to for character sheet commissions by May. March would be great but I have a big event in April to prepare for.
[old] Why are you posting on your personal account?
I find that my personal account has more "reach". It's just that my art account is a bit neglected right now. (And IG and FB have been my main platforms recently) Though I will be reblogging this post on there. haha.
[old] I don't have money, how can I support?
Thank you for reading so far! The way the economy is so far, there's no pressure to buy. The best way to support is by reblogging. And if there so happens to be someone looking for an artist, you can send them my way if you feel like my art style suits them. ^^
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The thing about my social ideation rn is that I know it wont solve anything. Heck it will cause more problems. Capitalism gonna follow me to the afterlife.
You know when I was younger I didnāt really mind that Brotherhood front-loads the Elric brothersā backstory to episode 2 and has the anime-only ensemble cast introduction in episode 1, but I do actually think this takes away from the smart craft of how Arakawa drip-feeds you information throughout the earlier chapters.
Youāre not supposed to learn Ed and Alās full backstory until Izumi Curtis confronts them about it
Then, of course, there is the fact that Brotherhood speeds past many of the earlier smaller arcs that got covered already in FMA03. Which I don't really blame them for given the circumstances but it does hamper the experience.
So truly my recommendation is to read the Fullmetal Alchemist manga as well, up through Ling's introduction or--really--the whole thing.
*re-enters through the revolving door I just left by* FURTHERMORE, read volume 15. That's chapters 58-61.
This is the other part of the manga that Brotherhood absolutely truncated. Most volumes get 2 or 2.5 episodes to cover them. Volume 15 only got one episode (with a few short scenes moved elsewhere). And I suspect highly it had nothing to do with timing or pacing.
Because this is in fact the entire recount of the Amestrian military's involvement in Ishval and--for reasons I'd have loved to listen in behind closed doors to learn--the Brotherhood adaptation neutered quite a lot of it. And I specifically mean removing or toning down the more heinous things the military did, or offloading them to some nameless hegemony of 'horde of Amestrian soldiers' instead of how the manga actually handles it.
I have a longer post about this from about 10 years back. The earlier Brotherhood truncations were for the sake of not rehashing what FMA03 already covered. But I am so certain the truncating of volume 15 was political.
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the problem with living off my art currently is that when i'm dysregulated I'm unable to make art. at all. when im not depressed as fuck, I can fool myself into working on commission work without being invested in it. But once I trip and fall into depresso espresso pitt, it's so hard to get out. It's so hard to be whimsical when I have no stability.
For those of you who donāt know, Seven Havens is at risk of being leaked by hackers, with some reported to have already obtained the showās content. If this happens, we might not get anymore Avatar content in the future!
im so depressed. just need to shout into the void.
my applications keep getting rejected. i wonder if they can sense I don't want a job just from a resume. The worry and anxiety caused by having no stable source of income is getting to me and I'm unable to regulate well enough to keep drawing. There are very little avenues I can currently take to get some sort of financial help.
most loans need income and proof of employment. i dont have that. I am chest deep in debt. If we don't pay rent soon it'll balloon to a point where the only choice we have is being evicted.
i am trying not to stew in my resentment in favor of trying to be productive. it's not working. i read two books in an attempt to escapism my way to feeling well enough to keep drawing. it's not working.
i just want things to be easy for once. for things to turn out well, despite previous experience proving that it never does. my suicidal ideation is back with more force.
im blaming myself for getting unceremoniously let go january of this year. fuck.
my friends have an outing the coming saturday. i want to go but i'm too fucking broke, i can't support myself but i dont want to ask to be covered again, because they already covered for me last time.
i have shit work ethic, im trying to change and be better but it's hard. i might have undiagnosed adhd -- or pmos is making a unique neuroses spiked cocktail that is making it harder for me to be adjust. i hate late stage capitalism. why tf did i struggle all these years to graduate if that damn paper won't even net me respectably paying work? why does this have to be the way it is?
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there is something a bit trite and unsatisfying about "is grace a coward" being the central question of the movie/his characterization, because it rests on the assumption that cowardice is something ineffable, like the power of heart or being one with the force. this is simply untrue, there's a pretty clear pattern to what causes cowardice in the real world - it's the result of incoherence. it's what happens when you believe the things you believe only because they are emotionally convenient to you. lying to yourself like this creates fault lines in the foundation of the self, causing your strength to fail when tested. the interesting question is not whether such flaws exist - that's a human universal - but what specific faults exist and why. because there is a why, people don't lie for no reason.
"love" and "having someone" are notably not things that prevent people from lying to themselves, in fact they're things people often lie to obtain. what they can do is provide the right conditions for a character to become more coherent within themselves - emotional security is good like that, but it's not a panacea, it doesn't just heal all faults instantly. there's a process of first removing the need for the lie, then the lie itself, the revelation of what was underneath all along, and acceptance and integration of that into a truer belief, and the specifics of that belief inform the new strength the character will now be able to draw upon. (bravery is also specific, not universal)
this process is what's missing from the movie (it's not a strong presence in the book either, but the book uses a different type of central conflict) and what we do get isn't very convincing. a real change usually involves some lateral shift, a triangle of concepts, at least one of which starts in shadow, not just a binary inversion of what was already visible on the surface. "oh I guess I can just do that now, it's fine, no biggie" -- this is imo the flaw that's powering the entire fandom (bc fandom runs on inconsistency and flaws) and it's a big one (yay! more hyperfixation material), but no one seems to be talking directly about it (sadness, missed opportunity).
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