2h
i think a lot of my problems are that i cant NOT put my genuine self into things in order to do them well or at all, and i actually think its just how i am. but it means everything is so painful all the time, and i take everything so hard
idk i see advice like that its a bad art practice to do, its a bad way to be social, but if i didnt do it, i wouldnt be able to do what i do. i dont know how it works for everyone else but its just how my brain works so its never going to change im almost certain
