bloodshed

now he is bearing years of regret

his blood flows through my veins

and my eyes are his

in my heart,

there is a hole.

it begs to be filled,

so i sacrifice everything,

in an attempt to fill it up,

yet it remains empty.

in my heart,

there is a hole.

it is greedy,

and never has enough.

the rain was drowning me

i couldn’t breathe, i was suffocating

now the sun is shining

but my heart continues to ache

those who carry my blood upon their hands,

behind my eyes is a storm

i remain kind

despite being wounded

again and again

i remain kind

but i am filled to the brim

with hate and rage

i remain kind

despite my urges to break

and rampage

i remain kind

but i am getting tired

of being gentle

what fear you bring upon me

digging your claws into my flesh

injecting your poison into my bloodstream

water and soap cannot erase your touch

and time won’t heal these wounds

i mourn the girl i was before

a pure, blooming flower

crushed under your grasp

i’ve done more, the future is now, nowhere to hide

filled to capacity, she wants to stop now

obsessed has never looked more beautiful

cutouts of the magazine under the cut

Oh so graceful, child of the ocean

Colosal tides, depriving you of life

Elegant but volatile, beautiful but fatal

Alluring waves, leading you to your death

Neverending depths, suffocating in her lies

exposing my wounds only causes infection

so i’ll keep them hidden, shielded for my protection

i’ll carry the blame for injuries caused by past lovers

my eyes once so vibrant, now lacking colours

there’s a boulder bound to my body, preventing me from moving forward.

i’m different than them. i feel like i’m looking at the world through shattered lenses