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Having a "stupider people have done this" attitude about the things you want to do can open so many doors

i think the true horror of i saw the tv glow is the feeling of the narrative haunting you after you've seen it. i think the movie is simultaneously a warning against repression and ignoring your true self, a narrative of those who dont always have the life they wanted to live, and a story full of hope that you can still cut yourself open and see what's inside, and you can always walk out of the door of your old life. but you have to be the one to do it. your friend cannot save you. your interests cannot save you. you have to save yourself and that in itself is a haunting narrative. the horror that we see in i saw the tv glow is not at all jumpscares or gore or creepy crawlies that other horror films have, but its the horror of longing, of fear, of knowing that you shouldve taken that chance when you were younger but you know deep down you can still do it. dont fool yourself into thinking that once you're 20, 25, 30, 40, that you cant take your life into your own hands, that your choices arent yours to make anymore. it will always hurt, at least a little, to cut open your own chest and to let it out and see who you are inside but theres never a better time to do that then now, even if that's when you're stuck at a deadend job after you had a public breakdown. you can walk out of the door. there is still time.

bashing my head into a wall monday

see the THING IS I don't feel like I ever worked hard enough to have "earned" the burnout, which is. probably how we got here.

@ everyone reblogging this i'm so sorry hang in there and be kind to yourself

whoa whoa whoa, are you enjoying yourself right now? rookie mistake. you're supposed to be afraid and angry... yeah no all the time. how else will you prove you care about all the problems?

making stuff is one of the best parts of being alive

forget yearning do you ever covet? do you ever crave??? let the temptation of desire seep into your bones forevermore until you are sick with envy???????

ᴋɪʟʟɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ ᴠɪᴏʟᴇɴᴄᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴋɪʟʟɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ ᴠɪᴏʟᴇɴᴄᴇ. ᴋɪʟʟɪɴɢ & ᴋɪʟʟɪɴɢ & ᴠɪᴏʟᴇɴᴄᴇ

The goat a gnome warlord would ride into battle