That's too much, man.

life feels exactly like this now

they hate me because the years of memory loss has purified my mind

do you guys remember when we used to say oh worm all the time. remember that

is anybody out there

FUCKKKKKKK what if something bad happened and I forgot to worry about it

well well well if it isn’t the obvious truth which i have been running away from as fast as i possibly can all this time

I wrote you a referral for a swagologist

the problem with addiction is not that it's pleasurable. it's not "having too much fun" disease. it's not even a requirement for addiction that you have fun at any point in the process at all and to be honest it is incredibly common that no pleasure is gained from substance use. imagining that addiction is about pleasure does two things: 1) demonises feeling good (there is nothing wrong with wanting to be happy/comfortable/etc), and 2) frames addicts as people who Like Having Fun Too Much. it's simply not useful to frame things this way as well as just fundamentally not being true

idk man I had to get sober because it got to the point where drinking made me suicidal but I also couldn't stop getting to that point. but it's also true that I got to that point in the first place because my life was fucking bleak and I needed something to numb myself from it, and drinking helped me to cope Up To A Point. it's a lot more complicated than pathological hedonism. lol

you've met me at a very wild animal caught in a bear trap gnawing off its own leg time in my life

nobody is more stressed than a 24-29yo thinking they are running out of time lol