Slow & Steady

got my lab results back turns out i’m full of rage because i am full of grief

it came up in conversation with my friend that i have an mp3 that i still love to use and he was like yeah of course you do dot dot dot and he said it in a very comical way as if there was a corny way of being about me - a deep predictability in the character of the things i do. walking home i was thinking and i couldn't deny that so much about my life falls into a kind of cliché that makes me very happy. yes do it scared do it badly do it alone but also do it corny. it's liberating i embrace knowing myself and i love the corniness that is the cost of falling into a pattern and liking what it seems like i would like - sue me it's called being a romantic! taking a sunrise walk writing with fountain pens quoting a poet one thing about me is you will always catch me in a cliché

i failed to resist the siren call of a cheap notebook so ive started a scrapbook and ive been collecting stuff for it. i have discovered that the world is so much paper. and all of it is free. they want you to collect paper. its calling. that brochure probably has a nice floral design. i must have it. that business card is in a cool font. the shop has a free magazine. help me. its calling.

They weren’t lying when they said that as an adult you have to fight for your life to practice your hobbies

just realized that I've finished three and a half journals in the last six months apparently I have been very chatty

I control the narrative, I whisper to myself like a lunatic while the characters in the story I'm writing are not following my orders.

I need to be here like yesterday pleaseee

lately I’ve just been really busy, quietly content, and kinda tired of believing love will happen to me. maybe this is enough. this life, this moment, this peace. loneliness doesn’t feel like a wound so much these days, more like a stillness which is easier to carry

the generational gap between me and the people my age who use chat gpt

GO GIRL!!!! GIVE US ROT!!! GIVE US DECAY! RETURN TO THE EARTH