Story of who I am

Adventures of a toker

Stages of smoking weed

Coincidence or Not? First, American Airlines gets grounded. Then the Stock Exchange suspended. All because of technical glitches. Am I the only one who is a little freaked out?

Someone needs to invent a new stank ass strain of kush and name it Trippin Trump. That loser is trippin for real if he thinks he will ever run this country!

Maybe cats ARE Gods and they judge us based on how we treat them and all animals. Egyptians worshipped them right? Morale of the story...be nice to cats! PS IDK who to credit for the picture /art.

So looking at replies to Marriage Equality and I always see the most famous argument of "God made Adam and Eve not Adam and Steve." I usually roll my eyes and scroll on but I decided to think about this statement a little bitand reply. Even if it sounds stupid, so is the initial statement so I went with it anyway. My reply: 21 So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man’s ribs[g]and then closed up the place with flesh.22 Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib[h] he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man. So technically she was Steve first and than transformed into Eve... So transgender and lesbians and gays all started from Adam and Steve. Took a man to make a man and that man turned into a woman if you want to be technical. 😀

Hey question, what's the expansion on the word comical???? Is it... Comedical? You know how words sometimes have expansions of their shortened name? Hmm... I can't think...

I will be 30 fuckin years old in less than 2 months. 30!!! I’m not excited. I’m not throwing some large Dirty Thirty party. I pretty much want to crawl in a black endless cave and wither away instead. 30 years on this planet. I have little to show for my time here. I do not have kids. I am a lesbian and having kids is harder to do when you’re a lesbian and not willing to just go get knocked up to achieve your dream of motherhood. I do not own my own house yet. I do have a partner and long and stable relationship. I have a lot of furkids and a job and pay my bills. But that’s really it. I don’t have a career or a completed college education. I don’t have some special talent like drawing or playing some kind of sport. I am an introvert and an empath and as a result, I don’t get close to many people. If I died tonight, I’d be lucky to have 20 people at my funeral. (And no, I’m not suicidal at the moment so please don’t take it that way.) It’s the truth. I can’t say I’m bothered by it. The lack of popularity. What bothers me is just… Life? Myself? On top of being an empath and an introvert, I suffer from depression and anxiety. Both of which run strong in my family. The anxiety is really more dominant than depression. Anxiety is a fuckin asshole bitch. It ruins everything! It creates problems that aren’t even there. It drains the life and energy from me. I saw a meme once that said something about anxiety is when you get yourself all worked up over issues that aren’t even existing yet and someone posted this meme and wrote “risk management”. It made me lol for real. Risk management. Yeah… Preparing mentally and emotionally for every possible problem that could arise ever for any damn thing. Ugh. And being an empath. It is a love/hate relationship. A blessing and a curse. The curse and hate part is from the fact that I can feel everything. I feel every emotion even if it’s not my own. I see auras, energy. I can hear the words unspoken. I know the truth of people’s heart’s. Its amazing yet super draining and emotionally painful. I only recently as in for about a year now, started to smoke weed. I am NOT here to promote smoking weed. I’m not here to say weed will solve your problems if you can relate to me. I am here to write about MY experience since I’ve started to smoke it and I smoke it only on the weekends btw. Its my form of having a few beers to chill only I don’t get drunk, and won’t have a hangover. Weed is way better than alcohol for ME. When I do smoke. My bazillion thoughts that spin a gazillion miles a minute, slow down! They slow waaaayyy down. I become focused. I observe and register easily. I can understand something start to finish. IDK how the hell to explain the amazing phenomenon that happens to my brain on weed. I know this is NOT the case for EVERYONE. So again. Not promoting. But it is such a huge damn gift for someone like me to smoke weed and be able to feel…. FREE for a few hours on a weekend. Oh the sweet release. The literal fucking sensation of release! The side effects or down sides? For me it’s only bad munchies lol I truly wish I could be high all day every day. Its the closest thing to heaven on earth. Such peace and understanding. I’m using my high times to try to help myself all of the other times. I use that time to get thru a few thoughts start to finish whereas when I’m not high.. There’s just too many thoughts I can’t get thru one all the way. And wow… See maybe I need to smoke before I write because my entire post so far…. I don’t know I have completed any of the things I touched base on… Hmm...but yeah.. Turning 30 soon. What a bitch.

Its beautiful. The pictures do it no justice! #crystals #healing #meditation #jewelry #wirewrap #chakras #stones #handmade #starlitworkings #Etsy

Beautiful pendent! Chakra alignment. Natural crystals. So excited to get it! #pendent #handmade #wirewrap #jewelry #chakra #crystals #meditation #energy

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