Asymtomatic Symptomless

As my meds started to stabilize me, I was having thoughts of profiling, and hunting down people like in Criminal Minds. I told someone via telepathy where I thought the mafia would hide, and how they would escape Canada and the FBI working together to bring them down. A few weeks later, the italian mafia, the mob, and a bunch of drugs were seized and arrested. The paranoia that I felt disappeared when I read the news that the Italian mafia was taken into custody over drugs, and they captured quite a few high level guys. Sure the mood stabilizers did their job, but the feeling of being observed backed off.

The voices only whispered, “told you so.”

These are the same voices that told me when and where to steal food to survive before I was arrested for stalking and petty theft. Let me be clear it was cyber stalking, and harassing. I was not in a good place, and I was emotionally convinced I was doing the right thing. Looking back I have shame and guilt around my actions. Not my thoughts, because those always ended well, but my actions, they did not.

Sure at the beginning the voices were mean, telling me that I was ugly, not good enough, etc. But instead of trying to convince myself that the voices were not real, and were malicious thoughts instead I confronted them, and told them to get fucked, and to gtfo. Then there was the microbes that were sentient, that was a fun one hearing voices from the metal plaques on the walls to signify which room was which. They reminded me that there is a balance to be had. That passed by quickly.

Then there was the CIA tracking me. But I have since learned what the voices call CIA and what I understand to be CIA are not exactly the same. But the voices tell me that the CIA left its mark in the metaverse, for how long they were doing altered states of consciousness work.

Now I only hear voices when I smoke pot, and I can control if I hear them, how well I hear them, but since I use pot as a crutch I don't have as much control as someone who is sober with the same abilities.

There is an ongoing argument in western psychology about psychics and schizophrenia. The eastern world believes that this is an introduction to spirituality and the metaverse. I am one to follow eastern medicine, because well, it has been around longer than western medicine and it seems to be backed by millennia of experience and research. If they say that my cortisol level is too high, but it is under the threshold of western expectations, I will believe the eastern medicine practitioner.

Now the conversations I have are with people who are starting their spiritual journey. I warn them about the goals and expectations that will be placed on them by the non-corporeal that exist in the metaverse. Usually there is something that wants them dead and not psychic, something that wants them psychic but homeless, and then the individual wants. I tell them that this is a miniature judgement ─ that what they are going through needs an elder of some sort, or to start doing a lot of research on metaphysics and quantum mechanics to define reality that allows for spiritual communication. The tests and trials that you will face are to answer one question, “who are you”.

So an example that I use is that you end up experiencing some sort of intrusive memory, whether it is a flashback, or a nightmare, or whatever you consider to be an intrusive memory. You are not judged on the contents of the memory but how you react to it.

Let's say you are a battle worn now vet. You did something that only your therapist(s) and those who survived the event know about. And it is heavy. It creeps on you and sends you into a spiral. Let's say you are not proud of what you did in those conditions. What do you do?

Well you first try and acknowledge that this is a flashback. 5 things you see, 4 things you can touch/are touching, 3 things you can hear, 2 smells, relax your jaw tongue and mouth. You are safe. You should acknowledge your safety as frequently as you acknowledged when you were in danger. Your sensory reality, listing 15 things that are currently happening that identify that you are safe, will end up changing some of your brain chemistry.

Then you tell your amygdala that you understand it's function, but it has a 6 lange highway of output, and only a 2 lane road as input.

But let's say you want to separate your thoughts from the voices.

That is called the bubble meditation, where you listen to the passive internal monologue that is required to do background processing. How spirits communicate has been documented by psychologists and labeled as bizarre thoughts. Thought insertion, thought blockage, thought broadcasting. Most people who encounter this think that those who can see them can read their minds, as if they are not processing body language, micro expressions, tone of voice and choice of words. When you are delusional about bizarre thoughts, you forget how much non-verbal communication happens within proximity. I have been promised that telepathy, at least in my case, is only long distance. They say that there is too much non-verbal communication in close proximity that you don't need telepathy. And even if it was close range, you would have to find someone who is receptive to that type of communication. Not everyone's brain is wired to receiving messages from non-corporeals and telepathy is non-corporeal communication. Like prayers, or meditation.

What is the bubble meditation. Well it is a meditation that teaches introspections. Whenever you have a thought, emotion, or memory that passes by your consciousness you put it in a bubble label it for what it is, and let it go. If you are psychic, you will have a voice that comes from not inside, not outside of you. That also gets a bubble, so if you experience thought insertion, don't ask where did it come from, but rather if it is a message for you from you. That little voice, will help guide you through what I call a spiritual awakening event. Yes it is a psychosis, yes it is schizophrenia, but the other name it has is psychic, and spiritual healer.

Psychosis, and schizophrenia has been demonised by western civilisation for as long as God had a say in day-to-day life. Since it is not explained in the bible, it is seen as witchcraft, and worthy to ostracize people and excommunicate them. I mean the entire European witch trials focused on those who had psychotic and schizophrenic symptoms. Because of His influence on society, and therefore psychology, we must make room for evidence that what schizophrenics experience are real, even if we don't understand the origin.

It is all about the vibes and frequency. The lower the vibes the more negative the thoughts become.

What are vibes? The energy released through string theory, aiight? and how it interacts and manipulates aether.