A life un-examined by God is not worth living.

He is Risen! Every time that we go to the beach I focus on a different type of shell, I chose red this year and didn't know why until I sat down to sort them. It's been an odd weekend; we decided to get away so we could focus on healing from the trauma of last week and there's been so much that Gods spoken to me through. It is not lost on me that as we grieve the loss of our little guy we are also celebrating God giving His son to die on the cross for our sins. I can't imagine all the emotions that went through that time; especially that of Mary's and seeing what happened to her so who was her baby at one point. Praying that you all spend some time today contemplating the meaning of the sacrifice God gave so that we might know Him and realize just how much God loved you in making that sacrifice. #heisrisen https://www.instagram.com/p/CNPtUT7jdNbVkAe5nWUnEdvv0ipNgvcpufT3H40/?igshid=akjki8uz9ceb

Please keep our family in your prayers. We knew we had limited time left with C but what happened yesterday has us shaken to our core. I went yesterday to drop him off for a weekend visit with family and nearly as soon as he was out of my hands a steps away I was informed by social services we would not see him again. That just like that with no closure for him, so hugs or kisses goodbye he was gone. In case you're wondering this IS NOT how foster care should be going. He was supposed to go with his stuff like was planned on a certain day, we were hoping to fade out of his life gently so as not to cause trauma. But after almost 17 months in our care (21 months in foster care), just like that they took away the family he knows best. Please, please pray for us, we're doing our best to take steps and seek guidance from God as how to make sure this doesn't happen to future foster kids or their foster families that have poured into them and love them. https://www.instagram.com/p/CM7qXFvDq8A5uYAH_XTw-ijnwvtAmP9pc4JS7Q0/?igshid=11f7eovn21wnn

@jeshshe did my makeup for our family photos, it definitely felt like a lot cause y'all know I always bare face it, but in pictures I look downright pretty lol #ifeelpretty https://www.instagram.com/p/CH3jv69joghmkGcAq4c3pZYK0pP1lSHl4HNQe80/?igshid=y0w3kt2mcdmm

It's an outtake from our first anniversary vacation but I love this picture still. I really can't wait for the next month and a half to be over, I need my hubby back home already! #stinkinmilitarywifelife https://www.instagram.com/p/CCzcjHZjZNvX4Jbg2pTNJN31JjFivc6HLOKYy80/?igshid=hz9p1vi0pwy

It may not seem like a lot but a lotttt of work has been put into his room the past few days to really make it his. Exhausted and hoping he won't be leaving us soon, but it's all in Gods hands. https://www.instagram.com/p/CChPY5PDyY-sFRu-vLT0p5554X12WF4ZiLUvC00/?igshid=2dtmxsptucmq

Love this man soooo much!!! #nofilterneeded https://www.instagram.com/p/CBjnwzpDVhOSRh9rMtUAOuL1di7NGj1tHaWXrM0/?igshid=hraelx5fmvj6

This card means the world to me. It's kinda odd being a foster mom because sometimes you feel like you're not a 'whole' mom. You deal with the knowledge that your littles could come or go at the drop of a dime and that you may never get called 'mom'. It's been a challenging past month not knowing if C would leave us and going back and forth with will he stay or will he go in the future. But I'm so thankful for this card, it's a blessing in the midst of this pandemic. https://www.instagram.com/p/B_7y2ahDTpjJaO6_WiX-W7wcMf925vFvq0Yn9E0/?igshid=1awz45r6a34xy

Happy Easter!!! Madre just condemned Sati to 'dog heck' because she pees and poops everywhere. Apparently Jesus didn't come for this little pup but just us humans. https://www.instagram.com/p/B-4Yp6hjMiKo2OcfOcCuLPrIpzlhc_cLDjhajY0/?igshid=zjr8flzy2foq

I finally caved, partially because I kept hearing it was such a good workout for the arms. Wasn't actually that bad whisking it 🤷‍♀️ put over coffee because I can't do straight milk. https://www.instagram.com/p/B-uSoIrjOhFGYkUSuP7McEDXifSBEU6PogDs2U0/?igshid=cc5igjrk7slv

He's my hero, not because he's military but because he gives and gives so selflessly of himself. So thankful God knew exactly who I needed and never listened to my begging when I thought I knew better. https://www.instagram.com/p/B5IOKJdFdR4TMaX643s66WQUp2-XHX9cn2ZUdU0/?igshid=1op39y49q0ca2

Best. Husband. Ever. https://www.instagram.com/p/B4yFjA6lS3xFScYEMUxv0udSPqsrmiKhmzcs480/?igshid=5ey0qyyus4cs

When you ask your husband if you can just buy in bulk for #operationchristmaschild https://www.instagram.com/p/B4uuGoFl2suddMgh4muQX36fIjwxEZ5v2gHPEQ0/?igshid=1uaalcd2oe7qq

So one week with Baby C and it's been a learning/growth journey for me. I think there's many reasons God entrusted him to my care. But just a few off the top of my head are: 1. It's helping me to have compassion for the life that our single moms with Hope 4 Life live day to day. 2. It's challenging me to further give of myself, even though it feels like I've given all I have already some days. 3. To further see how amazing a partner I married, because even though we're not together he gets on skype and talks to C and me every night. 4. It's helped me learn just how supportive the church family I have is, I truly don't know how I would've felt up to this challenge with Ed gone without their constant help and prayer. I'm tired but super thrilled that Gods trusted me with his care and praying it won't be long til he's able to be with his birth family again. #fostercare #fostermom https://www.instagram.com/p/B4na6OSl29-pa59v0gUV7kM62gecQkJZgsPsgg0/?igshid=193rxyi6pqv50

Hubby has sent not one but two bouquets since my birthday. I'm so thankful for every big and little gesture he does while we're apart. I always wonder why God blesses me with the most devoted and wonderful husband ever! https://www.instagram.com/p/B3-w7dMFQAKc90f_byXFYvJHGcyoRNVwHFH7ko0/?igshid=1eh6ikbru81dj

Prayers please as we try to reach out to moms and dads and save their little ones today https://www.instagram.com/p/B34arjXDg02Rr8GJ0a_CTfDRg0ovLJGwaWDoqE0/?igshid=kxlo1agldguu

Spending my birthday out here in hopes and prayers that others might get a birthday too. Please pray with me today for these little ones to be spared ❤️💙 https://www.instagram.com/p/B3uLbWMFNlGYMEx9VT8ziaKgikyrFi2Gl9VHXU0/?igshid=sn15o5xe6om7