solver? I hardly know her!

So thinking about like. Redemption arc J still in the early piece of shit stage and only starting to try to work on things like still catches herself calling him stupid and stuff sometimes, and N let's those relatively harmless things slide mostly cause of patience and like old habits die hard but also secretly thinks she's really hot and he's not exactly not into mean women being mean to him (just y'know..there's a line)

But imagine..... J having a particularly bad moment of snapping at him more intensely as usual like saying some cutting remarks punctuated with an up close and personal threat, and then she like recoils after realizing she lost control a little there and did a contract violation(tm), N can see in real time the pang of "oh fuck" hit her so before she can get into a panic attack or something he's just like, "hey hey don't get worked up mistakes are bound to happen and the important part is learning from them right?" And she's like, "right... Yeah......I didn't... mean those things..." ("sorry"s still taste too acrid to get out but, baby steps). And N reassures her he's not angry he's not gonna "tell on her", just lets work on holding back the outbursts because it's not really okay to speak to him like that and she knows it.

Later on when J's alone she's dwelling on it, getting frustrated at herself, feeling like N lets her off the hook too easily which she's both incredibly relieved about because it means she doesn't get kicked out, but also like guilty he puts up with her, it can't be pleasant, he's gotta be hiding how he really feels about her behind his everyone's-friend veneer. Maybe out of pity for her maybe cause he's just too nice to say no maybe because he hates himself and being J's "friend" is a self punishment but like surely his patience will run out or he'll gain too much respect for himself.

Meanwhile N is alone thinking back about the moment and how it put butterflies in his stomach because he always had a bit of a Thing for her (just y'know less so than V) even though like.. undoubtedly she did make him feel terrible in the past, but holy cow she always looked gorgeous doing it, she was so hot and dominant, it made getting pushed around sometimes thrilling. So.. her old self showing for a moment after it's been a long time just ignites that arousal. He replays it in his mind (maybe literally since it seems like they have background recording LOL) while jerking off and shamefully kind of wishing she didn't catch herself so quickly, maybe she would've kept reaming him, maybe pushed him down or something... Show him his place below her... He's just a breathy squirmy mess getting off to her.

And he feels bad about this in his own way, she is trying to be a better person, it is a stride in her growth that she did stop herself without having to be told, she knew she did something wrong, she didn't argue. He could surely never ever let her find out he derives any kind of amusement or pleasure from her checkered past or behavioral relapses, nor does he want to send the wrong message and there a lot of potential wrong messages.. one of them being the notion that J's effort is nothing but a joke to him, he doesn't actually care about her or think she's capable of improving, she's just little toy he's playing with until he gets bored.

No it would be terrible if she thought that because he cares SO much about her, has only become more fond of her the more she tries and shows the inner good person she is bit by but. And that's also a shameful drive to the fantasy in a hard to explain way, like he knows these different sides of her and likes both a lot and.. is maybe catching some feelings but dear god she can't find out because she won't believe it's innocuous and hell would freeze over before she felt anything but ... Tolerance for him. "Friendship" even feels like a stretch.

So basically both these goobers are thinking the best the other person does is tolerate the other...... J feels like every time she screws up it's another nail in her work-in-progress coffin, she's going to lose his grace. And N secretly thinks some of her screw ups are really fucking hot and sometimes it compels him to go easy on her and she would be furious or devastated or disgusted or some combo of those things if she knew 😔

...bonus naughty thought (as I love bringing others into complicated horny feelings) .. is N confessing this to Uzi and like bracing himself for disgust (but it just felt wrong to not tell her) but Uzi's like... omg so you do have a thing for her. I kind of had a feeling 😏 I get it man she is kind of hot even though she sucks. I kinda wanna hear more though 👀

N is embarrassed and worried about sharing but he also feels so pent up he wants to get it off his chest... So he asks her to promise whatever he shares about what J did or said, Uzi won't hold it over her or punish her for violation, because he has made his own choice about it not being something he felt needed to be escalated, he has resolved the incident in a satisfactory way with her, PLEASE Uzi promise 🥺 (she promises, she thinks N's protectiveness is charming even if it's towards someone Uzi isn't that fond of, and it would definitely feel wrong to use something so sensitive he confided in her about to do anything to betray his trust)

And with that said he talks about some of the behavior of J's that gets him hot and bothered, the insults he kind of liked.. he gets increasingly turned on and Uzi touches him while encouraging him to keep talking about the way he fantasizes about her following through with her threats, he kind of misses her shoves and smacks but he's rooting for her SO much he doesn't want her to regress he doesn't want her to suffer, god if only he could just ask for her to do it if only it were that simple.

She's doing SO good though oh my goddd so good (throbbingly aroused)(Uzi lovingly holding him from behind and touching him while listening and kissing his shoulder and neck). He's soooo worked up, shuddering, almost crying as he says he wants to be her stress ball again just, give her one night tell her she can do ANYTHING she wants to him, emotionally or literally tear him to pieces, no limit no consequence unleash months of pent up anger. it wouldn't be good for her though for him to ask for it, it would be very confusing and damaging while she's in the volatile state she's in. Uzi praises N for how considerate he is he truly truly is a strong and caring person and it's not bad to have this fantasy, she wishes she could do anything at all to bring it to life between the two of them, alas... But he can at least moan J's name as much as he wants and say whatever he wishes he could say, while Uzi brings him to a VERY much needed intense climax.

Because in the situation of a envuzi adoption of J (soon to be full company)

It would be the first time N and V are off to the side when it comes to J’s life obviously they interact but J is basically doing her own thing with supervision and a safety net

This would be the first time they can see her from a different perspective and realise she needs allot of hugs

Her famously foul mode and short fuse?

They thought it was as simple as J hating them but now with having her weekly schedule in hand and seeing J has somehow achieved the ability to work 25 hours a day 7 days a week they realise all those times they thought J was sleeping she was actually putting their stats on a graph with a fake “sleep mode” on her display

Her losing her shit at the tiniest mistake?

Thought she was aggressively controlling (and while she is controlling) but then they hear Uzi on the phone with her dad who called in a panic because J came into his office ripped her arm off and offered it to him hoping it would please him and give her a softer punishment (her mistake was mistaking a 4 for a 9 so now they have 5 spare door motors)

Her sucking up to people in positions of power?

They thought she was just clambering for power to stroke her ego but after the 2nd month of J doing nothing but running herself ragged they realise she isn’t comfortable resting cuz if she isn’t constantly proving her worth she doesn’t think she has any worth and will be thrown away (for like the 4th time)

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I find it so much fun, just them finally getting to sit on the sidelines and watch J instead of being on the field and dealing with her directly, V getting a chance to spot the little chunks of good N and Tessa saw in J and N being more confident that giving J a second chance was the correct decision as he sees this chunks shine and the darkness that hid them, and Uzi…… kinda just being there to support the other 2 (maybe seeing the points of weakness cyn abused to keep her loyal and what to tip toe around and what is safe to pester J about)

And J just being completely oblivious to this entire process cuz she needs to go to work or get thrown out

(This has been on my mind for a bit so that’s why their is all this yappage, I like yapping at you, if u don’t like that lmk and I’ll stop hehe)

Absolutely I feel like living around J in like a Normal circumstance (not on a destroy planets mission just like living in a house going about life) would slowly reveal to everyone what's truly going on with her,

Yay or nay

Worm Uzi, DD V and J pinning N down and proceeding to worship/fuck/affection him till until something gives

Taking the affectionate/giving to others one and putting them on the other side and making them recieve affection back. Especially if they're sincere and have been steadfast about supporting the others.

Just the idea of N being on a combined receiving end of the polycule he's loved and supported since day 1.

BIG YAY

Losing my mind actually, because of how zoomed in the final cut (I assume; Uzi's pose from what I can tell in the shot does line up with this) of this scene ends up being, we can't see how the models are posed, but not only is Uzi's tail around J she is holding it like a fucking lasso, INCREDIBLE.

(wasn't in the story boards, as the boards do depict the scene being more zoomed in as intended)

And some additional images of J getting pwned

Very casual self promo for my ko-fi 😖 I forgotttt my phone billing cycle needs to be renewed this month and I did Not take that into consideration irt my budget before being like "sweet alright I can squeeze in a cosplay this year lets fucking do it <- clueless", whoopsie daisies..!! If you like my work + blog it would mean lots to me to be supported!

Imagine......null Uzi and J with a vajanya scissoring but they're being cute and shy about it cause they're both internally worried about being useless to the other person like Uzi doesn't have any parts so it's just like, is this even anything for J, and J's like, does she even get anything out of this am I the only one feeling good.... But they're both actually crazy horny about it like the mental and physical aspect she does feel is all she needs, and she's really good at moving that rubs J's pussy in all the right ways, and they just like it, they probably don't have sex a ton being mostly platonic but when the mood strikes, when they're not doing some dom/sub kink focus they're really sweet with each other and kind of embarrassed to acknowledge it cause it messes with their arch rivalry and usual snarkiness,

not that it's not a reason they get worked up about each other sometimes lol, but I think other times they end up having tender + vulnerable moments, especially Uzi who's haunted every now and again by how many times she tired to kill J and she's like secretly scared of anything bad happening to her and she'd probably blame herself no matter the mental gymnastics it takes. Sometimes she needs to hug J and kiss her and sometimes it's not enough she needs more of her.

I'm not 100% confident on my legalese BUT I guess, to be fair, it's meant to have been written by Uzi + co, who wouldn't be professionals about it either.