this place isn’t haunted it is the ghost

i hate when ppl act like the only reason to not like a "sad" ending is because you can't take it or whatever. personally as a tragedy enjoyer, i hate a poorly written ending. i hate an ending that is just kind of a bummer. i hate an ending that feels mean-spirited to the audience. i hate an ending that's redundant. i love a sad ending that is thematically consistent, poignant, and bespoke to the rest of its narrative.

#if you've got to earn a happy ending you've got to earn a sad one too

i block ppl all the time so my blocklist ranges from "actual fucking asshole fascist" n "post that mildly annoyed me because im petty" and if i went thru my blocklist rn i probably would have no idea why i blocked each of them but whatever

thinking about how supernatural is a tragedy, specifically dean winchester, specifically how dean winchester's life was a tragedy. set up for failure since elementary school with his dead mom and his absent/abusive dad. he is suicidal from the first episode to the last episode when they finally give him what he wants and kill him off. this is a character who tries to kill himself several times (on purpose on screen right in front of our very eyes) and succeeds only for them to drag him back again, a character who wants nothing more than to have a normal life and a family and a happy ending. a character who wants good things to happen to him/for him so badly. but the narrative brutalizes him. everyone he loves dies. he can't save any of them. he never gets to make or keep a family. he never gets to retire from hunting. he never gets to know any other life. they just fucking kill him. and he dies without ever really knowing what it feels like to love or be loved. he dies without unlearning his self hatred or his repression. he dies without getting anything he wanted. there is no resolution to his story. all of that useless, directionless wanting. all of that aimless and pitiful clawing and climbing and gnashing his teeth just for him to die. his ending is so toothless and unfair, when he's someone who suffered so much and struggled so hard and only wanted, more than anything, to have a life. for him to resign himself to that one final death when he had quite literally nothing else to lose is so bleak. where was his reward? why did they decide to show him that he was right all along, that he would be alone always and then he would die, that there would never be peace for him until he was dead, that all he was meant for was being used up and spit out and then killed? like what else did they want from him... i'm sick to my stomach

dean and his attraction to guys who could beat his dad up

every episode of spn is like okay we’re gonna spilt up dean you go confront an element of the narrative that will make clear how the abuse you endured as a child continues to harm your self worth and makes you repress every desire you’ve ever had. sam you go interrogate the milf

divinely neglected

Supernatural is great because Eric kripke said I am going to make such a kripkean little tv show and Kim manners said I’m just gonna shoot moody small towns like the xfiles again and jensne ackles said dean winchester has tricked me, texan triple pisces male model jensen ackles into being here, so I am going to make this the problem of homosexual high schoolers, and jared padalecki went I’m in a jared padalecki commercial!

the thing about contemporary yaoi is you can always tell when one of them is supposed to be dean winchester

dean winchester went to hell the same year shane hollander and ilya rozanov met. just think about that.

the dream thieves is the most perfect book ever because adam and gansey are going through a divorce, blue is breaking up with adam, ronan lets go of his crush on gansey in favor of perusing his para-religious devotion to adam full time, kavinsky is obsessed with having a threesome with gansey and ronan and sends gansey a dick pic from ronan’s phone, gansey starts dating blue behind adam's back the second they're freshly divorced and adam and blue have broken up, ronan turns kavinsky down and as a reaction to that kavinsky kidnaps ronans brother and then kills himself in front of their whole group. everyone is completely unfazed by this except for gansey who seems to care a little bit which adam thinks is cute. it's also in this book that the hitman who killed ronan’s dad starts hitting on blue’s mom. sound off in the comments if you know of any other ya books similar to this