who even knows

I knew logically my body had changed, was totally fine with that, theoretically, but hot damn was I like 🫠 It makes me mad and sad that my first reaction was ‘fuuuck I need to lose weight’, like, after everything? Never fear though babygorls my brain did pretty immediately go ‘um the fuck??? Just for that we’re gonna try a new recipe tonight and fuckin EAT’ so.

I did have to go look at my thiccspo pinterest board for reassurance though. And repeat my-started as a joke but I afear is now genuine-affirmation of “people wanna fuck me! people wanna pay to fuck me! I could be much fatter and people will STILL want to pay to fuck me!”.

And like I have always, always, truthfully believed that no one is ever automatically too fat for sex work. Or too old. Or too anything else. It really is about finding your market. Yeah there are limitations to that, but fundamentally. Like a lot of things though, I truly believe that for other people, but sometimes I struggle extending that to myself.