a disabled clown in training, and mean with it

But since I’ve gotten too disabled to fight anymore, I… find myself coming back to that maiden in a tower. It’s that funny thing, where subverting femininity is powerful for the people who have always been forced into it… but for the people who have always been excluded, the powerful thing can be embracing it.

As I’m disabled, as I say to groups of friends, “I can’t walk that far,” as I’m in too much pain to keep partying, I find myself worrying: I’m boring, too quiet, too stationary, irrelevant. The message sent to the disabled is: You’re out of the narrative, you’re secondary, you’re a burden.

The remarkable thing about the maiden in her tower is not her immobility; it’s common for disabled people to be abandoned, set adrift, waiting at bus stops or watching out the windows, forgotten in institutions or stranded in our houses. The remarkable thing is that she’s like a beacon, turning her tower into a lighthouse; people want to come to her, she’s important, she inspires through her appearance and words and craftwork.  In medieval romances she gives gifts, write letters, sends messengers, and summons lovers; she plays chess, commissions ballads, composes music, commands knights. She is her household’s moral centre in a castle under siege. She is a castle unto herself, and the integrity of her body matters.

randomized dungeon layouts

randomized legendary items whose names are always either rly cool or rly stupid, no in-between

you get a pet dog or cat thatll help you out in fights and sell stuff for you

the local enchanter just happens to be a penguin

some of the townsfolk are monsters like the ones in the dungeon but nobody talks about it and thats just funny to me. one’s a zombie that hangs out in the graveyard and makes moaning noises but otherwise gives you missions like everyone else

the penguin enchanter lives in the graveyard too

you can catch fish that’ll turn your pet into other monsters!! and sometimes the fish have weird stuff inside them like gems and entIRE SWORDS

some of my fave celtic music ever

this old-ass narrator announces every other thing you do. “you feel refreshed”

if you die you get a few choices on how you come back from fate himself and each choice has different benefits and drawbacks