anna screams into the void

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

currently: losing my mind over noah kahan's the great divide

fandoms:

✮ outer banks

✮ percy jackson and heroes of olympus

✮ stranger things

✮ arcane

✮ the hunger games

✮ marvel/spiderman (i haven't kept up with much marvel lore since multiverse of madness but i'll always have a love for the og stories)

✮ julie and the phantoms

✮ high school musical the musical the series

✮ cyberpunk: edgerunners

✮ fullmetal alchemist brotherhood

✮ jujutsu kaisen

music:

✮ taylor swift

✮ one direction (#1 niall fangirl)

✮ noah kahan

✮ olivia rodrigo

✮ conan gray

✮ gracie abrams

✮ hozier

✮ backseat lovers

✮ cage the elephant

HEY VECNA PUT MY BOY DOWN

Welcome to the beautiful Sinclair family

conrad's reaction to that tiny ring BAHAHAHA

bc he's all of us fr

i feel like this part started off really strong & ended strong, but lost its footing somewhere in the middle.

i LOVED how we got to see more of the pogue dynamic. how they gave us some of their happy times in season one. the jiara moments were more than i could’ve asked for. seeing the pogues surfing & racing bikes & just LIVING was so cool, i love how we got to see them try to start up their business & work hard.

i do wish, however, that the pates had spent less time on the sofia storyline, & more time digging into the pogues family drama. even just one scene of sarah & john b processing their grief about the death of their dads would have been so monumental. same with kie, her parents basically just got written out & so did popes.

who knows, maybe the whole goat island rafe real estate plot line will get tied in & start to make sense, but it just fell a little flat for me. especially with sofia. she’s a cool character & the idea of rafe dating a pogue is interesting, but i think that screen time could’ve been better spent on our own pogues & their relationships.

“i like that accent, welcome to our country” like get OUT i can already tell imma hate this man

In 2x03 after Ward and Rafe get the gold back, Rafe is clearly on the brink of a panic attack and EVEN SAYS he's not okay. This moment is MASSIVE. Rafe's concern isn't about Sarah's well being like Ward first believes, it's instead about his own psyche. Rafe is freaking out because he shot Sarah and Peterkin and he's feeling himself lose his grip. He says "I keep having these thoughts in my head and I don't know if I can control them... I'm afraid of what's gonna happen." This is the first and only time we see Rafe ask for help, saying "What if I'm not okay. I'm not okay."

Instead of listening to and trying to help Rafe, Ward makes him shove down these emotions and concerns by smothering Rafe with a hug and telling him that after a good steak and a good night's sleep, everything will be better. This bottling up of emotions is likely something Rafe has been taught from an early age in an effort for Ward to save face. Rose even says in 2x04 that there's something wrong with Rafe that they've been ignoring "since he was ten years old". From this we can infer that Rafe has shown signs of mental instability for years that has never been looked into. Instead, he has been taught unhealthy coping mechanisms like suppressing his emotions which then lead to explosions of rage.

It just makes me curious. I wonder how different Rafe could have turned out if he had been raised in a different environment. Where instead of being constantly compared to Sarah, ignored, and taught to suppress his emotions and needs, he learned how to cope with his dangerous thoughts and feelings. We see goodness in him when he asks for help. A part of Rafe is afraid of his own mind, and of where it might lead him if he keeps going down the path he's on. Like most villains, Rafe is not a bad person. He is instead a product of his unfortunate environment, someone who has needed psychological help and never gotten it.