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๐๐๐๐ง๐๐ฃ๐: frat!Rafe Cameron x innocent Pogue!reader
๐๐๐ง๐ฃ๐๐ฃ๐๐จ: dark, dubcon, unhinged inner monolog from rafe, misogynistic rhetoric, classist rhetoric (in the context of kooks, pogues etc), daddy kink, innocence kink, loss of virginity, smut (oral + p in v), oral (female receiving, fingering, MAJORR size kink, spanking, daddy issues, condescension, babying, dirty talk, swearing, very unbalanced power dynamic, which rafe gets off on, slut-shaming, derogatory name calling, manipulation, college au, reader is a freshman and rafe is a senior, 18+ only, mdni
๐๐ช๐ข๐ข๐๐ง๐ฎ: Rafe bets his friends he can fuck you in one week.
๐ผ/๐: It's here! The full fic. Word count: 23k. Please let me know what you think - reblogs and feedback mean the world to me. Read the warnings before you read, and enjoy!
โHer.โ
Rafe looks over at the Pogue girl Topperโs nodding at and smirks. โBeen there, done that. Pick a different one.โ
Topper scoffs, โShe literally moved here last week.โย
โAnd?โ
โOKโฆ What about her?โ He brazenly points at a leggy blonde that stands out in her group of Pogues.
โLast weekend at the beach party you threw. She gives good head.โย
โJesus Christ dude, is there anyone left??โย
Rafe chuckles, leaning back and stretching his legs out while his friends stare at him in disbelief. He sometimes wonders if they know how stupid they look. Like followers. His followers. Hanging on to his every word, oohing and aahing at whatever he did. Making him feel like he was a God among men. Which he may as well be, considering thatโs how most people at this college looked at him.ย
Thatโs why he loved fucking the Pogue girls. Almost exclusively. There was something about the power imbalance. Most of them came from poor families, looked at Rafe like he was a God. It didnโt take much for them to spread their legs for him, impressed by his power, turned on by his wealth. Hell, even the Kook girls were the same. But Rafe hardly ever took them home. They were spoiled sluts who hung around the country club wasting their lives and spending their daddiesโ money. Yeah, they didnโt pique his interest at all. Not as much as the Pogue girls who worked at the country club. In their little housekeeping outfits, deliberately teasing him in the hopes heโd take one of them home.
Yeah. It was safe to say Rafe Cameron had a type.
โWell, what about that one?โย
Rafe rolls his eyes, about to say that yes, he had indeed fucked whatever girl Topper was pointing at this time. Because heโd fucked all of them. Because of who he was. Because of what he was capable of. Because of the family he came from. Because of what being a mere notch on Rafe Cameronโs bedpost meant to every single slut heโd ran through.ย
Except he doesnโt. Because Topper is pointing at you. And heโs never seen you before in his life.
You look so out of place, despite the fact youโre with a group of Pogues. And he knows youโre a Pogue. Like a shark with blood and a predator with its prey, he can always tell. And yet you stand awkwardly on the outskirts of the group, smiling yet not quite participating in whatever conversation is going on. You push your glasses up, straighten your skirt, pretend to look for something in your book bag. Youโre shy. Self-conscious. Insecure. Rafe smiles.
โWho is she?โ
โAha! You havenโt slept with her!โ Topper cheers like heโs won the fucking lottery. Sometimes Rafe wonders why heโs friends with him.
โWho is she?โ He repeats like he hasnโt even heard him.
โSheโs the new chick,โ Kelce says, โexcept sheโs not exactly new in town.โ
โI heard she was home-schooled,โ Topper snickers, โThatโs why sheโs fucking weird and has no friends. Even the Pogues donโt want her.โ
Rafe observes you some more. Watches the bright smile on your face, how you try to chime in to whatever conversation the girls around you are having. They nod at you politely yet dismissively. Theyโre not your friends. As Topper said, you donโt have any.ย
Insecure. Weak. Vulnerable.ย
He licks his lips.
โHow long?โ
โHuh?โ
He runs a hand through his hair impatiently, โHow long do you wanna bet it takes me to get her into bed?โ He nods in your direction.
Topper raises an eyebrow.
โYou canโt be serious, man. She looks like she doesnโt even know what sex means.โ
Kelce laughs, โShe looks like she canโt even say it. Like she spells it out every time, s-e-x.โ
Theyโre right. You look very innocent, but all that does is incense him. Rafeโs used to easy sluts who spread their legs after one drink or a ride on his motorbike. But you. He can tell youโd be harder to crack. But thereโs something so fucking hot about how naive you look. How shy and sweet you are. How ruined he could leave you. Splayed out on his bike, legs quivering, all sweaty limbs and shy pants after heโs done having his way with youโ
โHow long?โ He repeats, not in the mood to waste time and already getting hard picturing innocent little you with your tiny skirt flipped up and his head buried between those soft thighs, your sweet little confused cries because no oneโs ever touched you like that, andโย
โA week.โย
โMm?โ
โA week to fuck her. With proof.โย
Rafe stands up and stretches, licking his lips as he watches you retreat to a small bench, getting your little book out and burying your nose in it.ย
โThatโs too easy. What do I get when I do it?โ
โIf you do it, you can decide what you get then. But as I said before, weโd need proof.โ Kelce says.
โYeah, proof,โ Topper echoes, a glint in his eye as he looks over at you, โPictures.โ
Rafe shrugs, already kind of bored, โSure.โ Heโd taken plenty of pictures of his conquests in the past. Him and his boys had a group chat where they shared that kind of shit. And the idea of taking pictures of you in such a vulnerable position gets him harder than anything. Sweet little freshman baby fucked dumb by the big bad senior, posing for pictures afterwards all teary-eyed but submissive. They all got submissive for him, even after he was done using them.
You flip a page, completely engrossed in your book and looking every bit the naive baby heโs imagining you as. A little lamb who has no idea she was in the presence of a fucking lion. And he bets youโre a virgin. Homeschooled with no friends? Forget virgin, you probably havenโt even had your first kiss. And that gets him so fucking horny, right there in the middle of the campus courtyard. The idea that youโre so pure, so untouched. So happy, so unassuming. A little fucking baby.
Heโd have fun ruining you.
***
โYou sure do love reading, donโt you?โย
Itโs the following day when Rafe finds you sitting by yourself in the corner of the library, with nothing but your book to keep you company.
You jump like a little mouse, pushing your glasses up your nose and gulping up at him, fear briefly flitting across your face before you force a small smile. And he likes his girls jumpy, he likes them slightly afraid of him. He knows he has that effect on people in general, but he wonders whoโs told you about him.
โSorry, were you โ uh โ were you talking to me?โ
Rafe smirks, โYes. Who else would I be talking to?โ
โOh, uh, Iโm not sureโฆโ
โIt was a rhetorical question.โ
โOh, of course,โ you look embarrassed, and he watches you squirm under his gaze for a good few seconds. โIโฆ umโฆโย
โYou find books more interesting than people?โ
โHuh?โ
He chuckles, pulling up a chair next to you, noting how your eyes widen as he takes a seat, โWhy are you always reading?โ
โI donโt know, I guess I just like to read,โ you shrug.ย
โYou sure do.โ He wonders if he could get you to read your precious book out loud while he went down on you, licked your virgin cunt while you cried because it felt too good. And then heโd spank you if you stopped or messed up a word, and like a stupid dumb fucking baby, youโd sniffle and wail through each paragraph, hold back your moans while he went to town on your little pussy till you wet yourself, and heโd suck yourโ
โAre you making fun of me?โ
You pose the question so innocentlyโ hell, you practically whisper it, and it knocks Rafe straight out of his daydream to find you blinking up at him with Bambi eyes.ย
โWhat?โ
You bite your lip, โIโm sorry, itโs just that Iโm not so good at understanding if someoneโs joking or not. Iโm notโฆ uhโฆ Iโm not used to being around so many people, and it makes me nervous and I canโt tell if someoneโs being genuine or if theyโre making fun of me.โย
โYou were homeschooled, huh?โ Rafe stares at you intently, noting how you play with your hair nervously, and your fingers tap against the hard cover of your book. How you can barely make eye contact with him for longer than a few seconds.ย
โYes. My mom taught me and my older brothers.โ
Rafe nods, taking his time to answer. He looks at you some more, enjoying how it makes you uncomfortable. You fidget nervously, and it amuses him every time you peek up to meet his gaze before a look of alarm crosses your face and you divert your eyes down to your book once more.ย
โYouโre a shy little thing, arenโt you?โ He says finally, chuckling at the embarrassed look on your face.
โIโฆ I guess. I do want to make friends but itโs pretty overwhelming.โ
โIโll be your friend.โย
He does a good job of hiding his predatory, wolfish smile. And he wonders if you can see the glint in his eye as he mentally undresses you. You look so small and weak, especially compared to him. Gullible too. Too innocent for your own good, the way you gape up at him as if heโs offered you gold on a platter. It makes him want to stroke your soft cheek, pat it and tell you what a good little girl you are. For being so naive.ย
You shake your head as if trying to straighten out your thoughts. He can tell, he has that effect on women too.ย
โOh, you donโt have to, I uhโโ
โRafe Cameron?! In the library?!โ An annoying, high-pitched voice shrieks, making you jump as it cuts you off mid-sentence.
Itโs a kook girl. A cheerleader. Rafe canโt be fucked to remember her name but heโs sure heโs hooked up with her. Sheโs one of those ones, the ones that hang out at the country club and try to catch his eye. One of the desperate sluts who thinks if she spreads her legs enough times for him, that heโll make her his girlfriend or some stupid shit like that.ย
โRafe, what are you doing here?โ The cheerleader sidles up to him, her hand on his chest and batting her lashes in his direction in some pathetic form of seduction. She ignores you, and you shrink into yourself, hastily burying your face in your book.
โWhat do you want?โ He asks, not quite as interested in her answer as he is in continuing to stare at you. How you try to act like you donโt care, but he knows youโre hurt from being ignored, from being treated like youโre invisible.
โNothing. Just wondering what youโre up to.โ But she flashes him her fuck me eyes, her nails scraping suggestively against his chest. Rafe yawns, considering it. He has time before his next class (not that he could be fucked to turn up to class half the time) and his dickโs hard from talking to you. And since you probably donโt even know what the word blowjob meansโฆย
โGo in there,โ he nods at one of the private study rooms in the far end of the library, and the fucking slut nearly trips as she scrambles to obey him. Rafe takes his time, stretching his legs before slowly getting up.
You peek up from your book, โAre you guys gonna go study in there?โย
He couldโve bust a nut then and there from how fucking innocent you sound. Batting your little eyelashes at him like youโre trying to seduce him without even realising it. He knows heโll be thinking about you, weepy and on your knees, while the kook girl blows him. Fuck, and if he plays his cards right, heโd have you by the end of the week. And he always plays his cards right.ย
โYou could call it studying.โ
You nod, โOK, well, goodbye then.โ You look back down at your book, but risk a glance up at him again, which he finds very amusing.ย
โWhatโs your name, homeschool?โย
You tell him.
He sounds it out, before shooting you one last smile, โWell, Iโll see you soon. Wonโt I?โ
You give him a puzzled look, but itโs replaced by your usual wide-eyed Bambi stare when he pats your hand, his thumb lingering, stroking your skin. He wonders if youโve ever even touched someone of the opposite sex before. Judging by how your breath hitches softly, he doubts it.ย
Fuck. He canโt wait to ruin you. Play the slow game and enjoy that sweet virgin snatch before any other man ever could.ย
Thatโs what heโs thinking of when heโs got the cheerleader on her knees in front of him. That sweet little look on your face, the look of curiosity mixed with shyness and that little hint of indignation. Fuck, he wants to ruin you. And he would. With proof.
***
Day two. Rafe finds you walking down the hallway, your books clutched to your chest and eyes trained to the floor. Cutest little skirt making your perky ass pop, winking at him enticingly with every step as if youโre deliberately seducing him. Makes him want to slap your cute little ass, reprimand you for teasing him and half the men on campus without even realising it. He wonders what youโd say if he just did it. Spanked you in front of everyone. Youโd probably start blubbering like a little baby. He has to forcibly stop picturing it before he gets uncomfortably hard.
Youโre alone. As usual.
โHey, homeschool,โ he falls into step beside you, eyebrow raising in amusement when you donโt slow down nor look at him.
โOh, h-hello, Rafe.โย
โWhatโre you up to today?โย
โNothing, just going to my next lecture.โ
He grabs your wrist, watching as your breath hitches, and yet you still donโt look at him. Damn, what had gotten Bambi so scared?
โYouโve got time to talk to me, donโt you?โ He asks, but itโs not really a question. And you know it, judging by how you swallow harshly.
โIโm so sorry, I donโt want to be lateโโ You attempt to tug your little hand out of his grasp but youโre so small and weak that it barely has any effect.ย
โCโmon, homeschool. Thatโs no way to treat your one and only friend.โ
Heโs walks you into a corner, and he likes how you gape at the wall before turning and looking up at him. Heโs so much taller than you, bigger than you in every single way.ย
โRafe, Iโฆโ you sigh, shifting from one foot to the other, โMy friends said some thingsโฆโ
โFriends?โ You donโt have any.
โSome of the girls I know. They saw us talking yesterday at the library and theyโฆโ you sigh, โThey said you were probably just playing a joke on me.โ
Fuckinโ jealous pogue bitches.ย
โOh yeah?โ
โYes. They said thereโs no way youโd talk to me for any other reason apart from as a joke. And theyโฆโ you bite your lip, looking so cutely distraught and it goes straight to his dick. โThey said some other thingsโฆ about you.โย
Of course they fuckinโ did. Always talking behind his back, but never to his goddamned face. Nothing but a bunch of jealous, gold-digging whores.
He doesnโt say anything, just merely looks at you as if he expects you to tell him. And he knows you will. Youโre too innocent to keep secrets.
โThey said that youโฆ that youโre scary sometimes.โ
Rafe remains impassive, waiting for you to continue.ย
โThat youโฆ that you pick on a lot of us Pogues. E-Especially the boys. That you and your friends bully them.โ
He snorts. Bully. What a juvenile word. Sure, he pushed the dipshit Pogues around here and there. They deserved it for all the trouble they ran around town causing, disrupting the natural order of shit. And he could fuck their girls better than they ever could. Especially that fuckinโ idiot JJ Maybankโฆ
โThey also said thatโฆ never mind.โ Again, you try to tug away from him but to no avail.
โTell me.โ He likes how you struggle under his scrutinising gaze.
โItโsโฆ itโs not appropriate.โ
โSay it. Now.โย
You lower your voice, โThey said you like to use the girls. The pogue girls. Th-That you have a kink for them.โย
The scandalous words have hardly left your mouth before you duck your head down as if embarrassed. God, you were so fucking innocent. Rafe wonders how he should play this.ย
โHuh. Is that so?โ
โY-Yeah. One of the girls I talk toโฆ She said that youโฆโ you swallow, biting your lip, โthat youโve been with her and all her friends too. That you tell them all the same thing but itโs always a lie and you just end up using them.โ
Rafe nods, โHmm.โ
โIโm sorry, Rafe, but I donโt think we shouldโโ
โThatโs funny. I thought you were smart. You know, with all your books and the glasses and shit.โ
You blink, โWhat?โ
He shrugs, โI didnโt think youโd go ahead and pass judgement on someone without even getting to know them first.โ
โItโs not thatโโ
โI mean, here I am, wanting to be friends with you. And Iโve been nothinโ but nice, havenโt I?โ
Heโs still got you backed into a corner, and he watches as you flinch when he emphasises his words. He knows people get intimidated by his intensity, but thereโs nothing he hates more than people talking shit behind his back. Especially low-life Pogues. And he likes how scared you look right now, pouty lips all downturned and alarm in your eyes.
โI asked you a question, homeschool.โ
โYes, youโve been nothing but nice! Itโs just, I heard all these things, andโโ
โAnd you chose to believe them.โ He steps back abruptly, โIโll see you around, I guess.โ
He walks away, about to count to three in his head but you beat the count before he can even begin.
โRafe, wait! Iโm sorry, I didnโt mean to judge you.โ
He stops, allows you to catch up.
โYouโre right, IโฆI shouldnโt listen to other people.โ
โYou shouldnโt.โ Rafe agrees, easily taking your heavy textbooks from where youโve been balancing them in your arms. You gape, but he just continues smoothly: โWhereโs your next class?โ
You tell him, โBut you donโt have to walk with me or anythingโโ
โIโm your friend, homeschool. Thatโs what friends do.โ
*
Day 3. Youโre eating your lunch on a bench outside all by yourself. Rafeโs heading to his car with his friends. They usually cut classes most days to hit the beach or the country club. Rafe doesnโt see the point of college anyways, not when he was poised to inherit all of his fatherโs businesses, money and property. And with the ideas he had, heโd expand tenfold on whatever Ward was doing now, make a shit ton more money than his old man ever did. That would show himโฆ
ย โHowโs the bet coming along, Rafe?โ Topper asks.
โWait till the end of the week.โ Is all Rafe says. He doesnโt need to give progress reports to his dumb fuck ass follower friends.
โThat means heโs nowhere near cracking that virgin pussy.โ Kelce chuckles. โNo worries, brother. She looks like sheโs got a stick up her ass anyways. Not loose like the rest of the Pogue whores.โ
He ignores them as they laugh. But theyโre right. Youโre not like the rest of the Pogue girls. Theyโd grown up wild, promiscuous, loose. Trained to catch the attention of a rich Kook like himself, filled with self-serving motivations to marry into money. But he can already tell youโre different. With your cute little outfits and respectful, quiet demeanour. You look like youโd fit in where he was from.
Too bad he was only going to fuck you before discarding you like he did the rest of them.
โIโll catch you guys later.โ He says, making a beeline for you.
โHey,โ he chucks you under the chin, smirking when you jump.
โOh, hey Rafe.โ You look beyond his shoulder, โYour friends are all leaving.โ
โYeah. The waves are good this time of day.โ
You gape, โBut donโt you have classes?โ
He takes a seat next to you, making sure to stretch out while you shrink into yourself. Still so nervous around him. He snickers, โYou gonna tell on us?โ
You look aghast, โNo! I would neverโโ
โIโm just kidding, homeschool.โ
โOh,โ you look embarrassed, โSorry. Sometimes Iโโ
โCanโt tell if someoneโs joking or not,โ Rafe completes, โI remember. Iโll be more straight up with you.โ
You nod, and he can tell youโre trying to think of something else to say. But youโre too nervous, too awkward. And so you just bury your head in your book again, all while he watches you. Youโve got a bottle of apple juice and a half-eaten sandwich of some kind on the table next to you. Cut up into little triangles. He bets youโve done it yourself. Fuckinโ cute.
โYou dress cute.โ He says, and again, widened Bambi eyes stare up at him. He chuckles, โYou know, the little skirts and plaid and shit. Itโs cute.โ
โThank you.โ
โYou do it on purpose?โ He canโt help but ask, because he wonders if a part of you knows what youโre doing. Knows youโre dressing like a sexy little angel out of his wettest dreams. All little and cute and innocent, so much smaller than him. Weak. All pastel and pretty, like youโd look so fucking sexy on the back of his bike. On his arm. On his dick.
โI donโt know what you mean by that,โ you say, sounding every bit as innocent as you look. Damn, homeschool mustโve done a number on you. But he likes how sheltered you sound. It gets him so fucking hard, and a part of him almost feels sorry for how primed you are to be taken advantage of. โI wear my momโs old clothes, or stuff I find in the charity shops.โ
Heโd had maids and housekeepers who shopped in places like that. He remembers him and his siblings giving them their old clothes once theyโd grown out of them.
He nods, โYou look pretty.โ
Your breath hitches, and you really donโt know how to respond to that, because you slam your book shut and stand up, โI, uh, I have to go. I donโt want to be late for my next class.โ
He watches you leave, distracted by your ass again but not enough to miss the little smile that quirks on your lips as you bid him farewell and walk away.
*
On day 4, Rafe walks up behind you in the busy hallway, pressing his huge hand on your lower back and pushing you into another secluded corner. He smirks when you squeak, but he likes how easily he can push you around because of how weak and small you are.
โHey.โ He told himself heโd take it slow (well, as slow as he could take it in the span of one week) and yet he canโt help but press into you a little bit. Itโs innocuous enough, but your eyes widen as per usual, and the feel of your hot little body against his much larger one is enough to give him a boner. Itโs how he could easily push you into an empty lecture hall and have his way with you if he so wanted to. Sure, youโd cry and resist at first, but they all gave in in the end. And if someone caught them, heโd pay them off.
Rafe Cameron owned the world. Nothing could stop him.
โHello, Rafe.โ You breathe, and he loves how his name sounds when you say it. He imagines you moaning it when he has you on his lap, pressing you down on his dick while you cry and whimper because itโs too much, itโs too big. But your greedy little virgin pussy would take every inch of his fat dick, and heโd do all the work, of course. Youโd be too busy crying, and heโd bounce you up and down on his dick while you grabbed at his arms, his hair, his face. Heโd tell you to scrape your nails down his back, leave a fucking mark or two so daddy could remember you.
โCome for a drive with me? Iโll buy you lunch.โ
Despite your shyness, a fire flashes in your eyes, โI can buy my own lunch!โ
He raises an eyebrow. As if on cue, you lower your gaze.
โSorry, I meanโฆ thank you for your offer, Rafe. But I can buy my own lunch.โ
Surprisingly though, you agree to the drive. And he still has his hand pressed against your back, guiding you out to where his carโs parked. You ogle at it, probably never having seen anything as expensive. He wonders if your family even owns a car, or if you even know how to drive. It would be hot if you didnโt, it made you look even more helpless. In need of someone like him to protect you, take care of you. Someone powerful and wealthy like himself.
โWow, Iโve never been on this side of the island before!โ You say, oohing and aahing as you stare out the window. Rafeโs never seen anyone so easily excited by the neighbourhood heโd grown so used to. But he supposes the mansions, sports cars, country clubs and private beaches would be impressive to anyone who hadnโt grown up with easy access to all of that.
โNo?โ
โNo, but my brotherโs friend works there, I think.โ You point to the vast golf course at the back end of one of the clubs. โHe says the tips are really good.โ
Rafe frowns. You were talking to other men? No, not you. You were too sweet, too innocent. He was sure he was the only man you spoke to. Or even if you were speaking to others, he doubts a golf caddy pathetically running after balls would be much competition. And yet, he bristles, wanting to change the subject.
โDo you have a job?โ Rafe asks.
You shake your head, โNo. I sometimes tutor some kids in the neighbourhood but nothing permanent. Iโd love to have a part-time job with proper wages like the country club or library or something, but my familyโs kind of protective of me.โ
โMm?โ Heโs deliberately being quiet, wanting to hear you talk, wanting to learn more about you.
โYeah. Thatโs why I was homeschooled. My momโs scared someoneโs gonna take advantage of me.โ You pause, before giggling, โIt took a lot to convince her to let me apply for colleges, but I think sheโs finally starting to see me as an adult who can make my own decisions and protect myself.โ
The irony isnโt lost on Rafe, but he finds himself leaning closer. You have this way of talking, so soft and breathy, yet energetic and full of life at the same time. Like youโre a storybook character, like youโre someone out of this world. Like an angel dropped down from heaven and sent just for him. Youโre his type to a tee. God, he wants to fuck you so bad.
โWhat would your mom say if she knew you were out with me?โ His hand creeps up to rest on your knee. Youโre wearing jeans, which he doesnโt approve of but he decides to give you a pass since itโs windy today.
You donโt notice his touch anyways; youโre too busy pondering over his question. But thereโs a glint in your eye, โSh-She wouldnโt approve. But thatโs only โcause she doesnโt know you.โ
The corner of his mouth twitches, his thumb rubbing circles against the denim of your jeans. โAnd you do?โ
You swallow, finally realising heโs got his hand on you. Surprisingly, you donโt move. Itโs almost like youโre frozen, those big fuck me Bambi eyes making a comeback, โUhโฆIโฆWeโre friends, arenโt we?โ
He smirks, โYeah. Friends.โ His hand creeps up higher, stroking your thigh softly, wishing you were wearing one of your little skirts so he could feel your bare skin. But itโs thrilling anyways, touching your quivering body while youโre defenceless inside his car. He could lock the doors and have his way with you right now. Hell, people outside would get quite the show but it wouldnโt be the first time heโs fucked in public.
Poor little you. Losing your virginity in the front seat of his car. Heโd drag you into his lap, bounce you up and down on his cock. But not before making you beg for it first. And youโd cry so fucking bad, because it would hurt. Because heโd promise heโd be gentle but he knows himself, he knows heโd lose control like he always did. Fuck you so goddamned hard, heโd have to lay you down in the backseat afterwards because you wouldnโt be able to stop shaking. Then drive you back to his house, carry you into his bed and have his way with you again. And again. And again.
โRafe?โ
โYes?โ
โYouโre not hanging out with me because you feel sorry for me, are you?โ
That grabs his attention, โWhy would you think that?โ
You shrug, โNo reason. I justโฆ Well, you have so many friends. I guess I donโt quite understand why youโre hanging out with me.โ
โI like you.โ He shifts even closer, his hand steadily stroking your leg while you remain stiff, โDo you like me?โ
โH-Huh?โ
โYou heard me, homeschool.โ And yet he knows youโre distracted by his fingers tracing shapes on your thigh. Not random shapes, though. Itโs his initials. Over and over again. R.C., he wonders if you can tell.
โI, uh, y-yeโโ Youโre having trouble getting your words out, and it amuses him. He can see you visibly shaking, and he wonders if itโs out of fear or anticipation. Or both. He leans down, bringing his face close to yours.
โI didnโt quite get that.โ He licks his lips at how weak and intimidated you look. โSay it again.โ
Itโs an order, and you clear your throat, shake your head as if to clear your thoughts.
โYes,โ you whisper, as if itโs something scandalous, โY-Yes, I like you.โ
He pulls back abruptly, leaving you gaping at him.
โLetโs get something to eat. Iโm starving.โ
He buys you a panini from a little artisan bakery, with a strawberry iced tea and a packet of chocolate hearts with a cherry cream filling. You protest at first, unzipping your bag to pay for yourself, but heโd sooner roll over and die than let a woman pay for anything.
โToss me one,โ he says, and you throw a little cherry-filled truffle at him. He catches it between his teeth, and your eyes light up, clearly impressed.
โWow, that was cool!โ
โCโmere, youโve got a little somethingโฆโ He grabs your chin gently, pulling you forward before rubbing his thumb against the side of your lip, wiping away a bit of chocolate. โMessy girl.โ
Your breath hitches, but you stay still for him like a good little girl. His thumb lingers, and he wants to press it into your mouth, make you suck the chocolate off it. Then tell you he had something else for you to suck on. Push you down and make you warm his cock with your mouth while he drove you back to campus. One hand on the steering wheel, the other pressing your head down, making you take his big cock despite you whimpering and panicking because you canโt breathe.
He rubs your lower lip with his thumb for a moment before pulling away. You clear your throat, snapping out of whatever reverie youโve been in, straighten up against the seat and put your seatbelt on. You still look like youโre in a daze, however, and he wonders if youโre wet from him wiping your face clean.
โI-uh-we should head back please, if thatโs okay?โ you say, voice slightly shaky as you avoid eye contact with him. โI donโt want to miss my afternoon class.โ
He grins, โYou a teacherโs pet?โ
That makes you smile, and you shrug shyly. It almost enamours him.
He gets you back to campus on time, and you give him a little wave before you jump out of his car and walk inside. And god, itโs insane how hot you are. Even in your jeans, which have cute little embroidered flowers on the butt. Makes your ass look insane. Like itโs begging to be grabbed, smacked, fucked.
He breathes out heavily through his nose, slumping back against his seat. His dick is uncomfortably hard. God, you didnโt even realise how much youโd teased him tonight. Sitting tight and pretty in the passenger seat of his car, so quiet and pretty. So innocently impressed by Figure 8, and by him. How shy youโd been when youโd admitted that you liked himโฆ
He gets his phone out, blindly texting one of the desperate girls on his phone. He needs a release. And heโd be thinking of you the whole time.
*
On day 5, Rafe tells you to give him your number. From his peripheral, he can see a bunch of Pogues whispering and watching while he takes your phone and puts his number in.
โHave your little friends been talking more shit about me?โ
You flinch. He canโt help the intensity of his tone sometimes, and heโs noticed you never swear and, like a jumpy little mouse, probably feel intimidated when he does.
โNo, I havenโt really spoken to them in a while.โ
Rafe grins, โYeah?โ
โYes. Iโve been busy with schoolwork.โ
He saves his number on your phone before pressing it into your back pocket for you. You gape, eyes darting around to see if anyone saw. He wonders just how prim and proper you are, and how quickly he could get you to come undone once he got you comfortable and behind closed doors.
โYouโre not too busy to text me, right?โ
You smile, looking down and fidgeting with your binder. He notices youโve got little stickers on it, like cupcakes and hearts and shit. What a fuckinโ baby.
โText you? I donโt reallyโ I have to a test tomorrow that I need to study for.โ
But he knows youโll text him. They always did. You werenโt any different.
โWhat are you smiling at?โ Kelce asks, pulling up beside him as Rafe watches you head into your next class.
Immediately, he straightens his face, โNothing man.โ
โYou falling for that homeschool freak Pogue?โ
He snorts, โYou wish. I have standards.โ
โYou sure about that?โ
He whips his head sharply to stare down at his friend, โYou want me to repeat myself?โ
Rafe doesnโt miss the flicker of fear in Kelceโs eyes. Theyโd never admit it, but he knows his friends are afraid of him. Of his mood swings, his unpredictability. He doesnโt care. In fact, he prefers it this way. They werenโt like him, they were weak-minded, beneath him. He kept them around because of semantics, because of who their parents were and who his dad was. And because they proved to be minorly useful sometimes when he needed help to get shit done.
All the girls heโd been with had been afraid of him too. When he fucked them, he often lost control. But it turned him on, how theyโd swallow their fear in case they offended him, or set him off. Once, heโd fucked a girl who just wouldnโt stop shaking. Sure, heโd showed her his gun right before heโd bent her over, but it was her problem if she was frightened by something as mundane as that.
You werenโt scared of him. Yet. Intimidated, sure. But heโd kept that side of him well under wraps when it came to you. You were too sweet, too pure. And you were a good girl, incapable of crossing him in any form. He didnโt have to scare you to get what he wanted from you. No, youโd give it to him, like the good little girl you were. Naรฏve, innocent little girl.
*
Rafe: Hey.
Y/N: Hi, Rafe. How are you?
He finds himself smiling at his screen. Thereโs a party going on downstairs, but Rafe couldnโt care less. Itโs the same thing every other night. His friends showing up at his house and bringing along a whole entourage of people he doesnโt give a fuck about. Sarah used to do it a lot before she moved out, invite her fuck ass Pogue friend group into his house as if they were ever welcome there.
Rafe didnโt want any Pogues inside his house. Unless they were girls that he intended to sleep with. But he appreciated it when they showed themselves out once he was done using them.
Rafe: What are you up to?
A minute passes by, then another one. Fuck, he hates that youโre making him wait. What a fuckinโ tease. He wonders for the hundredth time if youโre doing it on purpose. No, not you. Youโre too innocent.
Y/N: Nothing, I just finished cleaning my room. Wbu?
Itโs insane how the visual of that gets his dick hard in less than a second. The thought of you doing something as domestic as cleaning. The good little college girl, who went home straight after school and spent her evenings dusting and vacuuming or whatever it was that cleaning entailed. Unlike the Kook sluts his friends were probably fucking downstairs. They were pathetic party girls whoโd easily spread their legs for a line or two.
He calls you, losing patience with this texting bullshit. He runs a hand through his hair impatiently when you donโt immediately pick up, huffing and gulping down the remaining whiskey in his glass. Slamming it down on his desk when you still donโt pick up. Fucking tease. He grabs a baggie from one of the drawers, prepares a neat line; despite promising himself he wouldnโt do it tonight. Fuck that. Ten seconds have passed; you still havenโt picked up. He snorts it quickly, about to throw his phone out the fucking window, except you choose that moment to pick up.
โH-Hello?โ
โHi,โ he sounds slightly breathless, but who the fuck cared. He refills his glass with more whiskey, taking a sip to calm himself down. โTook your time to pick up, huh?โ
โYeah, sorry about that,โ you say hastily, โI got distracted.โ
He feels a sudden surge of jealousy so violent, he doesnโt know how to act for a moment. Distracted by fucking what?
โThe lights went out, so I had to go reset them,โ you explain, and he barks out a laugh. Jesus fucking Christ.
โY-You sound kinda breathless, Rafe,โ you say, โIs everything okay?โ
โWhy wouldnโt it be okay?โ He downs his drink and sets it aside before his hand slips down. God, you sound so hot. All breathy and innocent, even just over the phone. โTell me what you were doing.โ
A pause, and then you force out a chuckle, โI told you, I just finished cleaning.โ
โWhat like vacuuming and shit?โ
โYes.โ
Over the years, Rafe had slept with a number of maids Ward had hired on multiple occasions. Heโd fucked Wheezieโs babysitter a few years ago, the housekeeper too. His father had a knack for hiring hot Pogue girls, and maybe thatโs where Rafeโs kink for them started.
He could imagine you working for him โ heโd make you wear the sexiest little barely-there maid outfit. You wouldnโt question it because you were too innocent. With your little feather duster, trying to clean except youโd be too small to reach certain areas. Fuck, he wouldnโt last five seconds in the same room as you. And he wouldnโt have to because youโd be his hired help, his property. Heโd have you bent over his desk, fuck you so hard till you couldnโt stop shaking, till you were crying like a baby and apologising for not focusing on cleaning all while he carried you up to his bedroom. Locked you up in there so nobody else could see you. His girl. All his.
โUh, Rafe?โ
โI wanted to talk to you,โ he says.
A pause.
โReally?โ You clear your throat, โWhere are you? I can hear music.โ
โShit, yeah. Like, thereโs a party or whatever going on downstairs. My friends came over unannounced.โ
โOh.โ He can sense a level of dejection in your tone. He bets youโre thinking about it, thinking how itโs just a reminder that he has his own group of Kook friends. And youโd never be one of them. Youโd never truly fit in. You were either one or the other. Hell, Sarah had proven that when sheโd transitioned into the slums. But maybe there was a way to bring you into his world, a way that would stick.
He has to forcibly shake his head to remind himself youโre just part of a stupid bet.
โIโd rather speak to you than them.โ
ย โThatโs not true, Rafe.โ
โI like how you say my name.โ Heโs palming his dick now, knowing heโs treading over the line and could easily scare you off now if heโs not careful. But fuck being careful. Heโs never really been careful before in his life. He hasnโt had to be. โAnโ Iโm serious. I told you, I like you.โ
โRafe, Iโฆ I just canโt shake the feeling thatโโ
โThat what?โ He spits into his palm before resuming touching himself. And shit, he doesnโt know if itโs the drugs or if itโs really just the sound of your voice thatโs got him so goddamned horny. He wonders if youโve ever touched yourself before. If you even knew how to.
โThat youโre just playing a big joke on me. I mean, even the people from the Cut think Iโm this weird, homeschooled freak.โ You laugh, but he can tell you donโt find it funny, โItโs just hard to believe that youโd want to be my friend.โ
โThey think Iโm a freak too,โ he says, being honest for once. โOnly difference is they donโt talk shit about me because they know Iโd kill them.โ
โYouโre funny, Rafe.โ
Youโre too innocent to realise heโs not kidding. Not in the least.
โAnd if anyone says anything about you, Iโll kill them too. Iโm serious.โ Fuck, he feels like his dickโs gonna goddamn explode. The thought of protecting you like that, like he was responsible for you. Like you were all cute and helpless and he was the one taking care of shit, the one protecting you. Thatโs all heโs done his whole life, take care of shit and get shit done. And nobodyโs ever fucking appreciated him for it.
โWell, thank you, Rafe. Iโve never had anyone stick up for me like that.โ
He likes how you keep saying his name now that heโs told you he likes it when you say it. Means youโd be real good at taking instructions. He can imagine telling you what to do when he finally has you in his bed. Order you to get on your hands and knees. Then heโd spread your cute little ass, eat you from the back while you moaned his name over and over, thanking him for taking care of you, weeping how much you appreciate him, how much he means to you. How much you need him.
โA-Are you still there?โ
โShit, yeah. Yeah, I am.โ His dickโs red and painfully hard, and heโs still trying to pump it steadily but now heโs imagining your tight little virgin cunt wrapped around it. Soft like velvet, warm and wet. Pulsating around him. Never had even a finger up there but youโd take his big dick, because he owned you, because he was your protector, because you were too weak and helpless without him, andโ
โCould you, uh, fuck, say my name again,โ he orders you, not caring in the least if he scares you off.
โRafe?โ
He cums into his fist like a goddamned teenage boy, biting down to keep from making any noise. God fucking dammit, youโd listened again. What a good fucking girl. He wants to tell you that, tell you how good you were for him just now, how obedient and submissive you were without even realising it.
โIf youโre busy, itโs okay and you can go,โ you say softly.
โNo, waitโฆโ he clears this throat, grabbing a bunch of tissues from his desk. He canโt believe you hadnโt caught on to him jacking off. โI wanted to ask you something.โ
โYes?โ
โDo you want to come over tomorrow? To hang out?โ
โLike, uh, at your house?โ
โYeah.โ He needs you in private, needs you on his turf where he can control just about everything. God, was it even about the bet anymore? Or just this newfound fucking irrevocable need to fuck you just for his own personal satisfaction? Maybe both.
โI donโt know, Iโve never been to a guyโs house before.โ
That just makes him even more determined to be your first.
โCโmon, itโll be fun. We can go after your classes finish or whatever, and Iโll drive you home afterwards.โ
โRafeโฆโ
He shuts his eyes for a moment, savouring the sound of your voice. He wonders if he can get you to call him daddy. God fucking dammit, just the idea of that was getting him hard again.
โLook, weโll order some food, watch TV. Whatever you want. Itโll be fun. And itโs what friends do.โ
That last part gets to you. He can tell. He knows how badly you want to have friends. He knows youโve never had any. Not good, permanent ones like you saw in movies and TV shows. Hell, Rafeโs not sure he himself has real friends. But he doesnโt care. The idea of friendship means nothing to him. Heโs best when heโs on his own because nobody else could be trusted. But what is important is having a girl like you in his bed. A girl like you who looks up to him with shining eyes, like heโs your goddamned entire world. A girl he plucked up from poverty and saved, and youโd appreciate him more than anyone in his dumb fucking family ever did.
โSay yes,โ he all but orders you, but he already knows the answer before you say it.
โO-Okay, yeah. Yes, that sounds like fun. Iโd love to come.โ
*
โWhat do you mean youโre not coming?โ Topper frowns, crossing his arms over his chest, โYou were supposed to bring the, you knowโฆโ
Rafe rolls his eyes, wondering why heโs friends with a fucking loser who canโt even say the word coke. Thatโs why nobody on the goddamned island wanted to sell to Topper. Hell, even Barry refused to.
โI have plans.โ Rafe answers, checking his watch for the tenth time. Your final class of the day was due to end any minute now, and he couldnโt wait to get you into his house.
โWhat plans? You were gonna help me with Sarah tonight.โ Topper was a whiny fucking bitch, but even Rafe had to admit he was a better fit for his sister than that lowlife John B.
โIโm not helping you with shit, man.โ He mutters disinterestedly, although he had promised a few nights ago that heโd help him. Heโd been high as a fucking kite, though. So it didnโt exactly count. โLook, sheโll get bored eventually when she realises his broke ass canโt provide shit for her. Then sheโll come crawling back.โ
Topper shakes his head, โNo, Sarahโs not materialistic like that.โ
Rafe smirks, โYou donโt know her.โ
โWell, speaking of broke, howโs it going with that homeschool girl? You guys sure seem to be hanging out a lot.โ
โDo you have brain damage, Topper?โ
โWhat?โ
Rafe corners his friend against a wall, relishing the immediate fear in his eyes, โI seem to remember you placing a bet a week ago.โ
โWell, yeah, but โโ
โSo why the fuck,โ he hits the locker lightly behind Topperโs head, โare you asking me about hanging out with her a lot?โ
โChill, dude. Itโs just,โ he looks hesitant, scared as heโs barely able to make eye contact, โItโs okay if you like her, you know?โ
Rafe feels a wave of emotion, something he canโt quite pinpoint. And that makes him mad, because what the fuck was he feeling? He has to clench his fists by his side to stop from slapping the taste out of Topperโs mouth. Why did him bringing you up irritate him so much? Jesus, reign it the fuck in.
He takes a deep breath and steps back, forcing a chuckle, โYou think Iโm gonna slum it like that?โ
Topper grins nervously, as if Rafe hadnโt had him pinned against a locker like a little bitch just a second ago. He straightens up, โI mean, itโs not exactly a secret what your type is.โ
Rafe laughs, and Topper relaxes and joins in after a moment or two. Thatโs when Rafe slams him against the locker again.
โGet it through your thick fucking skull, Topper. I may fuck a Pogue but Iโd never date one. Got that?โ
โYes, okay, Jesus Christ, man.โ Topper pushes Rafe off him and backs off, โDo whatever the fuck you want.โ
Thatโs when Rafe starts laughing again. โI will, pussy.โ ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย
Topper fucks off after that. Sometimes, Rafe wonders what his deal is. He acted up in front of the rest of the group, then tried to act all sensitive and understanding in private. Like Rafe had time for that shit. And how dare Topper insinuate that Rafe had feelings for you? Hell would freeze over before he ever caught feelings for a Pogue.
He realises a bunch of people are staring at him. Goddamit. Fuck all of them. When he was younger, Ward had sent him to see a therapist once a week. Heโd quit going once heโd realised it was everyone else who was the problem, and not him. But one thing the shrink had taught him that had stuck was to breathe slowly and count to ten whenever he felt angry or overwhelmed.
Thatโs what heโs doing when you arrive.
โHey, Rafe. Iโm sorry Iโm late. The professor held me back.โ
โWhy?โ He barks out before he can contain himself. Heโs already on edge, and now some dumbass professor is keeping you back in class because you undoubtedly get his old, shrivelled dick hard and youโre too innocent to even realise it.
You blink, โHe really liked the essay I submitted last week. He even said he wants to use it as an example for his other classes!โ
โThatโs great,โ Rafe plasters a smile on his face but heโs only half listening, โLetโs go.โ
He calms down some as he guides you out of the hallway and toward the parking lot. He almost grabs your hand when it gets a bit too crowded, but remembers himself just in time. He couldnโt be caught holding hands with a Pogue. It was too intimate, and like heโd said to Topper, heโd never let it get to that point with a Pogue. Instead, he places his hand on your lower back and pushes you forward. You smile at him, and it goes straight to hisโฆ well, not his dick, surprisingly. But it goes somewhere within him, and he feels it again. Something he doesnโt really recognise or know how to deal with. So he forcibly pushes it back inside himself.
โYou look cute,โ he says once heโs got you outside and thereโs more room to breathe. You look like an angel in the afternoon sunlight, dressed in the cutest little sundress heโs ever seen. Itโs this pinkish-orange, like the colour of the sunset, and youโve got matching ribbons in your hair. Like youโve really made an effort to get all dressed up just to go to his house.
โThanks,โ you look down as if youโre embarrassed, like you donโt know how to take a compliment, โItโs my momโs dress.โ
โItโs really pretty,โ he says softly, before clearing his throat and looking away.
He gets you to his car, lifting you up by your waist and helping you into it. And that turns him on so much, how small and sweet you look. Like a little fairy in his arms. None of the other girls were like you. Not at all. He wonders what youโre wearing underneath, and feels his cock thicken in his slacks with anticipation when he realises he was probably going to find out today.
You donโt say anything when he pulls up into the driveway of his house. Ward had fucked off on some business trip and taken Wheezie and Rose with him so he had the place to himself. Thatโs how he liked it best, it gave him space to think and breathe without the constant noise of his family. Well, Wheezie was an exception. He didnโt mind her too much.
โWait here,โ he says, getting out the car and walking around to open the door for you. You allow him to lift you out again, this time your hands landing on his shoulders. And itโs fucking insane how that tiny, voluntary touch does things to him that no other girl has ever done before.
Now, he doesnโt think twice before grabbing your hand and pulling you down to the large, ornate wooden double doors. Youโre distracted anyways, eyes wide as saucers as you ogle the mansion that Rafeโs never thought twice about. But he reckons itโs a step or two above whatever shacks the people from the Cut lived in, so he allows you to remain silent and let it sink in.
Finally, you exhale slowly, โThis isโฆ uhโฆ wow. I canโt believe thereโs people in this world who live like this.โ
Rafe smirks, squeezing your hand, โYeah. Do you want a drink?โ
He leads you to the bar in the corner of the living room, again lifting you up and placing you on one of the stools. You giggle, โI can climb on myself, you know.โ
โYeah? You seem to like it when I pick you up, though.โ
He winks, and notes how you duck your head and smile shyly, your hands wringing together on your lap like youโre nervous. God, you were so fucking cute.
โWhatโs your usual drink of choice?โ He asks, going behind the island to inspect the liquor. His friends had gone through a lot of it at the party the night before, but the house help had restocked everything this morning.
You blink, โUm, water?โ
He stifles a laugh, pouring himself his usual whiskey with ice, โYouโre a good girl, huh?โ
โI tried some of my momโs wine once but it tasted horrible,โ you shrug, โI donโt know why people like it so much.โ
โTry this.โ He pours you a Peach Schnapps with lemonade and ice, โItโs sweet like you.โ
You hesitate, but end up taking it. And he watches as you take a tentative sip, and he knows you like it because you take another one. And then another. He canโt help but feel proud for introducing you to your first alcoholic drink.
โYouโre not as bad as people say you are,โ you say out of nowhere, and his expression immediately sours.
โPeople have been talking about me to you?โ
โNo, itโs just the stuff Iโve heard. Like what I told you before. But it canโt be true, because youโre so nice to me so it just doesnโt add up.โ
He grips his glass tight, about to lose it because yet again people were talking shit about him behind his back and never to his fucking face. Because they were all a bunch of pussies who knew heโd beat the shit out of them or kill them if they said anything to his face. But then you speak again.
โDo you always drink after school?โ
โHuh?โ
โLike, alcohol. Do you drink a lot? Like every day?โ
โNo.โ He lies. โOnly sometimes.โ
He takes you out to the patio, where the sun is shining and you look so fucking pretty in your little sundress. Like you fit right into his world, next to the pool with a drink in your hand, sat next to him and looking at him with sparkling eyes as if he was your god. He wonders if youโve naturally grown more comfortable with him through the course of the week, or if itโs just the alcohol. Probably the alcohol, since no one was ever really comfortable around him.
Either way, he puts his hand on your leg just like he had a few days ago in his car. Your breath hitches, but you donโt make a move to stop him. Instead, you opt to take another sip of your drink, and he wonders if he can get you drunk tonight. Shit, did he even want to? It was no fun fucking a drunk girl.
โTell me more about you,โ he strokes the soft skin of your bare thigh, feeling your goosebumps underneath the pads of his fingers. โYou ever had a boyfriend or anything?โ
Your eyes widen, โNo. I, uh, you donโt tend to meet any guys when youโre homeschooled.โ Embarrassed, you giggle before looking away. He reaches out, grabbing your chin lightly and making you look at him again. Fuck, your lips were so sexy. So pouty and perfect, begging to be kissed. โWhat aboutโฆwhat about you? Have you had any girlfriends?โ
He shrugs, โA few.โ
You nod, โOf course you have. That was a stupid question. Sorry, I forget not everyoneโs as far behind in life as I am.โ
โYouโre not far behind.โ He says, although you are and he prefers it that way.
โI am. Every other girl my age has had all the experiences youโre supposed to have. Drinking, partying, boys, all of it.โ You sigh, โSometimes I feel like Iโm so far behind that Iโll never catch up.โ
Rafe inches his hand upwards, till he reaches the hem of your dress halfway up your thigh. He plays with the fabric, and he can tell youโre acutely aware of what heโs doing. You donโt make a move to stop him, but you do press your legs together.
โThereโs still plenty of time to catch up,โ he says softly, โI can help you.โ
You smile up at him, holding up your drink, โYou already have. Iโd never drank with friends before now.โ
โCongratulations,โ he says, clinking his glass with yours, โTo one of many firsts.โ
He downs his drink and so do you, and heโs quick to get a refill for both of you. Heโs guessing youโre a lightweight, and again the thought of getting you drunk crosses his mind. But that would be way too easy.
โIโm capping you after this one,โ he says, handing you your second Peach Schnapps.
You giggle, โAre you gonna cap yourself too?โ
โNo.โ He chucks you under the chin again, โBut, see, Iโm not a baby.โ
โHey!โ
He kisses you. And shit, he hadnโt planned on catching you so off-guard. Hell, heโs caught himself off-guard. But he couldnโt help it. Couldnโt help how kissable your lips looked, all pouty and bitten. And you taste like cherry lip gloss mixed with peaches and lemonade, and youโre so pliant underneath him, and heโs kissed a shit ton of girls but itโs never felt like this.
You pull away with a start, shocked as you stare up at him. Breathing hard and biting your goddamned lips before they turn into the shape of an o.
โIโm sorry,โ Rafe says, although heโs not, โIโve been wanting to do that since the day I first saw you.โ
Your breathing is shallow, and with a shaky hand you put your glass down on the crystal table in front of you. โIโve never, uh, Iโve never kissed anyone before.โ
โWell, itโs easy. I could show you.โ
You swallow, โI donโt want this to be like, a pity thing.โ
Rafe exhales slowly, โYouโre here in front of me in this tiny fuckinโ dress, acting all cute and innocent and you think I want to kiss you out of pity?โ
Your jaw drops, โHey, itโs not tiny!โ
He kisses you again. And sure, maybe he shouldโve asked permission since itโs, well, your first kiss. But frankly heโs never had to ask permission to do anything in his entire life, and he wasnโt about to start now. The way he sees it, you wouldnโt have worn a slutty dress and agreed to come to his house if you didnโt want him to make a move on you.
Again, you pull away, โRafe, Iโ donโtโฆ I donโt know how to kiss, Iโm sorryโโ
He cups your face in his hands, pulling you closer and pressing his lips against yours again. Just to feel your soft, quivering lips against his confident ones. He kisses you once, twice, three times. Coaxing you to open your mouth, to let him in. Fuck, a part of him just wants to shove his tongue down your fucking throat, show you what it means to really be kissed. But heโs already pushing his luck right now.
โIโll teach you,โ he says, โBut you need to do exactly what I say, okay?โ
He canโt believe his goddamned luck when you nod. God, you were just so fucking hot, prancing around his house in your little dress, all impressed by his riches and shit, drinking your drink he made you like a good little girl, and now here you were, agreeing to whatever he said.
He taps his leg, โGet on my lap.โ
Your eyes nearly bug out of your head, โWh-What?โ
Rafe smirks, โDidnโt you just agree to do exactly what I say?โ
Heโs surprised with the amount of patience he has with you. If you were another girl, heโd have thrown your ass out to the curb for asking too many annoying questions. Or bent you over, shoved your face into a pillow to shut you up and had his way with you. God knew heโd done that more times than he could count over the years. He was aware of how much bigger and stronger he was than you and every other girl, and that fact turned him on more than anything. The fact that he could, if he wanted to, completely take advantage of you however he wanted. And all youโd be able to do is cry and beg him to stop, which would just turn him on more.
โI did, Iโm sorry, but I donโtโโ
Easily, he grabs your hips and lifts you up onto his lap, makes you straddle him with one leg on either side of him. Your dress is just about long enough to still cover your modesty, but now heโs acutely aware of your panty-covered pussy just inches away from reach. Fuck, he wonders what kind of panties youโre wearing, and if youโd let him lookโฆ
โThere. Comfy?โ
โWell, I guess, butโฆโ
He pulls you into another kiss, this time catching you mid-sentence so heโs able to slip his tongue into your mouth. And youโre so fucking shy, just rigid while he explores your mouth. But he doesnโt mind. You taste so fucking sweet, and itโs getting him so hard, knowing heโs the first man youโve let touch you like this, kiss you like this.
He can feel your breath hitch as he strokes your face, his thumbs running across your cheeks before his hand tangles into your hair. He yanks you closer, grazing his teeth against your plump bottom lip. You gasp, and he chuckles into your open mouth. His tongue plays with yours, coaxing you to kiss him back, but not really caring too much if you donโt.
And god, he wants to thrust up into you so bad. Youโre sitting right on top of his fucking hard dick, and you donโt even seem to realise it. In fact, you shift around, that cute little peachy ass rubbing against his boner, and he wonders if you even know what a boner is.
When you pull away this time, your eyes are bright and excited. And he loves how heโs kissed the gloss off your lips, and how he can still taste you on his tongue.
โWow, that wasโฆโ you giggle, breathless yet excited from finally having your first kiss, โI donโt have anything to compare it to, but that was good!โ
Rafe has to crack a smile at your innocence, and his hand lands on your bare thigh, tracing his initials on it again, โYeah? You like kissing me?โ
โIโฆumโฆ yeah I do,โ you say shyly, before closing your eyes for a moment and taking a deep breath, โCould we uh, could we try again? Could I try?โ
Well, shit. Heโs never devoted this much time and energy into just kissing a girl, but his dick grows even harder at how youโve plucked up the courage to ask him that. And so he simply nods and sits back, lets you figure out what it is you want to do.
Your cute little hands hold on to his broad shoulders shyly. And you lean up, fluttering your eyes closed like itโs some kind of fairytale for you and youโre the little princess kissing her prince charming. Itโs part enamouring, part pathetic. But Rafe feels it again, that unfamiliar feeling bubbling up in his chest. He shakes out of it, focusing on your plump lips that hesitantly press against yours.
He sits still; lets you explore his mouth. Your tongue pokes out, swipes against his. And the feeling goes straight to his dick. And then heโs kissing you back, because he doesnโt have the goddamned willpower to just sit there and do nothing. Thereโs an animal inside of him and youโve awoken it, more than any drug or alcohol ever could.
And he gets rougher, biting your lip till you gasp into his mouth. His hands slip up and down your bare arms before he takes your hand, squeezes it before pressing it down on his chest, wanting you to touch him, feel how much bigger he is than you.
โGood girl,โ he mutters when you donโt move your hand, and then he fingers the hem of your dress. โGonna let me touch you a little bit?โ
โRafe, maybe not too muchโโ
โCโmon, princess, you have to touch while youโre making out, right? Thatโs lesson number two.โ He distracts you with another rough kiss, grabbing your jaw and squeezing while he brings you closer to his mouth. Kissing down your jaw and neck before returning to your lips, smirking when you squeak out a little involuntary moan. Thatโs when he slips his hand up your dress and cups your ass. Perfect little handful of your bubble butt, and he gives it a little squeeze to test the waters. Youโre too distracted with kissing him, and so he squeezes harder. God, so fuckinโ soft and pliable, just like how heโd imagined.
โNice ass,โ he murmurs against your lips, and thatโs what jolts you out of it. He curses inwardly when you pull away, pushing against his chest when he doesnโt immediately stop. And a part of him knows how easy it would be to just pin you down on this fucking sofa and have his way with you. Tell you how itโs your fault for wearing this fucking dress, your fault for seducing him in his own home, acting so sexy and innocent and getting him so riled up. Teasing him with your shy little kisses and squeaks till he had no choice but to hold you down and fuck you.
โIโm sorry,โ you say as you slide off his lap, straightening your dress, โI justโฆ I got overwhelmed.โ
He blinks, and heโs this close to pulling you back on top of him, telling you he didnโt give you permission to stop, that you had to listen to him because this was his house and heโd been kind enough to invite you over. And he could make you feel so good, if you just stopped being a goddamned little prude.
Instead, he forces a smile, โYouโre a pretty good kisser for someone who claims sheโs never done it before.โ
You beam, relaxing immediately, โOh, youโre just saying that. I bet I was really bad.โ
โMy memoryโs kinda foggy, I think youโre gonna have to remind me,โ he pulls you back into him, and you giggle as he presses light kisses on your lips, his arm going around your shoulders while your hands tangle into his hair.
It doesnโt go any further than that, though. You stop him when he tries to touch you again, and a part of him wants to slam his fist down on the glass patio table in frustration. And yet, something stops him from just overpowering you and taking what he wants. No, that would be too easy. Heโs about to crack you, he can tell from the way you look at him with those big eyes, now full of trust and comfort. He just needs more time.
Too bad he only had one day left to complete the goddamned bet.
โYou should come over again,โ he says when heโs done up your seatbelt for you in his car. He finds he likes doing all that shit โ opening the door for you, lifting you into your seat, clicking your seatbelt into place, all of it. A stark difference from other girls, where often heโs tossed their clothes at them and motioned for them to leave after heโs done hooking up with them.
โThat sounds nice,โ you say, waiting for him to come round and get into the driverโs seat, โAnd I told you; you donโt have to drive me all the way home. I couldโve just got the bus.โ
He blinks. He didnโt realise buses even functioned in Figure 8, but either way, he canโt have you on a public bus. Especially not in that dress, where every man would be leering at you and youโd be none the wiser about it. The control freak in him is itching to be let out, to tell you exactly what you were and werenโt allowed to wear in public, tell you how you werenโt allowed to speak to any men except him. And you werenโt allowed to argue or contest any of this, because he was in charge of you now, andโ
โNo buses,โ he says firmly, his hand resting comfortably on your thigh as he drives, โAnyways, come over again tomorrow. We can go in the pool or whatever.โ
He feels you go rigid, โTh-The pool?โ
He glances at you, โYeah. Itโll be fun.โ
You laugh nervously, โUh, Iโm not too great with water. I donโt really swim or anything.โ
Rafe has to do a double-take, โYou realise you live on an island?โ
Even he knew that every child born in Kildare could swim before they could even walk. Itโs just the way it was. They were surrounded by water. Rafe doesnโt even remember learning how to swim; it was almost like he knew how to do it by default.
โI know how to swim, I just donโt like water,โ you say, and thereโs something off about your tone. Something he canโt pinpoint, but you turn to the side and look out the window. Silent for the rest of the drive. Rafe doesnโt push it, although your odd behaviour has piqued his curiosity.
Itโs only when heโs pulling up into the pitiful dirt road of a street where your house is situated that you clear your throat.
โLook, Rafe, youโre my friend now. And I donโt really like keeping secrets from you. Iโm sorry I was so quiet just now.โ
Cute. He likes how much you apologise to him. It shows how respectful you are, how much you respected him as an authority figure.
โThatโs okay,โ he says.
You take a deep breath, โI used to go out in the water a lot when I was younger. With my dad. He had a boat, and I would help him. Butโฆโ
Your voice trails off for a moment. Rafe thinks he knows where this is going, and a part of him is touched youโd share something like this with him. A tiny, obscure part of him, that is. He canโt help but squeeze your leg reassuringly, and you clear your throat again and blink several times. Like youโre trying not to cry. And Rafeโs never had the patience for emotional chicks, but itโs different with you.
You force out a little laugh, โI donโt want to go into details. But one time we were out pretty far, and the weather was bad. Like, really bad. The waves were rough andโฆโ You swallow, looking down into your lap and wringing your hands together, your chest rising and falling rapidly, โAndโฆ Well, I was fine butโฆ my dadโฆโ
Shaking your head, you donโt say anymore. You donโt have to. Your eyes are wet and glistening, the muscles in your face working overtime to stop the tears from coming out. He parks the car in front of your house, turning to face you. Heโs never been in a situation like this before, and heโs not sure how to act.
Fiercely, you wipe away the one or two rogue tears that have escaped down your cheeks, โIt happened so long ago, I barely remember it. But Iโve been scared of the water ever since.โ
He nods, โItโs just you and your mom now?โ
โYes. And my brothers. But theyโre always working, so itโs just me and her. Thatโs why sheโs so protective of meโฆ I, uh, I donโt have a dad anymore.โ
Rafe knows what itโs like to lose a parent, but he canโt fathom ever talking about it or voicing his feelings on it or some shit like that. His loser therapist had tried to get him to talk about his mother, but he hadnโt. He couldnโt. It was just muscle memory at this point, to force any thoughts of her straight out of his mind. It was easier that way. And now, it was like he could barely remember her. And he hated it, but it made it easier too.
Heโs never been good at comforting anyone else. And a part of him is glad youโre not sobbing your eyes out right now, because heโs not sure how heโd handle that. So heโs happy when you clear your throat again and smile up at him.
โIโm not sure why I told you that, Iโve never had a friend to tell that to before. I guess I just feel comfortable with you, Rafe.โ
What the hell had he done to make you so trusting of him in the span of less than a week? God, you were like an innocent little angel, sitting in his car all tiny and vulnerable. Making him feel like a goddamned fucking monster for the thoughts he had towards you, what he planned to do with you. Suddenly, the bet feels so stupid and insignificant. God, this was why Rafe didnโt speak to the women he fucked. They went all emotional on him, and now he wasnโt sure how to act.
โI feel comfortable around you too,โ he says carefully. Heโs never been great with his words, but he grabs your hands that continue to wring nervously together. His big, warm hand dwarfing your tiny ones, and he realises youโre shaking. And thereโs a part of him that wants to protect you against everything. Take you back to his place, lock you up in his room so he could keep an eye on you and keep you away from anything and anyone who could ever hurt you and make you cry.
Even if the only person who could hurt you the most right now is Rafe himself.
You leave after that, thanking him again and again for giving you a lift home. He wants to walk you to your door, but you run off quickly, and his mindโs too distracted to follow you. He drives off once he sees youโve safely closed your front door behind you, his mind moving a million miles per minute.
Jesus Christ, whyโd you have to go and open up to him like that? This would be so much fucking easier if you hadnโt done that. He hates that he should know better, that he knows that he should leave you alone. You were too innocent, too vulnerable for his bullshit; to be caught in the middle of some dumbass bet heโd made with his friends. God dammit, he hates himself for agreeing to that stupid bet, seems so fucking juvenile looking back. Wished heโd picked a different girl at the very least, someone not as lovely a you.
Most of all, he hates himself because he knows that despite everything heโs just found out about you, he still has every intention of fucking you. Daddy issues and a phobia of water. It was almost like fate was handing you to him on a silver platter. He had to fuck you. Heโd figure out the rest later.
*
Kelce: One day left, loverboy.
Topper: Canโt wait to see the pictures.
Rafe mutes the groupchat before throwing his phone aside. Heโd goddamn throttle his friends if they were in front of him right now. Sometimes, he gets these violent tendencies. He doesnโt really know what to make of them except it feels good to have some kind of release. Usually that comes in the form of pushing around a sorry ass Pogue, but that optionโs not really available right now.
Instead, he searches blindly for the coke heโs stashed in his bedside drawer. Again, heโd promised himself heโd cut down, but this was just to take the edge off. It didnโt count. Not really.
He wonders what youโd think if you knew how often he took drugs. Well, you wouldnโt because heโd keep you well away from that part of his life. Even when he made you his girlfriend, heโd keep you separate from all the partying. And heโd never allow you to even look at any type of Class A drug. And who knows, maybe heโd become better for you, maybe heโd go stone cold sober if you wanted him to.
That makes him laugh. Going sober for a Pogue. It was insane of him to even consider it.
Again, he has to remind himself to take his emotions out of it. All you were was a stupid Pogue, and a part of a bet he was going to goddamned fulfil. And he wouldnโt allow himself to think anything more of it. He may have had a momentary lapse of judgement yesterday, but today was a new day, the last day of the week he had to fuck you.
How? He wasnโt too sure. Reports of a storm meant you couldnโt come to his house again like how heโd planned. Even now, Rafe could hear the harrowing winds outside. Like a goddamned cyclone. And the rain pelting down unforgivingly, and the distant roar of the sea, waves crashing like theyโd taken on a life of their own.
The weather on the island was usually all sunshine, but once in a blue moon a storm would hit like now. Residents were always told to wait it out and stay inside. For Rafe, that meant copious amounts of drugs and alcohol. Sometimes a girl or two to keep him company. But the idea of fucking anyone that isnโt you right now makes him sick.
He thinks about texting you, but what would be the goddamned point? If he couldnโt physically be with you today? He knows the weak, pussy part of his mind just wants to talk to you in whatever form he can. But he needs to bury that bullshit down deep inside him and never back, andโ
His phone vibrates. Itโs you. And he hates how he feels his heart jump to his fucking throat. Youโve called him all on your own, which means you were thinking about him like how he was thinking about you.
โRafe?โ You sound sexy like you always do, all breathy and weak and needy. A bit panicked too.
โHey,โ he says, trying to sound nonchalant, โWhatโs up?โ
โIโm sorry I called you, I justโฆ How are you?โ
He raises an eyebrow, โIโm fine. You wanna talk?โ
โNo. I mean, yes. Oh, Iโฆ Rafe, Iโm sorry. Youโre probably busy.โ
โHey, calm down.โ Rafe barely recognises the gentle quality of his voice as he straightens up, โWhatโs wrong, princess?โ
โIโm scared.โ
You say it so softly, with an air of embarrassment and shame, that at first he doesnโt quite get what youโre saying. But then he does, and something kicks in inside him. This innate need to protect you. You sound so small and needy on the phone, and you called him. You need him.
โWhat happened? Did someone hurt you?โ
โNo, no. Oh, Rafe, itโs the storm. It keeps getting worse.โ
He chuckles in relief that you werenโt in any immediate danger, โWell, shit. Yeah. Looks pretty wild, huh?โ
โI hate it,โ you whimper softly, โand Iโm sorry I called. But my momโs stuck at work, and my brothers are crashing somewhere else. So itโs just me, and, andโฆโ
โHey, calm down. Itโs okay, youโll be okay.โ Heโs never had to comfort anyone before, but it comes naturally with you. โAs long as you stay inside, the storm should pass. Just watch TV or something.โ
โThe lights are gonna go off any second,โ you sniffle, โThey always do when the weather gets bad.โ
They did? Rafe never noticed shit like that. Then again, he doubts you had the luxury of backup generators where you lived. He pauses.
โGimme twenty minutes. Iโll come over.โ
โNo!โ You say quickly, โRafe, itโs too dangerous.โ
He snorts. Heโd been in far more dangerous situations than a little bad weather. But the less you knew about that, the better. โI think Iโll be okay, princess.โ
โB-But weโre not allowed out. Youโll get a fine.โ
Rafe canโt count on one hand how many times heโd been fined by the dumbass police on this goddamned island over some petty bullshit reason or another. A fine meant nothing to someone with money. He was above the law, and most people on this island knew it.
โStay put. Iโll see you soon.โ
Rafe actually enjoys driving in the storm. The roads are deserted, and he can speed without worrying about anything else. And he does speed, and he runs more than one red light too. Gets to your house quicker than he thought he would. Past all the other tiny shacks all boarded up because they werenโt built well enough to withstand the storm.
โRafe! You came!โ
You sound like a fucking needy little baby, but something pulls at his heart when you hug him harder than you ever have before. And youโre so small, on your tippy toes so your arms reach around his neck. Automatically, his arms wind around your waist and he holds you close, and he can feel you trembling, your face buried in his chest as you hold on to him tightly.
โYeah. Roads were empty. Didnโt take long.โ He mutters, looking around the inside of your house. Pitiful. And pitch black, because you were right, the power had gone out. He hates that you live here. Youโd fit in so much better at Tannyhill, in a pretty pink silk dressing gown and dripping with diamonds heโd buy for you. And youโd be so thankful for him, tell everyone that he saved you, how well he took care of you. How he gave you everything you could ever want, and how much you appreciated him.
At that moment, a clap of thunder makes you jump and squeal. Quickly, you pull him inside and shut the door. Thatโs when he notices that youโre crying.
โHey, itโs okay. Cโmere.โ He pulls you into another hug, and heโs never seen another human being look so scared, so vulnerable. It makes him feel so powerful, like the man he knew you needed. โYouโre safe now, Iโm here.โ
It feels natural, his lips pressing a kiss into your hairline. Like youโre his little baby, like heโs been trusted with something so precious and now he has to protect you. And youโre too scared to be your usual jumpy self, and you just snuggle closer into him. A flash of lightning lights up the whole room, the storm relentless against the weak confines of this sorry excuse of a house.
โMaybe we should head back to mine.โ He suggests, but you whimper again.
โNo, no, we canโt go out there. Itโs not safe. Rafe, please.โ
He doesnโt think heโs ever seen another human being so scared before. Not even when he was fucking that one girl after heโd showed her his gun. Even now, he consciously tucks his gun further down the waistband of his chinos. Of course heโd brought it with him, he wasnโt going to enter the Cut without a piece on him.
โOkay, okay. Weโll stay here. Whenโs your mom coming home?โ
โNot till tomorrow once the stormโs died down.โ
He licks his lips. It was too good to be true.
Youโre still holding on to him as you lead him into your bedroom. He wonders why youโd take him straight there, but he guesses itโs your safe place. And youโve got candles lit up, and they brighten the room enough for him to notice how small it is. The size of a shoebox, with a single bed covered in pink sheets and a bunch of stuffed animals.
Despite everything, his dick hardens.
โYouโre a really good friend, Rafe.โ You say honestly, โNobody else wouldโve come over like this.โ
He shrugs, sitting on the edge of your bed and patting the mattress next to him. Itโs not even his house and yet he feels like he needs to take control. And you obey, taking a seat next to him. But youโre preoccupied with your own fear, doing that thing where you fidget with your hands in your lap.
โI wouldnโt do it for anyone else.โ
You look up at him with wide eyes, biting your lip like you canโt quite believe what heโs said, โI-Iโm not special, Rafe, Iโโ
Youโre cut off by another clap of thunder, this one so loud it makes the whole house shake. You scream bloody murder, and honestly, if you were anyone else Rafe wouldโve laughed. But itโs you, and so he just watches. Itโs fascinating, the way you clutch onto him like heโs your saviour, and he wonders just how this opportunity had basically just fallen into his lap.
He pulls you into his lap, knowing you wonโt protest. Not in the state youโre in. Youโre wearing a pair of black leggings and a little white tank top. No bra, because he can feel your nipples, hard and poking out from the fabric of your top. He can feel them against his chest as he hugs you again, and he can also feel you shifting on top of him. Your peachy little ass rubbing against his dick like youโre a fucking tease except he knows youโre none the wiser, that you have no idea the effect you have on him.
Heโs so turned on, it feels like he might explode.
โIโm sorry,โ you apologise for the umpteenth time, โItโs just so scary. Wh-What if the storm gets worse, Rafe?โ
โIt probably will,โ he says, feeling slightly wicked. He holds you tighter against him, wanting to feel the brush of your breasts against his chest again. Fuck, he wants to cop a feel so bad. โThey were saying something about a severe weather warning on the news. Not like anything weโve ever seen before.โ
โNoooo,โ you moan like a goddamned baby, cuddling into him even more.
โItโs okay,โ he says, running his hand up and down your back, โYou ever, uh, you ever think of distracting yourself from the storm?โ
You hiccup and blink up at him with wet eyes, โNothing works, Rafe.โ
He smirks, โI could distract you.โ
โH-How?โ
He runs his thumb over your lips. Theyโre wet with your salty tears, and yet like muscle memory, you part them for him. You watch him in wonder, your breathing shallow as he pushes his thumb into your mouth, his other hand holding you in place by your hip.
โSuck.โ He instructs gently, and your eyes are as big as saucers. But in your frightened, vulnerable state, you obey immediately. And it feels like heโll bust a nut right there, watching as you suck his thumb on command like a little fucking baby. Like heโs your daddy.
โGood girl,โ he says, stroking your hair out of your face so he can watch you better. โNow listen to me, I can help you. I can distract you so that you forget all about the storm. Do you want that?โ
You nod slowly, almost like youโre entranced by him. Not that he needs the green light from you, but itโs hot to see you agree so easily to whatever heโs saying. Fuck, you really were just like an angel fallen straight from heaven and into his lap. Perfect for him in every single way. So soft, so impressionable. Completely untouched. Ready to be ruined.
โThatโs good,โ he mutters vaguely, thinking of everything he was going to do to you. He takes his thumb out of your mouth, noticing how you pout involuntarily, like youโd gotten used to the feeling of sucking on it. Fuck, he could give you something else to suck on. โGive me a kiss.โ
โH-Huhโโ
โDo it. Just like how I taught you yesterday. You remember our lesson, donโt you?โ
You nod, โYeah, but will that really work? I meanโโ
Itโs like God himself is on Rafeโs side because thereโs a loud boom of thunder at that exact moment. And you jump in his lap, tears welling in your eyes. Your chest rises up and down, and you bite your lip again, your gaze zeroing in on his mouth. Slowly, you lean up, shyly pressing your lips on his. But thereโs a desperation to it, and Rafeโs returning kiss completely envelopes you whole.
He makes out with you for a while, smirking through your little pants and moans mixed with a whimper every time the weather gets especially brutal outside. Heโs never been with such a goddamned scaredy cat baby before in his entire life, and it turns him on beyond belief. In the state youโre in, he could get you to do anything.
Rafeโs hands slip up to grab your little top, tugging it upwards. And this time, he almost loses it in frustration when again, you stop him.
โRafe, Rafe no stop.โ You push his hands off, straightening your top back over your midriff. โCouldnโt we justโฆ just kiss?โ
He presses his lips together in a thin line, โYou trust me?โ
โOf course, I just donโt know if I want toโโ
โLook, didnโt I say I would distract you? I mean, shit, I could just leave.โ
Your jaw drops, a flash of fear glimmering in your eyes. Instinctively, you grab onto his bicep with your tiny hands, a pleading look on your face, โNo, donโt!โ
He smirks, โI wonโt leave. But you need to trust me to do what I need to do to distract you. Because the stormโs just gonna get worse.โ He grabs your chin when you avert your gaze, forcing you to look at him, โHey, cโmon. Who has more experience with this shit, you or me?โ
โY-You.โ
โYeah. And whoโs older?โ
โYou are.โ
โThatโs right. Which means you need to trust me to make these kinds of decisions, because I know whatโs best for you. Thatโs why you called me over, right?โ
You donโt say anything, but this time when he tries to take your top off, you donโt protest. And Jesus fucking Christ, he was right. Youโre not even wearing a bra, almost like you were deliberately trying to seduce him. Acting like a whiny little damsel in distress, pulling him into your pitiful little pink room, all candlelit and shit, on your little bed with your stuffed fucking animals.
Your nipples are hard, and he canโt help but cup your breasts. Theyโre so tender, so soft just like you. Heโd imagined this exact moment many times over the course of the week whilst heโd jacked off to you, but nothing could compare to now. The way you tremble beneath his touch, knowing no oneโs ever touched you like this before. He squeezes gently, watching how your breath hitches.
Heโs overcome with animalistic instinct in just a second, and leans down to take your breast into his mouth. Sucks your nipple sweetly, before biting down. You cry out, arching your back so prettily, feeding him more of your nipple as you push it into his mouth. He bets you probably donโt even understand why it feels so good, having never been touched like this ever before.
He pinches your other nipple and you gasp. He smirks and does it again, looking up at you to see you gazing imploringly down at him.
โTh-That hurts,โ you say pitifully.
โYeah, but you like it, donโt you?โ He takes your hands in his, bringing them up to his hair. Like a good little girl, you get the message. Your hands fist into his hair as he continues to play with your tits, licking and sucking all over them, pushing them together, biting your nipples and sucking the sensitive skin around them, wanting to leave his mark everywhere.
โRafe, I, thatโฆ ohโฆ oh myโโ
โStand up, baby.โ
You squeak at the pet-name that falls so naturally from his lips, and he can tell you like being called that. Itโs from the way your eyes widen, and how you scramble to obey. God, you were a little tease but you took instructions so fucking well.
You stand between his legs, and it gets him so fucking hard that youโre still barely eye level with him even when heโs sat down.
โTake your leggings off.โ
You open your mouth to argue, but this time he just flashes you a look and youโre quick to shut the fuck up. That, and he distracts you with his hands running up and down your sides, squeezing your waist, then your hip. Finally landing on your ass with a light slap as if to tell you not to keep him waiting.
You push your leggings down and step out of them, till youโre standing between his legs in just your pink flowery panties and nothing else. And he feels a hunger heโs never ever felt before, looking down at you ravenously as if youโre a piece of meat and heโs a goddamned starved lion. A part of him just wants to grab you and stick his cock inside you while you scream and thrash and beg him to stop while you secretly enjoy it and cum again and again.
โTurn around,โ Rafe says slowly, because despite his animalistic thoughts, he wants to savour this. And you do, letting him see your sexy butt adorned in just your panties. He hooks his thumb under the elastic, snapping it against your skin and laughing crudely when you yelp. โGod, youโve got such a perfect ass. I knew that since the moment I saw you.โ
โWh-What?โ
โYou heard me. Youโre always wearing the cutest little outfits, like you were showing it off just for me.โ He grabs your left ass cheek, squeezing it hard while you moan in pain or pleasure, right now he doesnโt really give much of a fuck. His other hand palms his cock through his pants at the sight.
โI wasnโt!โ You say indignantly, as if heโs accused you of the absolute worst. โI wasnโt showing off, Rafe!โ
โSure you werenโt,โ he snorts, โNow bend over, lemme see it better.โ
He canโt believe it when you donโt hesitate this time, almost like youโre seeking his approval. Like youโre under some kind of submissive spell now, making everything even easier for him. You bend over, and your cute little ass is directly in his face. He pushes your panties to the side, gives the soft flesh a feather-light kiss before spanking you again. You yelp all cutely, but stay in position for him. What a good fucking girl.
โStand up straight, look at me again.โ
You turn back around, biting your lip as you look at him anxiously. Around you, the whole room seems to vibrate as another boom of thunder strikes. You make a noise in your throat, before grabbing onto his bicep again. You keep doing that, and it makes him feel strong, big, important. Like youโre a little baby seeking protection from her daddy.
โIโm gonna take your panties off now, okay?โ He doesnโt know why he tells you before he does it, but he watches as you relax. Thereโs a war going on behind your eyes, he can tell. He knows part of you is liking how heโs making you feel, and part of you is desperate to distract yourself from the storm, and itโs battling the part of you that wants to keep your modesty, the part that knows this is a bad idea, that itching fear that heโs not a good guy, that heโs taking advantage of you.
Slowly, he slips your panties down your shaking legs, and you keep holding on to his arm like youโre scared to let go. Like the storm would come and get you the moment you stopped holding him like a little baby. He lets you, liking how weak you feel against him.
And then youโre completely naked in front of him, stepping shyly out of your panties that are left on the floor in a heap along with the rest of your clothes. And heโs still fully dressed, and that juxtaposition turns him on beyond belief. He can smell your pussy, and itโs driving him crazy. Makes him want to just pin you down and have his way with you. It incenses him in a way heโs never really experiences before.
His hands grab your hips, yanking you closer. He feels a wave of impatience, pushing you down till youโre sitting on the bed. He gets up, pushing your legs apart with one of his own. You gasp, and he sinks down to his knees, pressing a soft kiss to the skin just below your belly button.
โItโs time for lesson number three, baby,โ Rafe murmurs softly, โthis is how Iโm gonna distract you, okay? Shit, Iโm gonna make you feel so good, youโll forget all about the storm. You gonna let me do that?โ
You swallow, โH-How, Rafe?โ
God, you were absolutely clueless. Made him feel like a fucking monster for taking advantage of you like this. But he liked it, liked how good and sweet and innocent you were, even now when he had you naked on your pretty princess bed with your legs spread for him.
โIโm gonna kiss you down here for a while, alright baby?โ
โDown there?โ You suck in your breath prettily, as if the very idea of that sounds so insane to you. God fucking dammit, just how much had your mother sheltered you?
Instead of explaining further, Rafe spreads your folds with two of his fingers, smirking when he sees you glistening and wet. And God, what a pretty and perfect pussy you had, all slippery and wet, like it was begging to be fucked. And even now, as you sit there breathing heavily, your pussy seems to get wetter just by him spreading it. Youโre leaking down onto your pretty pink sheets, and itโs all because heโs merely touched you there.
Youโve gone silent, the storm seemingly already forgotten as you just watch him. Your chest rises up and down, and itโs like every other part of you is frozen in place. In awe, until he notices a slight movement in your pelvis. Involuntarily, you hump the air, like your poor pussy is begging for some type of contact or friction. He smirks.
โYou have an accident, princess?โ
You look absolutely aghast, โNo!โ
Rafe leans forward, inhaling deeply. And you smell so goddamned sweet, and he canโt wait any longer. He lays his tongue flat against your virgin cunt, and he can feel you throbbing with anticipation. He licks upwards, and you grab onto his hair, tugging hard as you yelp.
โOh my Godโโ
He looks up, โNot God, baby. Just me.โ Absentmindedly, he flicks your clit with his thumb and your entire body jerks. He chuckles, โAnd thereโs another thing Iโm going to need you to do.โ
โWhat?โ
โYouโre going to call me daddy while I eat your cunt, okay?โ
For the fifth time this evening, your jaw drops, and you gaze down at him in indignance, โWhat? But Rafe, youโre not myโโ
โYour daddy? I mean, you do want me to take care of you, donโt you?โ He smiles when you donโt immediately respond, โThatโs why you called me today. Because you felt unsafe, like how youโve felt your whole life ever since you lost your real daddy, isnโt that right?โ
He half expects you to shove him off you, scream, lose it, slap him, kick him out of your house for going there, for trying to take advantage of your obvious daddy issues. But itโs like youโre in a trance, and he keeps going, โYou want someone to take control, to reassure you that everythingโs gonna be okay. Thatโs why youโve let me take care of you this whole week, right? Because you need me, you like how I make you feel.โ
He softly strokes your bare thighs, noticing that youโre shaking under his touch. And you look like youโre about to cry, in your most vulnerable state in front of him. And yet he keeps going, his voice like a calm lull, almost hypnotic with how you look at him with your huge, unblinking eyes.
โI can be your new daddy, princess. Youโre gonna let me, arenโt you?โ
Rafe doesnโt wait for your response. Instead, he grips your thighs harder, spreading them as far as theyโll go. He spits on your mound, watching his saliva drip down to your pussy. Youโre watching too, with stricken, hooded eyes. Like youโre frozen in time and space, and heโs the only constant.
Leaning forward, he envelopes your clit between his lips, giving it a harsh suck. Your entire body convulses, and you moan the loudest heโs ever heard you. Thunder claps at the same time, but youโre louder than it, and your hands grab on to his hair, and you press your cunt into his face, practically smothering him but he fucking loves it.
โTell daddy to lick your cunt,โ he orders, his voice deeper and lower than itโs ever been, and a slight threat in his tone, โsay it, or else Iโll stop everything.โ
โL-Lick it, please,โ you beg so prettily, keeping your voice barely above a whisper. Rafe sits back, looking at you expectantly till you make the prettiest little noise of impatience. You shoot him a pleading look of desperation, but he doesnโt let up. You cry out, gripping his hair harder before ducking your head in shame, โP-Please, okay? Please lick my cunt, daddy.โ
Rafe couldโve orgasmed right there at the sound of your sweet, delicate voice pleading with him, finally addressing him as daddy. Instead, he sucks hard on your sensitive, engorged clit, and you scream bloody murder. He snickers against your soaking folds, grabbing your thrashing hips, stilling them slightly but allowing you to rock them against his face till itโs shining with your wetness.
โMessy little girl,โ he mutters, โexcited, arenโt you? Never had this virgin pussy eaten, huh?โ he grows sloppy, messy with his licks. Tonguing your sensitive nub till youโre a writhing mess above him, incoherent little gasps and moans tumbling out of your mouth as you continue to hump against his face because youโre a goddamned virgin who doesnโt know how to act because youโre feeling so good.
Rafeโs practically making out with your pussy, and heโs never enjoyed going down on a girl as much as he is right now. Itโs how responsive you are, itโs how this is all so new to you so you donโt even know nor care to hold anything back. Youโre rubbing your pussy on his face like all you can think of is how good heโs making you feel. And he fucks you with his tongue, unable to quite believe how sweet you taste. Like an angel, his angel. All his.
โItโsโฆItโs too much, Rafe!โ you cry out, and yet youโre rolling your hips with abandon, riding his tongue while he sucks and licks you out like heโs starved.
โYou can take it,โ his voice is muffled, and you try to wrap your thighs around his head except his grip on them is too strong. Itโll leave bruises in the shape of his fingers all over your soft skin, but he likes that. He wants to bruise you, mark you, make you his in every way possible. So next time when you wore a slutty little sundress, every goddamned man on this island would know youโre taken. Fuck, heโd get his name tattooed on your goddamned pussy, andโ
You cum, squeaking so prettily he wants to bottle up the sound and keep it safe in his memories forever. Your first orgasm, and all it took was a couple of minutes of him eating your cunt. And your muscles squeeze around his tongue, and you cry and moan like you donโt even know whatโs happening. Your grab at his hair, pulling so hard because youโve probably never felt like this before.
And Rafe doesnโt stop, his tongue swirling circles while you hump and grind against his mouth, riding out your orgasm, moaning his name over and over again. Outside, the weather gets worse, and at one point he notes the whole room shakes as if the goddamned roofโs about to blow off. You donโt give a fuck though, and he doesnโt either.
โOh, Rafe, oh, oh oh, itโs too much!โ
Now, youโre trying to push him off you, but selfishly he keeps tongue-fucking you. His thumb rubs your engorged, sensitive clit. He knows itโs too much for you, but heโs too fucking turned on to stop.
โCโmon, baby. Donโt be like that. Lemme give you another one.โ
โNo, I-I canโt, I, oh fuck!โ
He slaps your clit, and a squelching sound fills the room. You gasp, and he just snickers, having entirely too much fun with you. And again, you twitch your hips, inadvertently pushing your cunt into his face again. Youโre out of breath and sensitive from your first orgasm, and yet your greedy little pussy wants to give him another one.
โYou like it when your daddy slaps your cunt?โ
Youโre such a shy little thing, gaping at him as if heโs said the most insidious thing on earth. And yet, your cunt squeezes around his tongue, and he you up as you continue to leak into his mouth. He looks up at you, โTell me you like it.โ
โI, uh, I like it, uhโฆ daddy, oh gosh!โ
It takes just one more spank and you come undone, cumming all over his face and he licks you throughout. Long, languid stripes of his tongue flat against your wet folds, then he switches to fucking you with it, and your fuckholeโs so goddamned tight, his tongue barely even fits a little bit, but it doesnโt stop him. Heโs got one hand slipped down his pants, jacking off because this is the hottest thing in the world heโs ever witnessed. Innocent little baby crying after orgasming from getting her pussy spanked by her daddy.
He feels like a lion closing in on the fucking lamb, forgetting himself for a second as he gets up. Aggressively pushing you down till youโre lying flat on the bed, surrounded by your stupid stuffed animals. In a second, heโs on top of you, breathing hard like a man possessed. God fuck, all he had to do was shove it inside you, hold you down and tell you to take it. Maybe press his hand over your mouth to keep you from screaming too loud. Not that it mattered. Nobody could save you from him tonight.
But you blink up at him so prettily, so unaware of his intentions, your eyelashes wet with tears. Your lips bitten and pouty, face shiny with sweat. Your hands grab his arms again, squeezing like youโve grown used to doing.
โR-Rafe, that wasโฆ wow.โ You say breathlessly, so blissfully innocent, not realising at all that heโs moments away from holding you down and fucking you, that heโs planning how heโll do it in his head this very moment. โI neverโฆ I never thought it could feel that good.โ
Rafe finds himself feeling that again, that weird feeling that kept bubbling up inside his chest from time to time whenever he was with you. He still doesnโt have a name for it; he canโt even properly describe it. But looking down at you now, watching you stare up at him with those shining eyes of yours. All he can do is push a piece of your hair out of your face, and smile slowly down at you.
โWhat do you even know about sex, baby?โ He breathes, his face so close to yours.
โOh, well, uhโฆ Not that much. I mean obviously I know how it works. I justโฆ I didnโt know you could call someone daโ that.โ
He smirks, tapping your cheek condescendingly, โYou mean daddy?โ
You look embarrassed, โYeah.โ
โI need you to keep calling me that, okay?โ Rafe says gently, โItโs completely normal and I told you Iโd take care of you from now on. You want that, donโt you?โ
Again, he nudges at your lips with his thumb, making you suck it. Which you do, and the feeling goes straight to his dick. He wants to fuck you while you suck his thumb, gently rock his hips into you, your tight pussy squeezing his huge cock while you whimper around his thumb, sucking it while you cried and just took it, took whatever he gave you and then said thank you, daddy like the good little girl you were.
He starts kissing you again, unable to help it. And your response is so enthusiastic, he feels like he might explode. Youโre getting more confident with all the kissing stuff, and Rafe likes that itโs all because of him.
โYou ready for the next lesson, baby?โ He asks between kisses, his hands everywhere all over your naked body. Squeezing your breasts, playing with your ass. Loving that youโre naked beneath him and so willingly too.
You swallow harshly, โI donโt think Iโm readyโOh!โ
He takes your hand, pressing it inside his slacks. Right on his hard, throbbing dick. And fuck, it feels so small, so weak against his pulsating cock. He bites his lip hard to keep from thrusting into your hand.
โTake it out.โ
โN-No!โ
He exhales loudly through his nose, holding your hand tight against him when you try to snatch it away. โBaby, what did I tell you about doing what I say?โ
โI-I know butโฆ but Iโm scared.โ
โItโs okay to be scared,โ he says, โbut you need to do this, alright? Didnโt I make you feel good just now?โ
โWell, yes, butโโ
โSo just trust me. Iโll make you feel good again, okay baby?โ He kisses you lightly once, twice, three times till you smile, โYouโve been such a good girl tonight. So brave for me....โ
You hiccup, looking up at him with those goddamned saucer-like eyes again, โR-Really?โ
He strokes your cheek, innately aware of your hand relaxing against his cock, โYes. Such a brave, good girl. You forgot all about the storm outside, didnโt you?โ
As if on cue, you whimper and cuddle into him more. He smiles like a goddamned wolf, feeling evil yet desperate at the same time, โCall me daddy again, princess.โ
You donโt even fucking hesitate, โd-daddy, Iโโ
โTake daddyโs cock out, baby. Itโll distract you, I promise.โ
You do exactly what he says, and he helps you. He canโt help but hiss when you free his dick from the confines of his slacks, and you gasp too, dropping it immediately when you see it.
โShit, gimme your hand,โ he murmurs, and he doesnโt wait this time. Snatching your hand in his, he spits down into your palm before pressing it on his dick. โStroke it.โ
You pull back, โI donโt know how, I donโtโโ
โDo it or Iโll leave right the fuck now.โ
ย In your helpless daze, you whimper before placing your hand back on his dick. And itโs so red, about ready to explode the moment you touch him. He exhales slowly, and it feels so fucking good, and he covers your hand with his, guiding it, making you stroke him up and down.
โThatโs so good, baby. Youโre so good.โ
โI am?โ
โShit, yeah, just keep doing that. Youโre such a good girl for me, arenโt you?โ He notes how you grow more confident, rubbing his dick and jacking him off like a good little girl. His hand leaves yours, instead cupping your face as he pulls you in for another kiss. He canโt help kissing you, you taste so fucking sweet and itโs insane because heโs never particularly enjoyed kissing anyone this much before. But he loves kissing you, leading you through it, guiding you. Loves how responsive you are, loves how you listen to him even when you feel all scared and hesitant. As if you know that at the end of the day, he was the one with all the power, the one in charge. The only one who knew how to take care of you.
โYou ever seen a cock before this, princess?โ He asks crudely between kisses.
Your eyes widen, โN-No, Rafeโ I mean, uh, daddy.โ
โNo? Good girl. Thatโs so fuckinโ hot.โ He bites your pouty bottom lip, and you gasp, squeezing his dick in your hand and it makes him moan straight into your fucking mouth. What a naughty girl.
โItโs, uh, itโs so big,โ you say quietly, so quietly that Rafe almost doesnโt catch it. But he does, and he smiles, pulling back slightly.
โYeah?โ
Shyly, you duck your head, โYeah, daddy.โ
God, you were so fucking irresistible. He couldnโt take it anymore. He takes your hand, which was still steadily pumping his dick, and holds it tightly. Holds both your hands by your sides as he nudges your legs apart again, and watches as you take a deep breath, as if you know whatโs coming.
Lowly, he whistles at how wet you are, your juices having leaked down to stain your pink sheets again. Rafeโs never had a virgin before but he knows how eager they are, how easily turned on they get. He can imagine how slippery wet and snug your snatch would be around his dick. Now, he swipes a finger down your slit, gathering your wetness while you squirm under him.
โAww, look how excited your pussy is, princess.โ He snickers, bringing his finger up to your lips, smearing them with your wetness, getting it all over your face too till it shines and youโre all messy. โTell me, whatโs got her so wet?โ
โI donโt know.โ
SMACK.
Rafe finds he quite enjoys slapping your cunt, especially when itโs so wet and throbbing. You cry out, quivering and shaking underneath him. He flashes you a look, โAnswer the question.โ
โYou,โ you breathe, blinking up at him, โYou, daddy.โ
โYeah? I get your pussy wet?โ Heโs working himself up, his dick nudging against your folds and he doesnโt know why he doesnโt just shove it in there. โTell me why.โ
You moan pleadingly, โR-Rafe, please!โ
โWhen I ask you a question, I expect you to answer it properly,โ he says, enjoying himself a bit too much. It was payback for all the times youโd teased him without even realising it this past week. Flaunting your sexy little body, blinking up at him with those fuck me eyes, as if you were just begging for it in your own little innocent way.
You swallow harshly, and despite everything he can see you thinking carefully, as if you want to give him a real proper answer to impress him. Cute.
โI, uh, I like how big you are,โ you stutter slowly, โyou-youโre a lot bigger than me.โ
He grins wolfishly, pushing his hair out of his face before pressing a greedy kiss to your lips, which you respond to fervently. But he pulls away all too quickly, looking down at you as if he expects you to continue.
โI like how strong you are,โ youโre looking anywhere but at his face, he guesses because youโre too shy. He sponges kisses down your jaw, your neck, down to your chest. Kisses all over your tits, presses them together and licks them, bites at your nipples while you moan between your words. โYou make me feel safe, daddy.โ
Rafe pauses, and itโs there again. That stupid fucking feeling that he doesnโt understand, nor does he care to understand it right now. Nobodyโs ever felt safe with him before. Everyoneโs always been afraid of him or hated him or screwed him over because they didnโt trust him. No oneโs ever looked at him how youโre looking at him and it makes him feel things heโs never felt before.
But he shoves those feelings straight back down, clears his throat before pressing his finger down between your folds. You shiver and moan, hips bucking up before he pins them in place. He tries pushing his pointer finger inside you, but is met with resistance despite how soaking wet you are. Fuck.
โTightest pussy I ever had,โ he mutters, โbut sheโll take daddyโs dick, wonโt she?โ
Itโs more of a statement than a question, and he ignores your soft cries as he forces his finger up your cunt. Till itโs finally knuckle-deep, and he bets you can feel the cool silver of his ring against your warmth. And your pussyโs so fucking snug, gripping his finger like a vice, and even he has to wonder how heโd possibly fit his big dick inside you.
โSo full,โ you breathe, your chest rising and falling rapidly with each breath. But he shuts you up soon enough when he starts fingering you. One singular finger, because thatโs all that fits. But he moves it in and out, curving upwards till you moan, thrusting your hips in rhythm like you canโt even help it.
โGonna add another one, okay baby?โ
โW-Wonโt fit, daddy.โ
โShh, yes it will. Daddyโs gonna make it fit.โ
Rafe makes it fit. He has to hold you down while you cry like a baby, but soon heโs got his index and middle finger shoved inside you, finger-fucking your tight, virgin cunt while his hard dick slaps against his stomach, and heโs so fucking turned on. More than heโs ever been in his whole life.
โHowโs that feel, baby?โ He murmurs into your ear, nibbling at it, licking inside it and making you jump. And fuck, youโre so jumpy, and he has to keep you pinned down while he fingers you, and a sick part of him wonders if heโs drawn blood already.
โH-Hurts,โ you whimper like the goddamned little cry-baby you are. โR-Rafe please slow down.โ
โCome on, donโt tell me to slow down,โ he continues pumping his thick fingers up your slippery wetness, feeling like youโre swallowing them up whole every time, โNot when youโre drippinโ all over your sheets like a littleโโ
โBut it hurts!โ
โThatโs okay, itโs supposed to hurt,โ he explains slowly, like youโre dumb, โitโs because youโve never done this before, so thatโs why I gotta stretch you out like this first, okay?โ
A lone tear meanders down your cheek, โI-I donโt think itโs gonna fit, Rafe.โ
โI made โem fit, didnโt I?โ
โNooo, youโre, uh, I mean yourโฆโ You sniffle helplessly, a wild look in your eye that looks half scared, half confused as he bets your bodyโs starting to betray you.
Rafe feels a smile creep up on his face, โYou already thinkinโ about my cock, sweetheart? How itโs gonna feel when itโs up your virgin cunt?โ
You shake your head vehemently, but youโre a little angel slut because your hips are bucking up to meet his fingers. โRafe, no. Your f-fingers, theyโre already too much, I donโt think I can takeโฆโ
โDidnโt I just tell you Iโd make it fit?โ
You grip his arm tightly, pleadingly โY-Youโre too big, I-I donโt think I can handle anymoreโฆOh fuck!โ
He knows heโs hit that spot inside you because your whole back arches, and you let out the hottest moan heโs ever fucking heard in his life. Complete abandon, head thrown back, digging your nails so hard into his arm that heโs sure youโve broken through his skin.
โThatโs right, baby girl. Just fuckinโ take it,โ he mutters, increasing his pace, wondering if he can fit a third finger in. โFuck, youโre so good, baby. Taking your daddyโs fingers like a champ. God, look at your little virgin cunt, swallowing โem up like a greedy little slut. Didnโt think youโd turn out to be so fuckinโ slutty, baby.โ
You clench around him, moaning his name and he canโt believe how much his dirty talk is having an effect on you. His thumb rubs at your clit while he continues to finger fuck you, wanting to draw another orgasm out of you because youโre so fucking gorgeous when you cum, and he wants you to make a mess all over his fingers before he finally takes you with his cock.
โToo much, too much, oh, oh, oh,โ youโre half delirious, humping against his fingers, letting him fuck you with them, and he knows you must feel so full. And it feels like heaven for him, being inside you (even if it is just with his fingers). You feel so soft, so wet, so warm. Your muscles tensing and relaxing around him as he builds you up.
โTake it,โ Rafe repeats, โbet itโs never felt this good huh? You ever finger yourself, baby girl? Touch yourself late at night when you think everyone elseโs asleep?โ
You gasp at his words, but he feels you clench around his digits.
โMmm, not such a good little girl after all, huh? Fingering yourself when you think your mommyโs asleep,โ he grins wickedly at the horrified look on your face, increasing pace, โbut itโs never enough, is it? Your fingers arenโt as big as mine, so you could never make yourself cum.โ He laughs, โthis whole time, all you needed was a man like me to take care of you. Say it, say you need me. Say it.โ
โN-Need you!โ You cry out, delicious tears streaking your face, โI need you, daddy. I-IโฆOh fuck, please! Please, I donโtโฆ I justโฆ Iโโ
You squirt all over his hand. And itโs insane; Rafeโs never seen anything like it before. He gazes in wonder, caught off-guard for once. You completely come undone, crying and panting his name, rocking your hips against his hand as you ride out your third orgasm of the night. And who knew it would take just a little bit of dirty talk to get you to squirt? God, you were so fucking hot, so full of surprises. So perfect for him, it was unbelievable.
โGood girl,โ he strokes your head like youโre his little pet, taking his wet fingers and pressing them into your mouth, and youโre so hot when you automatically suck on them. โSuch a good girl, baby. That was so fuckinโ sexy.โ
All you do is clutch at him and cry, so spent and overstimulated from your orgasm. Rafe licks his lips, feeling both protective yet predatory at the same time. Youโre at your weakest, most vulnerable state. Outside, thunder and lightning strike over and over again as if they were paid to do so, and the room lights up and goes dark, it shakes and shudders, and the winds howl like a pack of possessed wolves. And yet you look so pretty in the dim glow of the candlelight.
It's the perfect night for you to get ruined. His perfect little baby. Pristine and innocent and at his mercy.
Rafeโs cock is so hard it hurts, throbbing as he grabs it by the base, pumps it as he hovers over you. On his knees while you lie beneath him, looking so deliciously scared. He presses his whole length against your stomach, and watches your eyes almost bulge out of your head. He knows heโs big, but compared to your tiny frame, heโs massive. And he gets off on that, gets off on how much bigger he is than you. He smears his precum against your stomach, smirking as he watches you swallow and try to be brave.
โListen to me,โ he grabs your chin, forcing you to meet his eyes, โYou like my cock, baby? You like looking at it, huh?โ
The way you lick your lips gives it away, and he laughs cruelly, tapping your cheek like youโre his little pet. โSay it, then. Say you like it. Beg me to put it inside you. Cโmon, baby, look at your pussy, sheโs crying for it. Beg me.โ
He knows youโre at war with yourself, and you shake your head tearfully, opening your mouth to speak. But a clap of thunder sounds just then, so loud it makes the whole room shake. You cry out so pitifully, it makes his heart throb a little. You grab at him, and he falls down on top of you, kissing you, kissing your salty sweet lips and your tears. Kissing you all over while your desperate hands tangle into his hair.
Thatโs when he nudges the tip of his dick against your folds. And it already feels like fucking heaven, your wet warmth practically begging him to shove it inside you. He presses his tip on your puffy, sensitive clit and you jump, your eyes widening and then you push at his chest.
โR-Rafe, please, I donโt thinkโโ
โShh, cโmon, baby. Let daddy fuck you,โ Rafe urges softly against your lips, โgonna make you feel so good again, mhm?โ
โNoooโฆโ
He tries to ignore your soft cries, the way your palms press weakly against his chest.
โShit, just relax,โ he coaxes, knowing he could just hold you down and force it in, and yetโฆ
He kisses you, tasting salt on your lips. You try to kiss him back, but he can feel you gulping for breath. He can feel your heart hammering against your chest. He can feel your limbs pushing at his body, but heโs just so much fucking bigger than you that it doesnโt even make a difference, and yetโฆ
โRafe, Iโฆ pleaseโฆโ
โBabyโฆโ
His dick feels like itโs going to explode, and he runs it up and down your soaking slit, and you moan. And your face looks turned on beyond belief, and yet scared at the same time. Nervous, frightened, vulnerable. Itโs a heady mix, and he doesnโt know what to do, andโ
โPlease, Rafe. Iโm not ready, I-I canโt, Rafe. Pleaseโฆโ
โFuck.โ
Something comes over him, and Rafe feels it again. That bubbling, intense feeling inside his chest. Like a rush of an emotion he doesnโt know if heโll ever understand. All he knows is he canโt, he fucking canโt. Youโre so sweet, so kind, pure like a flower and he just canโt bring himself to pluck it. Tear it apart. Ruin it like how he ruined everything else he touched.
He rolls over, lying beside you while you quiver next to him. Both breathing hard. And outside, the wind howls and howls almost like itโs mocking him. Laughing at him for being a goddamned pussy. And thereโs another clap of thunder, and he hears you crying softly.
โHey, hey, itโs okay,โ Rafe finds himself gathering you in his arms, holding you against his chest, โHey, look, donโt worry about it. Itโs okay.โ
โI-I thought I could butโฆโ you hiccup between your tears, and your eyes look like there are a thousand stars shining wetly inside them, and he knows heโs never seen anything so beautiful. โIโm sorry, I thought I could do it, I thoughtโโ
โItโs okay,โ he repeats, cupping your face and making you look at him, his thumbs swiping away your tears, โDonโt cry, okay? Shit, itโs okay, baby. Itโs okay.โ
โY-Youโre not mad?โ
He strokes up and down your back, soothing you while he wonders whether he is. But the only thing he feels right now is this strange, innate need to protect you. To reassure you. Hold your quivering body close till you stopped shaking. Itโs insane, because he doesnโt feel like himself, because heโs never felt this before. Itโs alien. Completely, utterly fucking alien.
โNo,โ he answers quietly, pressing a kiss to your hairline, โNo, Iโm not mad.โ
โYou pr-promise?โ
โI promise.โ
He feels like a different person as he tucks his dick back into his slacks. Like someone else, like someone he doesnโt recognise. But it feels so natural, holding you so close that your heartbeat feels like his. And the storm outside feels like a million miles away. Like itโs just you and him on a different planet and nothing else exists, nothing else means anything except you.
You fall asleep in his arms, spent after everything. And Rafe doesnโt even feel frustrated in that moment, because all he can focus on is how peaceful you look. Your tears dried on your cheeks, your chest rising and falling rhythmically. You trusted him with everything. And it made him feel like someone important.
The wind laughs and laughs all night.
*
The morning is calm, tranquil. Almost like the storm never even was. And Rafe wakes up well rested, with you cuddled on his chest, his arm around you and his thumb in your mouth. The room dappled in sunlight, the candles all blown out or melted away.
Slowly, he detangles from you, making sure not to wake you up. You look so peaceful, so innocent. So soft and pretty, in your little shack of a house on the Cut. He frowns as he looks around. In the morning light, your room looks even more pitiful. Itโs clean, and youโve made it pretty with notes and posters and fairy lights. But he can see the paint peeling off the walls, the fact itโs smaller than his closet back home.
Rafe canโt believe heโs woken up on this side of the island.
He has the sudden urge to leave. To run. Hastily, he types out a text to you.
Rafe: Hey. I thought Iโd leave in case your mom came home and saw us. Didnโt want to wake you. Talk to you later.
He has to get home. Gather his thoughts. Recalibrate. Think about what the fuck came over him last night, when heโd had you right where he fucking wanted you. And then heโd pussied out of it. Rafe Cameron never pussied out of anything.
What the fuck did that mean?
His gaze shifts to you again, so pretty and sound asleep. Naked because youโd so willingly shed your clothes for him, spread your legs for him. And he could have had you. Hell, he could have you right now. Force himself into you while you were still asleep, and youโd wake up crying and sobbing, all confused and sleepy while he held you down and ordered you to just take it.
Thatโs what he shouldโve done last night. So then what the fuck had stopped him?
Now, he lightly runs his fingers over your bare thigh, humming lightly at how smooth you feel. So soft, like an angel. A powerful, almost all-consuming feeling overtakes him. A wave of possessiveness coursing through him like a tidal wave of dark poison. You were his. All his. He could do what he pleased with you. Your body was his. Youโd all but served it to him on a silver platter last night, in your pathetic little room with the candles.
Rafe feels like heโs having an out of body experience. He gets his phone out, ignoring any small, decent part of him that was sending warning signals to his brain. You were his. He had every right to do this.
Silently, he takes the pictures. And a sick part of him gets off on it, gets off on the fact youโre asleep and none the wiser to whatโs happening. But this was the least you could do, youโd left him hanging last night. After heโd been so patient, so understanding. Fuck that. Why had he been like that? Like he was weak?
โYou make me feel safe, daddy.โ
Your words from last night ring in his ears, bouncing around in his brain till it gets too much, till they start to echo and get louder and louder. Till he feels the urge to punch the shit out of your bedroom wall. It was all too much. He had to get out of here.
He tucks his phone into his pocket, pushes the cotton covers up till your chin, and then leaves without looking back.
*
โThere he is! The loverboy himself!โ
His friends gather around him the next morning like heโs the second coming of Christ himself.
โHow was she, Rafe?โ one of them slaps him on the back, โThat is, if you fucked her.โ
โYeah.โ Kelce stands in front of him with his arms crossed over his chest, looking at Rafe expectantly. They all are. โDid you fuck her?โ
Rafe scoffs, โIs that even a question.โ
Heโd waited all day yesterday for you to respond to his text. Like a pussy ass little bitch, heโd waited for you to say something. Growing angrier and more paranoid by the second when you didnโt. Staring at the pictures heโd taken of you like a man possessed, his thumb hovering over the delete button a handful of times before heโd thrown his phone angrily across the room. Hating how you were making him wait. Hating how his heart had leapt up to his fucking throat when you finally had replied: Iโm so sorry for being such a scaredy cat yesterday. Thank you for coming over.
He'd discovered something then. He was obsessed with you. And he hated it.
โPictures or it didnโt happen,โ Kelce grins, cutting straight to the chase. Next to him, Rafe sees Topperโs eyes light with interest, as well as the others too. Fucking desperate losers, trying to catch a glimpse of something that belonged to him. Because theyโd never get to see you like that, ever. No one else would. Heโd make sure of that.
โIt did happen.โ Rafe says calmly, โLike I said it would.โ
โOkay well, thatโs great brother but weโre gonna need proof.โ One of the clowns pipes up.
โYou donโt need shit,โ He shoots back.
โYou didnโt take pictures?โ Topper asks.
Rafe runs a hand through his hair in frustration. โI did.โ
โThen show us. That was the deal.โ
He wants to beat the shit out of all of them for daring to ask to see intimate pictures of you. As if you were anything like the other whores heโd fucked in the past, the type of stupid girls him and his friends used every week. You were different, and you were his, and they had no fucking business looking at what was his.
โLook. I donโt give a shit if you donโt believe me.โ He mutters, completely over the dumb ass bet and over his friends too. Theyโd forget about it by tomorrow, ready to become his willing followers once more. They always did.
โCโmon man, you canโt bring our hopes up like that. Either you never fucked her or,โ Kelceโs eyes glint when it registers, โOr youโve gone soft for her. Youโveโโ
Rafe grabs him roughly by the collar, a sudden anger coursing through him like heโs been electrocuted. โListen, you fucking moron. Donโt ever insinuate Iโve gone soft for a goddamned Pogue.โ
He spits that last word out like itโs venom, and yet he tried to ignore how hollow it feels. When he realises people are staring, he quietly lets go, smoothing Kelceโs shirt while his friends stare at him fearfully in that way heโs grown used to people looking at him.
โI fucked her,โ Rafe says plainly, his tone switching from aggressive to calm in a split second, almost like heโs slipped on a mask, โI fucked her just like Iโve fucked every other Pogue bitch whoโs thrown herself at me before her. And it wasnโt anything special. She acts all innocent, but it was easy to get her to spread her legs for me just like I told you it would be.โ
He hears a thud, and then a little gasp behind him. So soft, it barely registers. Except it does, and he turns around.
And immediately locks eyes with you.
And then it feels like itโs just him and you. And nobody else is there. And thereโs no sound, like both of you have stopped breathing. You stand there, frozen, stricken. Your books on the ground in front of you. Only a few steps behind him, well within earshot. And he sees something break in your expression, porcelain features twisting in hurt, shock, dismay, disbelief.
โOh shit,โ Topper mutters from somewhere behind him. A few of his friends snicker, but Rafe canโt hear them. No, heโs frozen, staring at you as if he canโt quite believe it. And he sees the tears welling in your eyes.
A little broken sob falls from your lips, and then you turn and run. And Rafe wants to chase after you but itโs like heโs frozen in time and space. Watching you run off while he just stands there.
Stands and watches as you run away from him, your hands reaching up blindly to wipe at your face. And that feeling returns tenfold. That feeling that Rafe canโt quite put his finger on, that feeling which he wants to push back down because it suffocates him, and he doesnโt understand it. The feeling consumes him from the inside out, till he feels like he canโt breathe.
And he just stands there and watches until youโre gone.
๐ผ/๐: OOF. Okay, I finally posted it! Please let me know what your thoughts! Literally any reaction, predictions, favourite parts etc. All of it, ANY of it would be so appreciated! Also please forgive any spelling or grammatical errors. Here's some questions in case you want to answer them (you don't have to!! you can comment/reblog whatever you want, i just always post questions at the end of my fics)
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