super long rant incoming for lads (if you read this i love you to pieces, if not i still love you to pieces): im not always the biggest fan of the reincarnation/past lover trope (which is ironic bc thatâs literally the entire foundation of lads lore LMAO) because sometimes it feels like the LIâs are in love with the idea of us seeing as mc in the storyline is the past version of their beloved. i just canât help but think, like are they actually in love with MC? or are they in love with some other version of her and thatâs the only reason theyâre drawn to her? it almost feels like theyâre projecting who they think she is when sheâs no longer the same person at all in this current timeline & lifetime.
it almost makes it feel like current mc is âthe other womanâ in some sense, even though thatâs a bit illogical because the past version of her is literally her but so much time has passed, things change, people change, and mc is a completely different person than who she was in their past lives. bc truly, the only one who i feel like truly loves her present day for who she is, is caleb. i would argue zayne to an extent too because he technically doesnât have any memories whatsoever of his past lives so him and MC falling in love feels like itâs happening for the first time again, itâs a blank slate.
and not to say that the boys canât grow to love who she is without painting her as her past version, but a part of it feels ingenuine sometimes to me. bc although she shares the same face, the same body, arguably the same soul as her past self, seeing as itâs again, literally her SELF, at the core of it, sheâs not actually her anymore. sheâs someone completely different. so sometimes it feels super bittersweet & the lines get blurred. i have a love hate relationship w some of the lads lore for these reasons.
so sorry for the fatass post, but the lore & past life concept in the game always makes me feel hesitant to truly immerse myself into the game (i donât even actually play the game, everything ik and have seen are from youtube clips that people have uploaded for all the myths, memories, and the overall storyline). this isnât to say i donât look forward to new updates and such, i love love lads. but like whenever i indulge in fanfic, especially as a chronic reader of âx readerâ fics, i have to separate reader from being MC, which is why i always stray towards non!mc reader bc thereâs no tangible lore and past lives/reincarnations attached to a non!mc reader. at least not to the same extent as the og MC depending on how much the author diverges from canon and just basic background context for reader. but overall imo, non!mc reader just doesnât carry the same heavy implications of the boysâ true feelings when itâs the actual MC vs a non!mc reader if any of that connected đ
similarly why i also love iseki/transmigration fics as well; basically any concept where the reader is NOT the mc. bc just like in iseki fics, the boys donât have the same attachments & feelings towards reader as they do MC. it just feels more sincere imo, idk.
i wonder if im just crazy and have too much time to think & talk to myself about this, or if other players/readers feel the same way. bc ik the whole point of an otome game is that WE are the MC. but ive just never been able to fully immerse myself like that, i see MC as a completely separate character, almost like an OC sometimes. like i just canât connect or fully enjoy any fanfic with MC being the âreaderâ. i view MC and reader to be two different people if that makes sense.
and again, im completely aware that as the storyline continues, the boys have obviously shown to care and have deep affectionate feelings (love is a bit too ambiguous imo to truly label that as what they feel for mc) for current mc and its probably only going to strengthen as the story moves forth. but my mind still spirals and thinks about all the âwhat-ifsâ and semantics of reincarnation and past lives. i wish i didnât think this way, the game and concept of it would probably be more enjoyable all around for me, but i apparently hate myself to think too light heartedly, even for a fictional game/story đ
truly tho, itâs never that serious, i just had to get that off my chest bc i really donât know if any other (not sane) person felt this ardent & torn about this as i do, which is a little silly honestly but here we are LMAO đ§ââïž but in the end, thereâs something for everyone here in the world of fanfic & delusions! đ«¶đŒđ«§


















