stimming isn’t enough i need to fucking explode

@thebibliosphere

MOTHER FUCKER

when you said atmospheric pressure shut down your brain it took me a second to realize you meant the atmosphere as in how tense school is compared to how calm home is, and not that autistic people have some kind of internal barometer that is attached to their brain.

ppl don’t understand adhd/autistic cleaning processes. we think so far ahead it’s like,,, impossible to do shit. you want me to vaccuum my bedroom floor? okay. we need to pick up all the stuff thats on it first, though. and where are we going to put the stuff? well, theres a couple categories of Stuff- Clothes, Random Items, and Trash. Trash is easy, we just throw it away. Clothes have to be sorted into Clean, Not Clean- and then the not clean ones have to go in the laundry bag, but theres so many so i might have to start a load now- ugh, distracted. lets go back to the clean clothes. well, these go in my drawer but- my drawer is really disorganized, so i’ll have to organize the clothes first so that theyll fit and look neat. by the time i’m done with that, i’ve spent an hour and a half trying to do stuff in my room. i finally turn to random items, most of which can find a home on my desk, but others i dont really know what to do with. plus, my desk is dirty. so i have to organize my desk, figure out where everything goes, and the stuff that doesn’t have a place can go in… a box, i guess. (not like i don’t have three other boxes full of random stuff in my closet)  so i put all the items back up but now i have this box full of stuff i dont know if i need so i have to go through it, sorting it into donate and dont donate piles. i might as well throw in some clothes to, so i dig through my clothes drawer and get the clothes i dont want, throw them in there too. okay, back to the random items- the ones i dont want to donate are still here, so i have to put them somewhere. i dont have anywhere to put them- maybe i should get a shelf? i start googling shelves, figuring out which ones would be best for my room, debating prices, learning about installation, and eventually im like ‘well, already on my computer’ and i decide im going to ‘check’ social media and end up lost in it for an hour or so. you walk back in, and theres stuff all over the floor, albeit in bags and boxes, and it still hasnt been vacuumed. its been five hours since i started. how does it take five hours to clean your room? it just does. 

This post walked into my room, pointed to the three boxes of random stuff sitting in my closest right now, and then shot me.

executive dysfunction be like that

overstimulation/sensory overload really is like sorry I can’t hear you over the sound of my shirt tag being itchy and these two strands of hair touching my face and the tv and one of my shoelaces being undone and air touching me and the plane flying overhead and my own thoughts about remembering to buy hummus

i can’t talk i have socks on

cis people be like. i would rather my loved one die than transition and be happy because it would be easier on me, the most important person in this situation, the cis person

cis people also be like. i love you but i need you to know if you live your true self i will always think of you as dead. and if you become happier i will consider your happy self a stranger. this is so hard on me. i am the victim.

you think this post is supposed to be positive? can you fucking read?

non autistic people shut the fuck up about elon musk he doesnt deserve to be defended and i hope he dies

like as an autistic person i literally promise you there is countless ways to support us without licking the heels of the literal richest man on the planet who uses child labour and exploits millions of people

also ''aspergers'' isnt real and that hasnt been an official diagnosis for over a decade now and it was only called that in the first place because of a neo nazi eugenicist who sent autistic children to their deaths unless he deemed them ''smart enough'' to get the 'aspergers' label. also "high functioning" and "low functioning" autism isnt real. you are literally just autistic or you are not

non autistic people reblog this actually especially if you think even for a moment about defending the epic racist child labour billionaire lol

i did that and it gave me anxiety what’s the next step

I wish more autism parents would ditch the essential oils, Autism Speaks bullshit and instead focus on what their autistic children actually need. They don’t need fucking eucalyptus oil. They need soundproof windows. As an autistic person myself I understand that a lack of friends is concerning, but instead of forcing social interaction on your child, try getting them a dog or a cat, perhaps. 94% of families who get dogs for their autistic children report that their child forms a special bond with the pet. If your autistic child is suffering, 99% of the time, it’s not the autism that’s making them suffer- it’s the fact their needs are being ignored.

the fact neurotypicals can’t hear the electronics hum doesn’t sit right with me. they’re such strange creatures. what do you mean you can’t hear the computer going babdbbsjsbsbhmmmmmm? it’s very much there! in fact, at times it’s too loud and i cry over it! you have to be able to hear it!

... wait. Wait. 

they can’t hear ticking of watches on the bedside at night, OR the hum of the electric alarm either. Blew my mind. 

They... Can't... Hear the fridge humming? Neon tubs buzzing? The computer? The heater or the water or...? They don't hearall that??? What?

They do hear, they just don't notice as much as those of us who are sensitive to noise. After a while their brain simply filters out the white noise.

wait this is so fucked up