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dokkaebi seem to grow vertically so here's my vision for biyoo . or something. i dunno

But.

I feel like there's another side to this coin that doesn't get acknowledged or noticed much—his supreme self-importance masked as self-deprecation. He genuinely believes that only he can save YJH, that only he can understand YJH, that his death is the grand, necessary price for everyone else's happiness. He frames it as self-sacrifice, but underneath it, there's this unshakeable fucking belief that he's the only one who can carry the weight in that "messiah complex dressed up in self-loathing" way. He sees himself as the protagonist of YJH's story in his own head and I don't think he even realizes that's what he's doing. And I think people ignore this because it complicates the "poor sad boy KDJ" narrative that's so popular. It's easier to infantilize him and treat him like a victim of circumstance who just can't help but sacrifice himself, than to acknowledge that he's actively making choices. And some of those choices are rooted in a deeply held belief that he knows better than everyone else. He's not just doing what needs to be done, he's doing what he thinks needs to be done, and he doesn't really care what anyone else thinks about it.

It's also not that he doesn't know people care about him. He does, he's not actually that oblivious. The text shows him understanding that his party wants him around and that they'd miss him terribly if he was gone, but he waves it off because acknowledging it would mean actually having to face the consequences of his choices. It's easier to keep the pity party going than to actually sit with the fact that people love him and he's hurting them a lot. He's dense about some things, yes, but he's not fucking blind. He just chooses to ignore it because looking at it directly would mean he'd have to stop running away.

This is very stupid but it’s genuinely what I think about every time I consider skipping dinner after work

star showers and rain ghosts

watercolour on arches paper cold pressed

i wanted to try traditional animation for a while and heres a cute little guy inspod by sonnyelim ; 3 and here are the seperate frames as well

Hello everyone! I have managed to find some clean cover art for delicious in dungeon, buried in some promotional italian pamphlet (JPOP Direct)! Some of the files were even separated in layers, i'll put it after the cut

Like instead of “today I will deep clean the kitchen and do my tax accounting homework” I’ll be like “okay this week I want to deep clean the kitchen, finish work for four classes, go to the hardware store, get a haircut, and go on a brisk walk at least three times” and on each individual day I just pick whatever tasks I feel like doing.

Every weekday I’ve gotta do something. But if I’ve got a list to pick from instead of a mandate for what to do today I can do whichever task I feel more motivated to do today.