Saturday morning, I managed one short, relatively light workout in the newly accessible garage gym. Every other morning the AQI has been in the orange or red thanks to the smoke.
I need to get 15lb dumbells (I have 5kg [11lbs] and 20lbs), as well as a cheap mat for stretching and ab work, and I'd like to get a couple of kettlebells. But I did squats, strict presses, deadlifts, and walked up and down the driveway!
My legs still hurt, so it's probably best that I had to skip a couple of days. Fingers crossed it's better tomorrow.
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Ended up being a few days later than I expected, but the garage is finally (mostly) organized.
I haven't assembled the dust collection system yet, but it's in the big boxes on the left, basically where it will end up. And most importantly, I have a weight room again!
There are some bins of stuff, along with another bike (that will eventually go to a new home) behind foam sheet, and I need to get rid of the busted wheelbarrow, but most things have a home that isn't piled on or around the weight bench.
Also, I can still easily clean & jerk the bar, as well as single arm snatch 20 lbs. I was too hot, tired, and hungry to try anything else.
It's gratifying that, even though I haven't actually worked out in almost a year, a few rounds of weeding, as well as planing 8 chair legs is all it took to start building muscle again. Nothing super defined, but my shoulders, arms, and chest are suddenly much more solid, and my ass is a little less flat.
wait. what do y'all set your home AC to? 78° F is our normal (and local officials exhort people to set it there regularly). if there are potential grid issues we raise it to 80°
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I'm not a DC gal. I don't really know the comics lore, I'm ambivalent on Superman, and I aggressively don't care about Bruce Wayne or Joker. I loved the first Wonder Woman and Birds of Prey, and that's about it.
Supergirl was fantastic. I laughed. I cried. I need more emo anti-hero Kara and Jason Momoa in corpse paint.
Finally reclaimed the house from the vines that were trying to eat it. The weather has been so weird that it looked fine until memorial day, and then it turned into a jungle right when I got sick.
Finally pulled the surprise irises that have been randomly popping up since my folks completely redid the landscaping 15+ years ago. They had drifted even further and were very close to the surface, so I relocated them to the side of the house. Will they survive? No idea, but it needed to happen and motivation is fleeting.
Properly weeded the garden. My tomatoes are looking a little worse for the wear, but I'm hoping it's because I haven't had the time or mental capacity to remember to neem them regularly. I picked some up, so I can start tonight.
Pulled out the extremely bitter bibb and spinach that was bolting, and sowed new spinach, black seed Sampson, and a gourmet lettuce mix. This is, I think, the first time I've ever just sown seeds in the ground. The whole salad garden idea was pretty impulsive and if I'd done any research, I probably would have started from seed to begin with.
Finished the huge workshop reorg. We still have to install the new dust collection system, and we can actually do that now. Also spent some time planing chair legs for the next pair of chairs. I forgot how much of a workout that is. Dad has really refined his sharpening setup and process, so sometime soon, I'm going to learn how to sharpen plane irons.
I forgot to take pictures, but the Boston cream pie was a huge success! I suck at leveling the cakes, but that was the first time I'd ever done it, so. It's been decided that I'll try my hand at the family pecan and chocolate chess pie recipes for dad and minikat's birthdays this year. Dad also suggested profiteroles, but he really wants them with cinnamon ice cream, which means I need an ice cream maker. Oh darn.
It took over a year post foot surgery, but I finally can, and more importantly WANT, to move and work my body. Not quite ready to jump back into crossfit, but that's mostly because I'm back on Vyvanse with it's associated heat intolerance, we're heading for a big heatwave, and the gym is not air conditioned. Once we get the dust collection done, I want to get the garage weight room back in order so I can start lifting at least a little, when weather allows or early in the morning. I miss deadlifts.
It was a Tuesday in 1981 when the San Francisco police kicked in the door.
Inside the small apartment, they expected to find a hardened criminal. They expected a drug kingpin. They expected resistance.
Instead, they found a 57-year-old waitress in an apron.
The air in the apartment smelled sweet, thick with chocolate and something earthier. On the kitchen counter, cooling on wire racks, were 54 dozen brownies.
The police officers began bagging the evidence. They confiscated nearly 18 pounds of marijuana. They handcuffed the woman, whose name was Mary Jane Rathbun.
She didn't look scared. She didn't look guilty.
She looked at the officers, smoothed her apron, and reportedly said, "I thought you guys were coming."
She was booked into the county jail. The headlines wrote themselves. A grandmother running a pot bakery. It seemed like a joke to the legal system, a quirky local news story about an older woman behaving badly.
But Mary wasn't baking for fun. And she certainly wasn't baking for profit.
To understand why Mary risked her freedom, you have to understand the silence of the early 1980s.
San Francisco was gripping the edge of a cliff. A mysterious illness was sweeping through the city, specifically targeting young men. Later, the world would know it as AIDS. But in those early days, it was just a death sentence that no one wanted to talk about.
Families were disowning their sons. Landlords were evicting tenants. Even doctors and nurses, paralyzed by the fear of the unknown, would sometimes leave food trays outside hospital doors, afraid to breathe the same air as their patients.
Men in their twenties were wasting away in sterile rooms, dying alone.
Mary knew what it felt like to lose a child.
Years earlier, in 1974, her daughter Peggy had been killed in a car accident. Peggy was only 22. The loss had hollowed Mary out, leaving a space in her heart that nothing seemed to fill.
When the judge sentenced Mary for that first arrest, he ordered her to perform 500 hours of community service. He likely thought the manual labor would teach her a lesson.
He sent her to the Shanti Project and San Francisco General Hospital.
It was a mistake that would change American history.
Mary walked into the AIDS wards when others were walking out. She didn't wear a hazmat suit. She didn't hold her breath. She saw rows of young men who looked like ghosts—skeletal, in pain, and terrified.
She saw "her kids."
She began mopping floors and changing sheets. But soon, she noticed something the doctors were missing. The harsh medications the men were taking caused violent nausea. They couldn't eat. They were starving to death as much as they were dying of the virus.
Mary knew a secret about the brownies she had been arrested for.
She knew they settled the stomach. She knew they brought back the appetite. She knew they could help a dying man sleep for a few hours without pain.
So, she made a choice.
She went back to her kitchen. She fired up the oven. She started mixing batter, not to sell, but to save.
Every morning, Mary would bake. She lived on a fixed income, surviving on Social Security checks that barely covered her rent. Yet, she spent nearly every dime on flour, sugar, and butter.
The most expensive ingredient—the cannabis—was donated. Local growers heard what she was doing. They began dropping off pounds of product at her door, free of charge.
She packed the brownies into a basket and took the bus to the hospital.
She walked room to room. She sat by the bedsides of men who hadn't seen their own mothers in years. She held their hands. She told them jokes. And she gave them brownies.
"Here, baby," she would say. "Eat this. It'll help."
And it did.
Nurses watched in amazement as patients who hadn't eaten in days began to ask for food. The constant retching stopped. The mood on the ward shifted from despair to a quiet sort of comfort.
Mary Jane Rathbun became "Brownie Mary."
For over a decade, this was her life. She baked roughly 600 brownies a day. She went through 50 pounds of flour a week. She became the mother to a generation of lost boys.
She washed their pajamas. She attended their funerals. She held them while they took their last breaths.
She did this while the government declared a "War on Drugs."
By the early 1990s, the political climate was hostile. Politicians were competing to see who could be "tougher" on crime. Mandatory minimum sentences were locking people away for decades.
In 1992, at the age of 70, Mary was arrested again.
This time, the stakes were lethal. She was charged with felonies. The district attorney looked at her rap sheet and saw a repeat offender. He threatened to send her to prison.
One prosecutor famously whispered to a colleague that he was going to "kick this old lady's ass."
They underestimated who they were dealing with.
They thought they were prosecuting a drug dealer. In reality, they were attacking the most beloved woman in San Francisco.
When the news broke that Brownie Mary was facing prison, the city erupted.
It wasn't just the activists who were angry. It was the doctors. It was the nurses. It was the parents who had watched Mary care for their dying sons when the government did nothing.
Mary turned her trial into a pulpit.
She arrived at court not as a defendant, but as a grandmother standing her ground. The media swarmed her. Reporters asked if she was afraid of prison. They asked if she would stop baking if they let her go.
Mary looked into the cameras, her voice gravelly and firm.
"If the narcs think I'm gonna stop baking brownies for my kids with AIDS," she said, "they can go fuck themselves in Macy's window."
The quote ran in newspapers across the country.
The court didn't stand a chance.
Testimony poured in. Doctors from San Francisco General Hospital wrote letters explaining that Mary’s brownies were medically necessary. Patients testified that she was an angel of mercy.
The charges were dropped.
Mary walked out of the courthouse a free woman. But she didn't go home to rest. She realized that her personal victory wasn't enough. As long as the law was broken, her "kids" were still in danger.
She needed to change the law.
August 25 was declared "Brownie Mary Day" by the San Francisco Board of Supervisors. It was a nice gesture, but Mary wanted policy, not plaques.
She teamed up with fellow activist Dennis Peron. Together, they opened the San Francisco Cannabis Buyers Club—the first public dispensary in the United States. It was a safe haven where patients could get their medicine without fear of arrest.
But Mary wanted more. She wanted the state of California to acknowledge the truth.
She campaigned for Proposition 215. She traveled the state, despite her failing health. She spoke in her simple, direct way. She didn't talk about liberties or economics. She talked about compassion. She talked about pain.
She forced voters to look at the issue through the eyes of a grandmother.
In 1996, Proposition 215 passed. California became the first state to legalize medical marijuana.
It was a domino effect. Because one woman refused to let her "kids" suffer, the public perception of cannabis shifted. The Economist later noted that Mary was single-handedly responsible for changing the national conversation.
She never got rich.
She had always joked that if legalization ever happened, she would sell her recipe to Betty Crocker and buy a Victorian house for her patients to live in.
She never sold the recipe. She never bought the house.
Mary Jane Rathbun died in 1999, at the age of 77. She passed away in a nursing home, poor in money but rich in legacy.
Today, over 30 states have legalized medical marijuana. Millions of people use it to manage pain, seizures, and nausea.
Most of them have never heard of Mary.
They don't know that their legal prescription exists because a waitress in San Francisco decided that the law was wrong and her heart was right.
They don't know about the 600 brownies a day.
They don't know about the thousands of hospital visits.
Mary didn't set out to be a hero. She told the Chicago Tribune years before she died, "I didn't go into this thinking I would be a hero."
She was just a mother who had lost her daughter, trying to help boys who had lost their way.
She proved that authority doesn't always equal morality.
She proved that sometimes, the most patriotic thing a citizen can do is break a bad law.
Every August, a few people in San Francisco still celebrate Brownie Mary Day. But her true memorial isn't a date on a calendar.
It is found in every oncology ward where a patient finds relief. It is found in every dispensary door that opens without fear.
It is found in the simple, quiet courage of anyone who sees suffering and refuses to look away.
Mary taught us that you don't need a law degree to change the world. You don't need millions of dollars. You don't need political office.
Sometimes, all you need is a mixing bowl, an oven, and enough love to tell the world to get out of your way.
Sources: New York Times Obituary (1999), "Brownie Mary" Rathbun. San Francisco Chronicle Archives (1992, 1996). History.com, "The History of Medical Marijuana." Weird Everything, FB december 12, 2025
The first salad from my garden! Red romaine, spinach, Japanese mustard greens, and iceberg. Unfortunately the bibb is incredibly bitter, both the outer leaves and the younger ones closer to the middle. Not sure why, because it hasn't bolted. I'm considering picking up some seeds for some other varieties of lettuce to replace it.
I love the mustard greens, though. The flavor is somewhere between spinach and arugula, and the dark purple color speaks to my cold, little goth heart.
Dad requested a homemade Boston cream pie for father's day. He probably thought LilSis or I would make it the way mom used to; boxed cake mix, canned chocolate frosting, and my grandma's homemade easy pastry cream.
You'd think he'd know me by now.
So far today I've made a hot milk sponge cake (second successful from-scratch cake ever) and proper French pastry cream. Tomorrow I'll assemble it and make the ganache.
And now I'm listening to Kool and the Gang play in the park behind my house. Might have even danced a little to Get Down On It.
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I love my friends. J (bride) & R (groom) are wonderful people and I'm so happy for them.
The rehearsal dinner/pre-wedding party went until 1am. I got up at 5:15, ate breakfast, showered, and woke up J, bestie (who was doing the hair), and the one bridesmaid who crashed there, too.
We started just before 7, and I finished R's mom at 2:30. Bestie's son nuked my egg bites while I frantically cleaned up, got my dress on, and threw on some concealer and mascara, before making a mad dash to the venue for emergency touch ups.
There's a reason most people don't do color for weddings; it takes exponentially longer. And while I kinda knew that going into it, I'd never had a bridal party that big, let alone one where everyone except the moms were colorful.
Despite not having time to put lashes on the bridesmaids and making them do their own lipstick (I provided touch up pots so they had it on hand), everyone loved it. I'm honestly proud of my concept (hard goth for the bride, ethereal goth for the bridesmaids), and mostly ok with the execution. I didn't have time to even think about taking photos, but I'll probably share once I get some from the bride.
Thankfully/unfortunately, none of the groomsmen took me up on my offer for some guyliner.
Looks like we have a few lifting shingles on the roof, and some random debris in the yard, but otherwise the house seems to be ok. Seems like everyone on our block got lucky - one house had several large branches fall, but only one caught the very corner of their front porch roof. There's more severe damage around the corner, and the park is missing several trees, and I saw a few branches with halos of shredded bark tangled around them. The house directly behind us, between us and said park? Totally fine. No debris, and all trees still standing, along with the trampoline.
Still no power, and no estimate of when it'll be back. Gonna have to go buy disposable towels for tomorrow. I was going to wash mine this morning 🤦🏻♀️. At least I got the brushes done last night, and have a good chunk of my kit packed.
I've lived in the Midwest my entire life. I've been through countless tornado warnings, and some have hit my town, but they were miles away.
Last night was the first time I've heard one. It hasn't been confirmed yet, but it felt like an earthquake and sounded like a freight train. Houses less than a block away have blown out windows and severe damage. There's no doubt in my mind that it was a tornado.
We're ok, and so far the house seems to be ok, though I'm sure I heard something large hit it. So far no deaths reported.
Brushes are clean! Didn't take quite as long as I feared. And I was right, after the 15 or so I had to throw away, it's right around 150.
Do I need 150 brushes for 8 people? Actually, yeah I might, especially if I don't clean a single one between faces. That probably won't happen, but I do like having options.
Now I'm taking an epsom salt bath so I can prep my toes for polish in the morning and do a body scrub and shave.
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I'm doing wedding makeup this weekend for the first time in years. I'm nervous because it's a large wedding party, but it's glam goth which is my shit. I think I've just about got my kit sorted, but...
I'm in brush washing hell. My daily use brushes get cleaned regularly, but the rest have been just sitting for years. I haven't counted, but I think it's ~150.
Did I leave it until the night before I have to pack my kit and head to indy? Obviously.