Aiyana

you deserve rest.

you can start anytime.

You can lay on top of the blankets. You can lay under the bed sheets directly on the mattress. You can sit in the shower. You can put your hair up and wash your body, or you can sit on a chair beside and just wash your hair. And for that matter— you can bring a chair into the bathroom. You can go in to wash yourself waist down only and get out right after. You can go to bed in a coat. You can lie on the floor. You can just sweep the floor— no need to mop if you cannot.

i clean the bathroom in stages. one day ill do the sink. the other, the toilet. ill spray down the shower in the morning and then scrub it in the evening and wash myself right after. you do not have to do it all at once.

“We often want it so badly that we ruin it before it begins. Overthinking. Fantasizing. Imagining. Expecting. Worrying. Doubting. Just let it naturally evolve”