Dumbass Trans Dragon Bitch

I’m Jen. I’m a poor, disabled trans lesbian and I must flee from a physically and emotionally abusive home ASAP. I’ve long put off asking for donations, seeing it only as a last resort. Now I’m out of options. I need to leave for my own safety and well-being and I may finally have a chance.

I have C-PTSD and am stuck in the environment that’s caused most of my trauma. I’ve been assaulted by drunken alcoholic family members multiple times. I’m the scapegoat and whipping girl here; nothing I do is ever enough. I’m constantly gaslit, manipulated, and victim blamed.

My Dr. says the chronic stress has taken a toll on my body, weakening my immune system. They, my therapists and friends all urge me to move, and have for years.

My stress related health issues include:

Breaking out in hives almost daily

Chronic digestive issues like acid reflux,  which has led to tonsil ulcers, cavities, and frequent, recurring, increasingly severe strep throat. I may need my tonsils removed

Increasingly frequent digestive bleeding, severe enough that I need a colonoscopy and upper endoscopy

A chronic eating disorder that’s exacerbated by this pain so it’s hard to eat enough each day

All this plus typical PTSD symptoms: nightmares, flashbacks, hypervigilance, and chronic pain/fatigue. I also have Major Depressive Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and I’m autistic.

My 2 part time jobs don’t give me enough hours. My abusive alcoholic sisters don’t work, but my mother pressures only me to get a job, when I’m already desperately looking for a 3rd one. My parents enable their alcoholism by regularly buying them alcohol and drinking with them.

My jobs and all my friends are an hour away. Moving would not only ease my health problems and allow me to heal emotionally, it’d save me a ton on gas and car maintenance, plus hours of commuting that I could spend at a 3rd job.

Thank you so SO much for reading. Any donations or reblog boosts seriously mean the world to me. With your support I may be able to finally escape.

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Only I never learned the Girl Things, because at no point in my life did I have the opportunity to Be A Girl. I skipped straight to being a Grown Woman. So all of the things that I would have normally learned from my older female relatives never happened.

So now it feels like every time I’m hanging out with like my sisters or something they’re like “oh what do you do with Thing?” or “I wanted to get you Thing for your birthday what kind of Thing do you like” and I have to just be like, “ I’ve never heard of Thing. I don’t know what that is. I didn’t know I was supposed to have/use/do Thing.” And then I usually get looks like, “what? How do you not know Thing? You’re a girl now right? So you should know THING?”

I hate that I have to ask because I didn’t even want to be in this situation in the first place, and yet it’s up to me to try and fix my mom’s mistakes. I really can’t wait to be free of her hopefully within a year’s time.

He knows it’s a word that is used when he’s doing something he shouldn’t be doing. However, being told “no” doesn’t make him stop doing it in future.

If he’s ever out of my sight or if I’m not paying attention, I know exactly when he’s doing something bad.

Here are some examples of how companies just slapped the most inane slogan they could think of on their floats, handed out free shit with their logos made rainbow on them, and that was 90% of the parade.

Let’s not reduce it to just one pride parade being problematic, because this is a pervasive trend in pride celebrations. Our spaces are being coopted by marketing opportunists performing wokeness in the hopes of winning over what is now a commercially viable social group.