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See the thing about Derek Hale. is I think he’s actually a very well written character and I enjoyed his growth throughout the series. I would love to read fics and posts where he is explored properly. But I never see anything like it. Like okay let me… this may be controversial but just hear me out.
Starting off from the earliest flashback we have with Derek, he’s 14/15 years old and his uncle is way too fucking involved in his life. He’s cheerful, a little arrogant, and incredibly trusting. He likes a girl his age. His uncle takes personal offense to this for reasons I don’t fucking know but seem pretty predatory. He decides the idea of Derek having a normal high school relationship is bad and starts to slowly convince him that if he wants to be with her, he should have her bitten. He follows Derek into places he is vulnerable, the locker room while he’s undressed, etc. He takes advantage of the fact that he’s older than Derek, and his uncle, and convinces him to violate his girlfriend’s autonomy. She dies as a result.
The next thing that happens is while Derek is grieving this girl, feeling guilty enough over it to change his physical appearance, an older woman approaches him. She convinces him to be with her, grooms him, and places herself on the pedestal that Peter and Paige used to hold. A trusted adult and a lover all in one. He latches onto her and she takes advantage of all his guilt and grief to be the most important person. She uses the fact that he’s desperate for validation against him, and pulls information she wants out of him. She kills his family. All of them.
Then until the events of teen wolf, it’s blurry and vague. As far as I can glean, Laura and Derek moved to NYC and isolated themselves. They didn’t make friends (Derek never mentions any or knows anyone from his 16-21 year old time), Laura never made any betas (because they would’ve passed to Derek when she died.) I would guess neither of them trusted anyone for a very long time after that kind of betrayal. Making assumptions about Laura’s character, maybe she knew Derek had an older girlfriend and encouraged it/teased him about it, and felt equal guilt for trusting something like that.
Flash forward to Teen Wolf. Derek’s most trusted role models were his uncle who was way too involved in his teenage romantic life, his groomer, and his incredibly isolated older sister. What does Derek do when he gets to a place where a strange alpha killed his sister, finding only a young teenage beta in love with a human girl as a clue? He gets really fucking involved in this kid’s life. He follows him into places where he is vulnerable. The locker room when he’s naked, his bedroom when he’s ready to sleep, parking lots when it’s dark and he’s isolated. He attempts to prevent him from entering a teen relationship and isolate him from his friends, placing himself as the sole source of trust in his life. Outside of this kid he’s isolated himself. Whenever he interacts with Stiles it’s similar, partly attempting to push him away from Scott and partially adultifying him and asking him to do things no adult should ask a kid to do.
This especially rolls over into season two with Erica, Boyd, and Isaac. He finds kids who are isolated, weak, and want a role model. I don’t think he’s sexually interested in them but he definitely uses sex/attraction to keep them interested in what he can offer (See: manhandling them, allowing erica to kiss him, utilizing bdsm like restraints when it’s not necessary.). He offers power, in return for control. He continues to pressure scott but mostly focuses on the teenagers he CAN control. He tries to do the same thing that Peter and Kate did to him. Make himself into everything they want so they stay with him. And he also follows what Laura taught him, and convinces them to isolate themselves. What’s interesting about this is he clearly doesn’t know what he’s doing to them!
I mean he does, but like… he doesn’t know where he’s getting this from. He doesn’t understand why it doesn’t make him happy. He’s following what he’s SEEN, because he doesn’t know another way to connect with people. He’s following patterns and cycles of violence!! He wants real connections but he’s never seen it done by an adult in a position of power he’s only ever been victimized. So he turns around and he (undeniably!!!!!!) victimizes Scott, Stiles, Erica, Boyd, and Isaac. He violates autonomy, uses violence as a tool, creates sexualized situations with them, and isolates them from friends and family. But he doesn’t want to do that necessarily!
It comes to a head in season 3. It’s one of the reasons Scott’s arc is so impactful. Derek’s is inherently tied to it. He sees what Peter and Kate did to Derek, what Derek turned around and did to him, and he realizes that it’s what people have been TAUGHT. That it doesn’t have to be the way things ARE. He starts showing Isaac a different way to live and the thing is DEREK FUCKING SEES IT TOO. He starts to realize what he’s doing by watching Scott do things differently. He watches Scott make connections he couldn’t by building trust instead of creating scenarios he is needed. Derek letting go of being an Alpha for his sister kind of signified to me a conclusion of an arc where he realized he was abusive and let go of his need for power over other people, because his power INCLUDED HARM.
The thing people tend to NOT acknowledge is that from seasons 1-3, Derek is an antagonist who abuses vulnerable children. He’s doing it because of what’s been done to him, but that doesn’t erase that he did it. If you removed every scene that Derek was in where he did something morally questionable that involved a teenager he wouldn’t even be a character! I don’t get it. I mean I DO, people don’t want to acknowledge that they like someone who victimizes people, but cmon. That’s his whole arc and concept. He is predatory towards teenagers because he was groomed. He lets go of his trauma and tries to make things better. Also there’s something to be said about the whole “Wolf=Predator,” thing Derek has going on but I don’t have time for that.
Thesis statement: I don’t hate Derek! He’s a very interesting character! I just find it odd that I never see anyone talking about this aspect when it’s incredibly interesting to me. I’m a certified scott fan and I love his arc and it’s incredibly tied to Derek’s arc and the way he perpetuates cycles of violence and toxic masculinity.
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You cannot simultaneously say "Everyone is racist because of society," and then blame people who were racist and got better.
Yes. Having a racist phase is normal. Did they get better? Do people have to be born perfect now?
Honestly fuck off.
"having a racist phase is normal" well not me, it wasn't. i don't care about your white guilt because "people who were racist and got better" aren't the ones who suffered because of your racism. it is quite telling with how you're mad at me for saying your racist phases aren't a norm & shouldn't be treated as such rather than thinking what prompted that— bullying, suicides & murder of thousands of black & brown kids. people do not have to be born perfect but it is actually quite easy to not bully or make somebody's life a living hell because of their skin colour, given the internet and all the books & news on your fingertips in 21st century. kids specially aren't born indoctrinated with nazi ideology and to be a racist teen in this day & age is severe empathetic & intellectual failure on your part. people of colour do not owe you a shred of understanding for it. your entitlement to our forgiveness is frankly disgusting & shows how you haven't grown at all.
i've been having some headaches and what feels like a warning sign of an aneurysm/stroke, and my right eye hurts and i'm so fuzzy-headed these days...how long until i can check into the funny farm, and how long until i drop dead from brain cancer or something i'm too lazy/fatalistic/nihilistic to get checked out lmao
There's literally no furniture...not even a microwave, no oven, nothing. This place is so sparse, we have one tiny bed, but at least it's ours*. We also have to provide our own internet and pay that monthly, but the rent itself isn't bad at all. We have enough to stock the fridge, but furniture and TVs and Internet and appliances are gonna be killing us, I don't even wanna think about how much everything will cost to make this a home 😭 so if anyone wanna help us do the last thing to make it homely, please feel free. We're home. It's empty, but it's ours.
the way we are FLAT fucking broke but at least we're getting internet tomorrow and have cell phone plans and stuff. still need to buy a microwave, tv, countertop oven, pillows, sheets, etc. this is my first apartment, if you're able to spare even $5, please consider doing so. the rent is pretty great, but they don't include internet, so we're responsible for that, and AT&T was the only option for our area. We've got a lot to buy and set up to make this a livable home, but at least the space exists!
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There's literally no furniture...not even a microwave, no oven, nothing. This place is so sparse, we have one tiny bed, but at least it's ours*. We also have to provide our own internet and pay that monthly, but the rent itself isn't bad at all. We have enough to stock the fridge, but furniture and TVs and Internet and appliances are gonna be killing us, I don't even wanna think about how much everything will cost to make this a home 😭 so if anyone wanna help us do the last thing to make it homely, please feel free. We're home. It's empty, but it's ours.
the way we are FLAT fucking broke but at least we're getting internet tomorrow and have cell phone plans and stuff. still need to buy a microwave, tv, countertop oven, pillows, sheets, etc. this is my first apartment, if you're able to spare even $5, please consider doing so. the rent is pretty great, but they don't include internet, so we're responsible for that, and AT&T was the only option for our area. We've got a lot to buy and set up to make this a livable home, but at least the space exists!
There's literally no furniture...not even a microwave, no oven, nothing. This place is so sparse, we have one tiny bed, but at least it's ours*. We also have to provide our own internet and pay that monthly, but the rent itself isn't bad at all. We have enough to stock the fridge, but furniture and TVs and Internet and appliances are gonna be killing us, I don't even wanna think about how much everything will cost to make this a home 😭 so if anyone wanna help us do the last thing to make it homely, please feel free. We're home. It's empty, but it's ours.
the way we are FLAT fucking broke but at least we're getting internet tomorrow and have cell phone plans and stuff. still need to buy a microwave, tv, countertop oven, pillows, sheets, etc. this is my first apartment, if you're able to spare even $5, please consider doing so. the rent is pretty great, but they don't include internet, so we're responsible for that, and AT&T was the only option for our area. We've got a lot to buy and set up to make this a livable home, but at least the space exists!
There's literally no furniture...not even a microwave, no oven, nothing. This place is so sparse, we have one tiny bed, but at least it's ours*. We also have to provide our own internet and pay that monthly, but the rent itself isn't bad at all. We have enough to stock the fridge, but furniture and TVs and Internet and appliances are gonna be killing us, I don't even wanna think about how much everything will cost to make this a home 😭 so if anyone wanna help us do the last thing to make it homely, please feel free. We're home. It's empty, but it's ours.
the way we are FLAT fucking broke but at least we're getting internet tomorrow and have cell phone plans and stuff. still need to buy a microwave, tv, countertop oven, pillows, sheets, etc. this is my first apartment, if you're able to spare even $5, please consider doing so. the rent is pretty great, but they don't include internet, so we're responsible for that, and AT&T was the only option for our area. We've got a lot to buy and set up to make this a livable home, but at least the space exists!
There's literally no furniture...not even a microwave, no oven, nothing. This place is so sparse, we have one tiny bed, but at least it's ours*. We also have to provide our own internet and pay that monthly, but the rent itself isn't bad at all. We have enough to stock the fridge, but furniture and TVs and Internet and appliances are gonna be killing us, I don't even wanna think about how much everything will cost to make this a home 😭 so if anyone wanna help us do the last thing to make it homely, please feel free. We're home. It's empty, but it's ours.
the way we are FLAT fucking broke but at least we're getting internet tomorrow and have cell phone plans and stuff. still need to buy a microwave, tv, countertop oven, pillows, sheets, etc. this is my first apartment, if you're able to spare even $5, please consider doing so. the rent is pretty great, but they don't include internet, so we're responsible for that, and AT&T was the only option for our area. We've got a lot to buy and set up to make this a livable home, but at least the space exists!
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There's literally no furniture...not even a microwave, no oven, nothing. This place is so sparse, we have one tiny bed, but at least it's ours*. We also have to provide our own internet and pay that monthly, but the rent itself isn't bad at all. We have enough to stock the fridge, but furniture and TVs and Internet and appliances are gonna be killing us, I don't even wanna think about how much everything will cost to make this a home 😭 so if anyone wanna help us do the last thing to make it homely, please feel free. We're home. It's empty, but it's ours.
the way we are FLAT fucking broke but at least we're getting internet tomorrow and have cell phone plans and stuff. still need to buy a microwave, tv, countertop oven, pillows, sheets, etc. this is my first apartment, if you're able to spare even $5, please consider doing so. the rent is pretty great, but they don't include internet, so we're responsible for that, and AT&T was the only option for our area. We've got a lot to buy and set up to make this a livable home, but at least the space exists!
There's literally no furniture...not even a microwave, no oven, nothing. This place is so sparse, we have one tiny bed, but at least it's ours*. We also have to provide our own internet and pay that monthly, but the rent itself isn't bad at all. We have enough to stock the fridge, but furniture and TVs and Internet and appliances are gonna be killing us, I don't even wanna think about how much everything will cost to make this a home 😭 so if anyone wanna help us do the last thing to make it homely, please feel free. We're home. It's empty, but it's ours.
the way we are FLAT fucking broke but at least we're getting internet tomorrow and have cell phone plans and stuff. still need to buy a microwave, tv, countertop oven, pillows, sheets, etc. this is my first apartment, if you're able to spare even $5, please consider doing so. the rent is pretty great, but they don't include internet, so we're responsible for that, and AT&T was the only option for our area. We've got a lot to buy and set up to make this a livable home, but at least the space exists!
There's literally no furniture...not even a microwave, no oven, nothing. This place is so sparse, we have one tiny bed, but at least it's ours*. We also have to provide our own internet and pay that monthly, but the rent itself isn't bad at all. We have enough to stock the fridge, but furniture and TVs and Internet and appliances are gonna be killing us, I don't even wanna think about how much everything will cost to make this a home 😭 so if anyone wanna help us do the last thing to make it homely, please feel free. We're home. It's empty, but it's ours.
the way we are FLAT fucking broke but at least we're getting internet tomorrow and have cell phone plans and stuff. still need to buy a microwave, tv, countertop oven, pillows, sheets, etc. this is my first apartment, if you're able to spare even $5, please consider doing so. the rent is pretty great, but they don't include internet, so we're responsible for that, and AT&T was the only option for our area. We've got a lot to buy and set up to make this a livable home, but at least the space exists!
There's literally no furniture...not even a microwave, no oven, nothing. This place is so sparse, we have one tiny bed, but at least it's ours*. We also have to provide our own internet and pay that monthly, but the rent itself isn't bad at all. We have enough to stock the fridge, but furniture and TVs and Internet and appliances are gonna be killing us, I don't even wanna think about how much everything will cost to make this a home 😭 so if anyone wanna help us do the last thing to make it homely, please feel free. We're home. It's empty, but it's ours.
the way we are FLAT fucking broke but at least we're getting internet tomorrow and have cell phone plans and stuff. still need to buy a microwave, tv, countertop oven, pillows, sheets, etc. this is my first apartment, if you're able to spare even $5, please consider doing so. the rent is pretty great, but they don't include internet, so we're responsible for that, and AT&T was the only option for our area. We've got a lot to buy and set up to make this a livable home, but at least the space exists!
literally the best thing about this place is the rent rate. once we acquire furniture and electronics and knick knacks and art supplies and i can decorate the place and have our essentials sorted, i might actually feel like I have a Home for the first time since I left my family. 🥹 everything is daunting and overwhelming, but i am a BAD BITCH, as evidenced by the evidence contained with this enclosed telegram:
donate/reblog my furniture post if u can <3 i can't believe we're finally here 😭 IT'S BEEN SO LONGGGGGG
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There's literally no furniture...not even a microwave, no oven, nothing. This place is so sparse, we have one tiny bed, but at least it's ours*. We also have to provide our own internet and pay that monthly, but the rent itself isn't bad at all. We have enough to stock the fridge, but furniture and TVs and Internet and appliances are gonna be killing us, I don't even wanna think about how much everything will cost to make this a home 😭 so if anyone wanna help us do the last thing to make it homely, please feel free. We're home. It's empty, but it's ours.
the way we are FLAT fucking broke but at least we're getting internet tomorrow and have cell phone plans and stuff. still need to buy a microwave, tv, countertop oven, pillows, sheets, etc. this is my first apartment, if you're able to spare even $5, please consider doing so. the rent is pretty great, but they don't include internet, so we're responsible for that, and AT&T was the only option for our area. We've got a lot to buy and set up to make this a livable home, but at least the space exists!
There's literally no furniture...not even a microwave, no oven, nothing. This place is so sparse, we have one tiny bed, but at least it's ours*. We also have to provide our own internet and pay that monthly, but the rent itself isn't bad at all. We have enough to stock the fridge, but furniture and TVs and Internet and appliances are gonna be killing us, I don't even wanna think about how much everything will cost to make this a home 😭 so if anyone wanna help us do the last thing to make it homely, please feel free. We're home. It's empty, but it's ours.
the way we are FLAT fucking broke but at least we're getting internet tomorrow and have cell phone plans and stuff. still need to buy a microwave, tv, countertop oven, pillows, sheets, etc. this is my first apartment, if you're able to spare even $5, please consider doing so. the rent is pretty great, but they don't include internet, so we're responsible for that, and AT&T was the only option for our area. We've got a lot to buy and set up to make this a livable home, but at least the space exists!
