Independent Soul

anneorion

I loved you. I wish you all the best.

Today is the day that found out that my ex bf did cheat on me and now he’s dating a maturer women.. I don’t even know how to process that.. She’s way older than him. Why couldn’t he replace me someone more reasonable?! I know it’s been a month since our break up but somehow I still have feelings for him and everything still hurts! I want to move on. I want to forget about the guy that once loved me, then broke me into pieces. I don’t even know how I’m suppose to recover from this. It’s like every time someone tells me they care about me, they always end up hurting me or leaving me. It’s simply not fair! I wanted to be the best for him, but I guess I was the only one trying for us.. The memories also don’t seem to fade which makes it even harder for me.. I know eventually I will be okay and find someone who will treat me right.. I just hope when that day comes, I’ll be ready to love again..

Reading this today, 3 years later still breaks my heart. I recently went through another break up and let me tell you, this shit doesn’t get easier. I miss him and I feel like I’ve lost bits of pieces of me that once made me whole. The bottom line is, I know in time I’ll be okay.

It’s been another 3 years (Nov 2 2022) and I have again been broken up with the same person I referenced 3 years ago. I don’t know if this is a coincidence or maybe I was meant to come across this post again to remind myself that I will heal and be strong with time. This is the biggest heart break of my life as I’m not heart broken, I’m completely broken. It’s traumatizing to say the least but I’m hoping that I’ll recover and be happy once again.

The moon dressed as Saturn.

Today is the day that found out that my ex bf did cheat on me and now he’s dating a maturer women.. I don’t even know how to process that.. She’s way older than him. Why couldn’t he replace me someone more reasonable?! I know it’s been a month since our break up but somehow I still have feelings for him and everything still hurts! I want to move on. I want to forget about the guy that once loved me, then broke me into pieces. I don’t even know how I’m suppose to recover from this. It’s like every time someone tells me they care about me, they always end up hurting me or leaving me. It’s simply not fair! I wanted to be the best for him, but I guess I was the only one trying for us.. The memories also don’t seem to fade which makes it even harder for me.. I know eventually I will be okay and find someone who will treat me right.. I just hope when that day comes, I’ll be ready to love again..

Reading this today, 3 years later still breaks my heart. I recently went through another break up and let me tell you, this shit doesn’t get easier. I miss him and I feel like I’ve lost bits of pieces of me that once made me whole. The bottom line is, I know in time I’ll be okay.

— 2 am thoughts

unspoken feelings

— Lemony Snicket, The Beatrice Letters (via books-n-quotes)