"I found my heart, Isabel. I found yours too. And it was still beating."

but in my experience 95% of my hallucinations are getting spooked by very clearly hearing someone knocking on my door or calling my name from another room or hearing footsteps walking behind me which are "just" my brain recreating the horror of an abusive childhood

(not trying to put you on blast specifically, you're just a good example to jump off of)

media and pop culture hypes up psychosis a lot as The Worst That Can Happen out of sanism, so even when you try and filter that cultural bias out you still assume it's based on something

when, no, psychosis is actually very simple: it's just hyperactive pattern matching. it's your brain's signal-to-noise ratio being off balance, it's seeing images in random static. it's not always this special uniquely big thing, it's in fact quite mundane a lot of the time.

no one is immune to psychosis, it's not purely the realm of the insane. anyone is one bad night of sleep or one bad case of food poisoning or one bad fever away from being just like me on my worst days.

hi hiiii it's j again .. thank you to everyone that's helped keep me afloat over these last few months,, it's been! rough! on a lot of fronts! but we're pushing through.

my partner got us a house and we'll be moving over this next month! thankfully our first big house payment won't be until the beginning of august, but moving is an expensive endeavor, i still have utility bills to pay, and i need to eat :')

any and all help is appreciated, even if it's just a reblog 💕

v: @jmaeveb

c: $jmaeveb

microsoft games are a bds boycott target, and because both bethesda + obsidian are owned by microsoft, this includes the games published by them.

microsoft is gonna further profit from a new virtual playground of ~post-apocalyptic bombed out towns in the desert~ while contributing to creating bombed out apocalyptic conditions in gazan towns, by collaborating with israel on so many fronts that bds calls microsoft the most complicit company in palestinian genocide.

Mona’s community aid initiative – verified by el-shab-hussein

The Sameer Project – has a british partner org, so UK folks can donate with gift aid here with no transfer fees

Revive Gaza Farmlands – has a canadian partner org, so canadians can donate via direct bank transfers with no transfer fee

this behavior is nothing new. the global south and everything in it - the people, the culture, our heritage - is seen as nothing more than a decoration or commodity to colonizers. i don't even need to bring up the koh i noor or the entire british museum; these examples are recent and egregious enough on their own.