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       Whenever I feel down, unproductive and anxious about life, spending quality time with my loved ones lifts my spirit. It works like magic. After laughing and talking to them makes me feel like I can conquer anything.  When I spend time with someone, it frustrates me to see their attention divided. I hate when people whom I am talking to are not paying attention. It just makes me feel small and unwanted.        Throughout these 18 years of existence, spending quality time with my loved ones never disappoints me. I find that sharing moments with them boost me as an individual. It helped me express myself even more. It gave me this special bond and connection that I know will strengthen our relationship. A day without catching with them feels empty and seems my day won`t be complete without interacting with them.

       No man is an Island. We grow with the help of other people. We love! Love is said to be an important aspect of life. It what makes life more exciting to live. It is as important as breathing. It is an essential component of happiness and a way in finding the purpose of why you exist. But what is love? How do you define love? I know we all have a different perspective towards love. Some say they are in love. But is it really love? What is your love language? When do you feel most loved?        There are five love languages namely words of affirmation, gifts, acts of service, quality time, and physical touch. To help me out a little bit, I decided to take an online quiz on how to determine my love language. Although I have already an idea of what`s my love language still it won`t cost me to try it out. Upon finishing the quiz, the result shows that my primary love language is Quality time followed by Acts of Service, Words of affirmation, Receiving gifts, and Physical touch. And I must say it really is a fact. I prefer the most to spend quality time with the people I love.        We all experience love. It is something that we have in common. But indeed, it is not all the time that we feel loved. I feel most loved whenever someone frees their time just to talk to me even it is not something important. It gives me butterflies whenever people make efforts to talk to me, ask me if I am doing good, or just simply hang out with me. I also feel loved when I became significant to others. Like if they have trouble with them, they don`t hesitate to approach me because they believe I can help them out same goes for me, if I have problems, I appreciate it if they console me by just saying “I am always here for you”. It`s happiness for me to help them and knowing that they trust me. Receiving gifts and physical touch also makes me feel loved but not as much as spending quality time.

       We all have different definitions of happiness. Some find it in a materialistic way while others find it in simple things. Happiness is a choice. You decide to yourself what it meant to be happy. Every day we witness people who look happy as if everything looks so fine but maybe some of it is not real. Who knows? there`s more to it than meets the eye. What makes you happy? When are you happy?        I feel happy with simple things. I feel happy whenever we go out with my family and friends; Talking to them, catching up and it makes me happy whenever they are happy. I also feel happy whenever I achieve my goals. Seeing myself in progress and doing the best of my ability. The joy that I felt every time I succeed after all the hard work that I put in can`t seem to be explained. I feel like the happiest human alive.        Happiness is basically a matter of perfective. You don`t need to achieve something big for you to be happy. Try finding it within yourself. In particular, it can only be done by being positive and preventing any negative thoughts. And if we just look at the bright side in the midst of darkness, then we can be satisfied and achieve happiness.

“Life is the most difficult exam. Many people fail because they try to copy others, not realizing they have a different question paper”.

                        – Skeletons in her Closet, Serialsleeper 

       The song Forgiveness by Matthew West tells us an amazing story of what it really means to forgive. If we contemplate upon the lyrics, we could realize that forgiving is the hardest thing to do especially if it caused you pain that is too much to bear. It takes everything you have to say the word forgive. But if we just take a deep breath and hear what lies beneath our hearts, forgiving will be much easier. There`s nothing wrong with holding a grudge but what`s wrong is if you let that grudge take over your life. So as soon as you can, let go of the things that will be going to destroy you. Forgive. I know at first, we think that it`s impossible to forgive but let God be our light and everything will follow. Look into his mercy and you will definitely be amazed of how powerful forgiveness can be.        Have you ever met a person who seems to be so complex that it is difficult to fully understand him or her? One person that popped into my mind as soon as I read this question is myself. I always wonder why I oftentimes feel like I don`t know myself. I have a hard time controlling my well-being. Sometimes I even hate myself for being unreasonable. And I think the reason behind this complexity is because I keep things to myself and my mind is always whirring away. And maybe also because I am an idealistic person. I don`t usually share what`s inside me and maybe that`s the reason why it`s difficult for me to understand myself because I am full of thoughts and there`s no place for myself to process what`s inside me. I always get frustrated and stress out easily that I can no longer understand myself. It`s like being stuck in that momentum and can no longer find the balance.        My take away for today is to be more mindful with myself, avoid pressuring myself and learn to forgive myself. One should not underestimate a simple mental issue. And it should be part of our daily routine to be mindful with ourselves.  That`s the only way for us to develop a healthy mindset and experience what it really means to be happy.

      So much for that,  I love art. It is something that makes me feel alive and inspired. One thing that bothers me is that I am a very passionate person towards my studies but I don`t know why when it comes to self-care I can`t find the courage to do so. But I know someday I can manage to overcome this. Well, I discovered these characteristics of mine through experiencing different phases of life. Like when I am in a tough situation, it is where I can mostly discover different emotions and perspectives that I have never had before. I also get to know these from my family and friends. I like what I know about myself because it what made me “ME”. And I think that should be the mindset that we should put on, loving who we are.