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my body knows something that i don’t and i can’t get her to talk to me

practicing self care less out of self love and more for the sheer logical reasoning of it’d be kinda stupid of me to expect myself to be able to function without proper maintenance

“oh i don’t deserve rest and relaxation, i haven’t done enough, i haven’t earned it” and my car’s breaks don’t deserve break fluid because they aren’t breaking well enough to earn it. that’s what you sound like!!!!!

my biggest kink is someone checking in on me n noticing when m not myself

Latching onto every single character who shows any signs of mental illness is my favorite coping mechanism

It's not too late to suppress all of your wants and desires and to die unfulfilled and afraid without anyone ever having really known you.

hold on let me try to invent a version of myself who can get us out of this mess [holds really still for a minute and a half and then turns to you with a flat affect] we probably should have killed ourselves an hour ago

Someone needs to tell parents everywhere that a child never complaining is NOT a sign of a mentally healthy child, and it is, in fact, the complete opposite of that.

Sorry I started sobbing uncontrollably when you expressed the slightest concern for my lack of human connection, and casually mentioned you think I deserve better than a life of isolation and loneliness. Super weird. Not sure what was up with that lol. You still think I’m cool and mysterious and sexy, right?

currently listening to music, because killing myself would be wrong

The most basic, intractable fact about mental illnesses is that you simply cannot willpower your way out of them. The only exceptions to this rule are the ones I have, which continue to disable me due to lack of determination and other grave personal flaws

every 5 minutes i go wow i NEED to kill myself and then i ignore it because i have things to do

(english butler voice) Will you be making an attempt on your life this evening, sir?

ily people with delusions and/or psychosis. I'm glad you exist and I'm so proud of you for making it this far.

Realizing the depression is not seasonal is like: Wow! What a beautiful flower! The birds are singing! I sure do love spring! I think I am fundamentally unlovable as a person.