🍓🌈 !!

Realising your trauma affects you more than you thought it did is seriously trippy

I dated this guy for maybe two months after being in a weird situationship for 3 months prior. I was, and still am, extremely mentally unwell and I pushed myself to do things I didn’t want to do. I told myself i wanted things I didn’t want.I get it, I’m a kinky thing, but at the end of the day my consent matters. He’d grope me and I’d just pretend It wasn’t happening because what was i supposed to do? He was also aggressive as shit, so much so that he’d been kicked out of his house by his mum after sexually abusing his younger sister (my best and only friend). I broke up with him because I was sick of the constant fights, and the night I did it he send paragraphs and paragraphs of threats on how he’d rape and beat me. It’s been a while since then (3 months🤔), and I can’t do shit without intense paranoia that he’s stalking me- the bus to school? I have to check he’s not there before getting on. Walking home? An intense fear that he’s waiting in the bushes. When I’m at my best friends house, I have visible panic attacks when people arrive unannounced because I’m scared it’ll be him.

Anyway, this relates to tonight because I heard noises near my window, which can’t be opened from any way, but I was terrified regardless. For two minutes I laid in bed, begging for the noises to stop before I got up to see what it was. It was only my brother who was in the bathroom (next to my room) trying to unclog the sink, but I can’t get it out of my head. What if it was him? What could I have done?

No there cuz this is serious but wtf?? Just say you don’t understand what RadQueer is. There is a massive difference between supporting a zoophile (someone’s who happens to be attracted to animals but doesn’t act on their attraction), and a sex offender who rapes animals. A zoophile or pedophile or whatever cannot control their attraction, but they can control their actions.

Now, the difference between a pedophile and a Nazi SHOULD be clear, but obviously it isn’t to you ‘transnazis’- Nazis spread real world hate. They spread racism and bigotry, something Radqueers are against. You aren’t ‘transnazi’, you’re a genuine Nazi who is trying to find community in a place that doesn’t accept it. We are about spreading love and acceptance, but we do not accept your hate.

Stop hiding under the term radqueer. Go big or go home, right? Dont be a pussy, if you’re going to spread hate, do it without tearing down our community.