whyd i just accept that friend request ugghh. why do i do this to myself. im just gonna be miserable again probably...
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whyd i just accept that friend request ugghh. why do i do this to myself. im just gonna be miserable again probably...
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trying to figure out if its better for me to not get close to people again or if i just havent been close with someone in the first place
if i had many friends, would i feel less of a need to cling to just one? i think i try to get so close because im scared of being alone. if i can get someone to stay with me all the time, i dont have that risk?
im so so terrified of being alone and it keeps happening
we were fine but of course i had to GO AHEAD AND RUIN IT BECAUSE I CAN'T KEEP MY DISGUSTING MOUTH SHUT!!! AND I CAN'T THINK ABOUT ANYONE BUT ME!!! BECAUSE I'M SELFISH AND HORRIBLE!!! THEY WERE NOTHING BUT KIND TO ME AND I FUCKED IT UP!!! APPARENTLY I CAN'T HOLD ANY KIND OF RELATIONSHIP FOR MORE THAN 2 WEEKS WITHOUT ABSOLUTELY RUINING EVERYTHING!!! nlsjfnksbkjLBOJFBJNKDS
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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i think it's annoying and quite frankly polyamphobic that some people think polyamory is only for short term or not fully fleshed out relationships (ESPECIALLY if it's alongside one single long term relationship).
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i am polyamorous. i have five active long term relationships (two dyads, one quad; two relationships for over a year and one coming up on a year). i don't actively seek relationships, i allow them to come naturally.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀polyamorous people are capable of MULTIPLE active emotionally-involved long term relationships.
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I love people expressing themselves, and I love microlabels. But idk how to feel about sapiosexual people.
Mostly because idk what smart entails. IQ isn't a measurement of how intelligent someone is, it is a diagnostic test to narrow down criteria for disorders and developmental disabilities.
Whether someone is intelligent or not is an opinion that varies person to person.
It also creates more problems when people who have chronic illnesses, mental, cognitive, intellectual, that have symptoms that are more severe some days than others.
Idk, I guess I'm just interested in learning how it works. It seems kinda snobby and potentially ableist from the outside, but again, Idk how it is portrayed inside the community of Sapiosexuals.
oh yeah no overthinking is my favorite, why do you think i do it so often?
do i seek sex because i actually want it or do i seek it to curb my even bigger craving: actual connection
i dont even know what i want more, friends or a partner. or even a couple? i dont fucking know. i just wanna feel cared about i think. im so scared of being alone.
i lost 3 connections just in the past month. 2 of them werent even particularly close but. im so scared of losing more people. i dont have many friends and i dont know what id do if i had none
maybe im overthinking more than usual because im still winding down from Big Event (the musical from the other week) and ive had more socialization than ever since then. itd been so long since i had conversed with someone for over a couple hours, i missed it so much but now my brain constantly wants it
i sound so needy. maybe im just an attention whore. idk. im going to bed and im gonna hope i can sleep
i think im lowk going manic oops... i wanna post like 50 times hahahahahaha ;-;;; Apologies for any erratic weird behavior aaaaaaau
I tend to comment and post a lot when I'm manic and say autistic things 😭
Rant TW medication talk, quitting, not working, etc
