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One angle of ableism people haven't considered is the fact it's expected for caregivers to go way beyond their limits to care for us and be fine with it, not complain, not experience burnout, not end up severely depressed or worse.

Like, do you want your caregivers to end up with problems that disable them? Because that's how they end up with problems that disable them.

No "buts" here. It's the reality. Stop expecting caregivers to be perfect. IT IS ABLEIST and dehumanizing.

This doesn't mean caregivers get a free pass to be assholes and neglect who they're caring for btw I fucking SEE you 🫵, grab someone that can take up the tasks for a bit and take a break before you hurt someone.

#ableism

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A tip for anyone that "hates kids because they're noisy" I recommend noise cancelling headphones.

Other benefits include normalizing headphone wear in public. You'll help those of us with disabilities not be picked on over headphones because it'll be normalized.

Back in the day it was very common to wear them because people listened to music that way.

Help us make it normal again ♡

#kids #helpful tips

panicatthecriscodisco

Saying this as someone who's mom is nurse, NEVER FUCKING REUSE NEEDLES

This isn't just for HRT, this is for general medicine that requires needles for use, insulin, allergy medication, ANYTHING!

It's basic fucking medical safety to NOT reuse needles. All hospitals, clinics, and pharmacies dispose of all needles after use for a fucking reason, people!!

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#absolutely #so many deadly diseases and viruses are possible when you reuse needles #including HIV!!!

panicatthecriscodisco

This has nothing to do with any discourse here, but I believe in putting cream on your body, not because of de aging but because it helps to more evenly hydrate it (+it smells and feels nice)

i am eyeing a cantaloupe scented lotion as we speak. put cream on your bodies folks

zhenya-grey

Unless you are a HUGE oil maker (me) obviously we aren't common but you don't wanna make it worse with moisturizers if you have this issue. Mainly some intersex people have this, but other folks can too.

If you break out in acne, rashes or other kinds of itchy no matter what one you use (to rule out allergic reactions) it's a good idea to not.

Most social medias algorithms are designed to push sad, depressive, angering etc material at you the moment you touch literally anything and you have to actively force positive stuff into the algorithm.

This has caused deaths/suicides already and someone's family is suing meta/tiktok for it because of exactly this

https://www.reuters.com/business/media-telecom/italian-mother-takes-meta-tiktok-after-daughters-death-2026-06-17/

So please try to keep your algos positive the best you can and I know it's hard. I suggest just not being in social media in general and pull friends into other methods of chat but I obviously can't make you do anything

I love y'all /friendly

#psa #social media #tw suicide

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brightlotusmoon

My wise girlfriend @zhenya-grey to me:

"*points at you* that monkey got anxiety and depression because even though she was treated well by parents she did not have a good time the whole time in school and especially highschool and college. People have been mean to her, and parents can only fill in so much. On top of this, she is disabled, and hardships from that as well as ableism from others can make depression and anxiety worse. And I will beat the mcfreakin shit out of the next person that decides you had a perfect life just because your parents are good."

zhenya-grey

And grabs and appreciates this and you as well and Now I go to sleep. *Hug kiss cuddle* I love you.

Was laying here waiting for sleep to get me when my mind decided to grab memories of fellow kids writing rap lyrics and practicing beats on the table with their hands and pencils while rapping together in class.

I miss it tbh...

Also sometimes they would do beats they try to copy from songs they've listened to. One would do a beat and the others would recognize the song it belonged to and rate it. That was always fun to participate in.

#childhood memories #I will go back to waiting on sleep

zhenya-grey

•Electric Flames•

I am everything you want to be

You dared to take that for yourself

Only to fall before me the way everyone else did...

When they wrong me.

Yeah it's umm. It's Kech but make it Jean Flavored™

I think I like it. Because, it's just, original. Like Kech was and still is. But it's me. It's all me. In the end, it's all still me. The hair is based on fiber optics.

fire/ice, dark/light. Controlled Chaos... a force of nature, a force of metal.

zhenya-grey

I still like this one, even if I never ended up using it.

I'm still trying to figure out my new sona so I may still use the lines and do something with it. Hmm

I really like doing bear trap style teeth. Definitely keeping that

I'm a bit (or maybe a lot) inconsistent in my art and that can't really be helped but I do like how it subtly shows how much my disabilities affect my art and when.

#disabled artist

It's actually pretty funny how much I know about movies and shows and I don't...really watch anything at all.

I'm definitely no Professional Things Watcher when it comes to the knowledge but yeah

#movies #tv shows

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aomitois

rb and tag your favorite song that's not in english, japanese or korean

fishtank-thinktank

Ooh this is my time to shine! I’m also going to are not fully in English!

Ikiaqqik(Levitating)-Riit-Inuktitut

Eh las bas-i’m not actually sure who sung this version they don’t say-so there’s a Louisiana a French and a Louisiana Creole version of this song and I’m pretty sure this is the Louisiana Creole version. I specifically sought out to find the creole version of it! If this is Louisiana Creole, it’s going to be the NOLa dialect of it. Here’s a version of it by the preservation hall jazz band, showing off the Louisiana French New Orleans dialect version of it! Here’s another creole version of it, by Lizzie miles

Tassez-vous de d’là-Dehors November-Quebec French

Dans l’bois-Édith Butler-Quebec French

Bon Rêve-Steve Riley and the Mamou Playboys-Louisiana French, most likely be Acadian dialect

La danse de mardi Graz-Steve Riley and the Mamou Playboys-Louisiana French Acadian dialect

La Wagine- La Bottine Souriante-Quebec French

6. MI’KMAQ REEL-Anthony Mooney Francis-technically no language because it’s a real but this is coming from the Mi’kmaq culture!

Tit galop pour Mamou-The Balfa brothers-Louisiana French Acadian dialect

Batailleur-Jordan Thibodeaux et les Rôdailleurs-Louisiana French Acadian dialect

Blues Reconnaissant-Jordan Thibodeaux et les Rôdailleurs-Louisiana French Acadian dialect

One step de Rôdailleur--Jordan Thibodeaux et les Rôdailleurs-Louisiana French Acadian dialect, there’s also a possibility that this is in a different dialect and I just didn’t realize it

Netukulimk-Morgan Toney-mainly English, but also feature Mi’kmawi’simk

Ko’jua-Morgan Toney-Mi’kmawi’simk. An additional fact! The song features lyrics from the song Wapikatji’j which was performed regularly by Sarah Denny who was Mi’kmaq elder from Eskasoni who dedicated her life to the preservation of the Mi’kmaw language, culture, and dance

I’ko-Sarah Denny-Mi’kmawi’simk

Pishno Akkia-John DePriest-Chahta

Ljubi se istok i zapad-Plavi Orkestar-Serbian-Croat

Playa no mo-Tha Tribe/Tha Tribe Pow-Wow Group-English, but I cannot leave this song out

Baianá-Barbatuques-Brazilian Portuguese

Baião Destemperado-Barbatuques-Brazilian Portuguese

Magalenha-The Sergio Mendes Band-Brazilian Portuguese

Você Chegou-Barbatuques-Brazilian Portuguese you also might be wondering to yourself where the fuck do I recognize this song from and I must tell you that this is the Brazilian Portuguese version of that really popular song from Rio!

Opelousas Sostan-Rufus Jagneaux-Louisiana French upper Prairie dialect with definitely a mix of Acadian in there I’m not exactly sure

Nanga-Orchestre Baka Gbiné-i’m going to know exactly what this is in fucking rock and a lot of stuff by Orchestre Baka Gbiné is absolutely beautiful to listen to!

Bonsoir Moreau-Lisa LeBlanc featuring Salebarbes-Acadian French

Whakaeke-Te Maurea Whiritoi-te reo Māori

Whakawātea-Te Maurea Whiritoi-te reo Māori

Poi-Te Maurea Whiritoi-te reo Māori

Toia Mai-Te Maurea Whiritoi-te reo Māori

Matushka Ultrafunk-Satirin-either Russian or Ukrainian I’m not sure which one

Run it up-humankind-technically it’s all in English, but the music video and song is so good that I just have to feature it!

Pate-La Cuit-Moise Viator-Louisiana French, but I’m not exactly sure on the dialect

Le vieux mazerolle-Hert Leblanc-I’m not sure exactly which type of Canadian French this is I’m not sure if it’s Quebec or if it’s Acadian, I understand it a lot better than I do typically Quebec French so I’m leaning on Acadian but that is by no means a reliable metric for judging which type of French is being spoken?

You’re just an old song-Big River Cree

Varrii ompi zaijuvesj-Värttinä-Karelian, but most of this song is unfinished. The title of the song is in Karelian

Au diable les avocats-Les Charbonniers de l’enfer-one of the situations that I’m not sure if it’s Quebec French or Acadian

The Two step-Mexican Zydeco Band-Mexican Spanish, Louisiana French, American English

Ça plane pour moi- Plastic Bertrand-Belgian French??? I don’t think this is Flemish, although I’m not 100% its Belgian French, either

Sur la montagne du loup-La Bottine Souriante-Quebec French

Marie Caissie-Ode à l’Acadie-Acadian French

Ei suomalaiset tanssi-Haloo Helsinki-Finnish

Кискисмяумяу - Артем Кей - Russian

Minä muistan ikuisesti- Sattuma-either Finnish or Karelian

Tshun-Tshuru-Ru-from the album music of Karelo-Finnish SSR -either Finnish or Karelian

Hilu Hilu-from the album music of Karelo-Finnish SSR -either Finnish or Karelian

Karjalan poikia-Värttinä-either Finnish or Karelian

Siihen laihii eläny-Karelian

OK, that’s it for now but here are some amazing international songs for you to listen to and I even have more if you’re interested!

zhenya-grey

matushka ultrafunk is Russian yes, this is the original (for op as well)

fire-fira

I'm just gonna drop this here:

brightlotusmoon

zhenya-grey

Okay what music mention made this thing labeled mature or was it me existing again

#because I'm a trans woman. if you know you know

brightlotusmoon

zhenya-grey

He's shrimp maxxing

🍤 🦐

myirlnameiscloud

Something that really bothers me as an intersex transmasculine person who was rmab is how often people try to act like I'm transfem or that I'll eventually be transfem or that I'd be better off transfem or that I'm transfem in denial. I am not transfeminine!! I am actively transitioning away from femininity, but people really like to ignore that because of the bullshit arbitrary sex I was assigned.

Links to posts with examples:

[link 1] - I was asked whether I was TME or TMA. To be clear, I fucking hate that terminology and find it generally shitty. But like, why would they ask an open trans man whether they were TME or TMA unless they thought there was a chance I was actually transfem.

[link 2] - I was asked why I'm transmasc instead of transfem when I have a penis. The answer is because I'm intersex and that has made my experience more complicated, but clearly there's some disappointment in the fact that I'm transitioning towards masculinity instead of femininity.

[link 3] - An asker was saying that you can't be transmasc if you were amab/rmab/camab, without even understanding what rmab and camab mean. They have never been in my shoes and do not know my experiences as a transmasculine person. If I'm trans, and as they said, "not born female," then I should be transitioning to female, right?

And there's about a million more irl examples of this.

I'm never allowed to just be transmasc. I have the potential to be transfem, and wouldn't that just be so much better? Sometimes people hear "trans person with a penis" and instantly think "transfem," and it shows.

#meanwhile I'm not allowed to be a trans woman according to the gender police for the opposite reasons #people need to get more comfortable with intersex trans people

panicatthecriscodisco

One of the things I feel like I don't see discussed enough by the ISFF crowd is injection safety. I see them preaching DIY HRT a lot (not because I want to, I cannot escape it because Tumblr keeps recommending posts even when I block them), and my thoughts on the dangers of DIYing your hormones aside, I am SO sick and tired of seeing their crew saying that it's totally safe to reuse needles!! It's not!!! You should NEVER reuse needles, regardless of the economic impact to you. That is dangerous both because of the damage to the needle, and the risk of infection to you. Needles are disposable for a reason, and you should absolutely be consulting with a doctor on the proper procedure to give yourself injectables, NOT some random on the internet who says it's safe to use the same needle 3-5 times

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like holy SHIT

DO NOT EVER RESUSE NEEDLES.

even when i was desperately stretching my own HRT and supplies, I WENT TO MY PHARMACY AND ASKED FOR SYRINGES AND NEEDLES. most places especially if they are a harm reduction site will do EVERYTHING in their power to make sure you don't reuse sharps and needles.

if you are going to DIY (at your own risk as it is!) at the very very very least always make sure your implements are clean and disinfected.

dirty needles = dead girls, every single time. do not let survivorship biased DIY'ers convince you that you will be fine.

zhenya-grey

Reusing needles severely dulls them even after first use, causing them to be dangerous regardless which means the survivorship biased DIY'ers are LUCKY.

I did voice training since I was very young, and I have a convincingly feminine voice now as a result, and I can't Guy Voice™ on purpose anymore. So it sometimes comes out when I laugh or rarely, when I yell.

I feel "oh shit sorry" every time it happens x.x especially because it's scared people. Sigh.

#dysphoria #voice training

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Part of growing is having to delete old comments I've made when I didn't know better, and having to emphasize to constant repliers that I don't think that way anymore over and over and over and-

Frustrating but I'll live

#growth

Because of the.... everything... And idk if I'll successfully get more feminized by my hormones, I'm trying to accept my masculine features. I *want* to accept it. But.... I'm just not masculine as my identity and I struggle with this. I don't WANT to be masculine. Ugh...

I'll figure it out.

#dysphoria #vent

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