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you are white before you are trans and i feel like some of y'all forget that

#slams this down on my blog. I may make it my pinned for a while

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Back in the day, "pos" meant "piece of shit" so when I see "/pos" at the end of a sentence I just. Yeah. Lmao I am sorry.

I'm already bad at acronyms so tone tags need to be spelled out the whole way or I'll get confused.

It gets worse if I'm not doing well.

Don't call people like me "transandrosis".

I'm not a trans man, I'm not a transmasc, I'm not a "male sister" I'm a TRANS WOMAN.

My support of transmasculine people does not mean my identity is fake. Jackass

transandrobro and transandrosis were made by people who call us "transandrophobia truthers" and some people have reclaimed them for themselves and that's cool but not me. These same people like to revoke your identity when they disagree with you.

Don't use it on me.

(I prefer the term transmisandry but I'm aware the other is more popular)

#transmisogyny #transmysogyny #transandrophobia #transmisandry

material-possessions

Kat Blaque made this amazing video and I highly recommend you watch it.

Description: “When a library in Boston, MA decided to hold a menstruation education event called "Trans Period Pride", idiots on the internet attacked transgender women, resulting in the event being shut down. Ironically, they actually demonstrated the exact reason why such events exist in the first place.”

I can't believe this needs to be said but

Not all intersex people identify as queer/LGBT.

Respect them too, please.

Honestly yeah, and they want to claim our terms and our identities and our hardships and.

I wish it was just a small amount of people doing this but it's spreading. Because people didn't take it seriously.

lostaeonofthepleroma

Agreed. Feels like that one handshake meme. "Being Black 🤝 Being intersex: people will appropriate and misuse your terms, culture, etc., but won't stand in solidarity with you when things get tough."

Like, I remember seeing people say stuff all the way back in the 2000s/2010s about calling themselves "intersex" or even the h-slur because of the hormones they were taking, or even worse, they called themselves that thinking we somehow had it easier. 🙄 Frustrating.

I wish it was a small vocal minority, too, but even the majority won't call out blatant intersexism.

And don't forget f**a!!! white queers steal that one from intersex Japanese/Asian people (I can't remember if it was just Japanese so feel free to correct me)

Also 🤝 as an Arab. If I have to see "inshallah" (InshaaAllah, in shaa Allah, the video covers what goes where and what it means) being used incorrectly one more time by non Muslims I'm gonna SCREAM

lostaeonofthepleroma

That term, oh my god! It's literally Japanese for "two halfs/two parts", not "transgender woman". It's basically "h*rm*phrodite" in English, but I don't see white queers using "sh*m*le" for themselves, despite that being an actual slur against trans women. Not saying that they should, of course, but stop using "f******i" to describe yourselves while also throwing intersex people under the bus. 🙄

Thanks for the video, btw. I didn't know it was spelled wrong when I see it being used around and have written it out like that before. I'm not Arab afaik, but I was raised Muslim, so you'd think I'd know better. I will keep that in mind, too!

Some trans women won't even let other trans women use femboy so that's where we are rn. It's ridiculous.

And no prob! I'm glad I can help

lostaeonofthepleroma

Ikr? I've seen some of those posts, too about femboy being a slur that no one should use, and sure, that's fine. Don't say it, say it to refer to yourself... Whatever... but it's so weird to see that discourse, and then see perisex trans women call themselves 「二形」(f*****"i) "Let's not use femboy, because that's a slur, but we can use the Japanese slur instead." Like, what's the logic there???

Idk. It just makes me super uncomfortable to see people casually dropping the f-slur in those circles due to being called that by racist, orientalist guys who were interested in my body, race, and variation when I was younger. (I hung around a lot of weeaboos and social outcasts growing up on the internet. I found out what 二形 meant before intersex lol. Not even my own family said that.)

But yeah, it's dire out here.

Whew, I'm sorry you went through that. I had a chaser stalker on me as well, that I have scars from. I totally understand.

Bigots make no sense, and they never will.

And yes to anyone reading, you can be a minority and be a bigot, you can be bigoted to your own group too.

lostaeonofthepleroma

Thank you, and I'm so sorry that you went through something similar.

And, preach! The amount of people I see on here (and IRL) saying that they can't be bigots because they're gay, Black, trans, etc, is staggering. It's so infuriating. We all have blind spots, and we need to listen and learn from each other instead of speaking over each other.

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creatingblackcharacters

I'm sorry but "reluctant slave owner" just shot to the top of my list of most ridiculously laughably racist shit I've ever heard. Reluctant slave owners. As if someone just... HAS to have slaves. Can always depend on a white Anne Rice fan to act like this

creatingblackcharacters

I'm SORRY I know I'm beating you and starving you and splitting your families apart and feeding your babies to alligators and maybe even sending dogs after any of you that try to escape such harrowing conditions it just HAUNTS MY SOUL the things I simply MUST DO to you!!! Don't you know that this causes me DEPRESSION?? Won't anyone think of my REGRETS??

creatingblackcharacters

In case you don't know who this character is. Forgot a lot of y'all probably didn't watch this movie.

#think of the abusers think of the murderers those poor rapists 🥺🥺🥺🥺 (how people sound defending slave owners)

hunterinabrowncoat

not even two years after the 2024 racist riots and attempted pogroms, we are back to more racist riots and attempted pogroms.

a mosque in scotland had to be put into lockdown. they are going door-to-door with hit lists and addresses in northern ireland, setting houses alight. they firebombed an imam's house in manchester. people of colour are being targeted and attacked by racist mobs in the street in broad daylight.

and instead of widespread condemnation or wall-to-wall coverage, the UK media and political establishment is filling air time talking about the "legitimate concerns" people have about "illegal migrants"

#one day people will realize racism doesn't just exist in USA nor did it start there #(not at op)

genuinely saw people on tiktok debating whether its more attractive for women to have short or long arse cracks and what clothes suit which arse crack length. we lost the plot a million years ago and this has all been one long nightmare

WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHORT OR LONG ASS CRACKS???? THERE'S DIFFERENCE?????? I mean aside from just, having a big or small butt? What???

People who are assholes online are assholes IRL.

People who are bigots online are bigots IRL.

Never forget that.

"well nobody is really mean like this IRL where I am" because if they were they'd likely get attacked or something so they say it online and work behind the scenes where you don't see it.

You can't "it's just online nobody is actually being hurt by this" your way out of it.

Folks on sites like 4chan and kiwifarms and others who do harm hope you think people only act this way online so they can keep getting away with it.

Friendly reminder that alot of these people can vote and other stuff that systemically tries to control or kill us.

rainyloreinfinity

Raising great points as always. We appreciate you, Zhenya.

Aw thank you 🥺

My problem is connecting to people incorrectly.

If you meant it casual, if you didn't mean forever, if you didn't want to make it something serious, tell me that, don't make me believe I found someone I can live my life with.

If people weren't FUCKING LIARS I probably wouldn't be so upset about it.

#relationship #vent

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You should be able to listen to a full album without looking at your phone. You should be able to watch a 3 hour film from beginning to end without checking social media. If you can't do this, you need to start training your attention span as if it were a physical muscle. I don't experience boredom or restlessness because I've trained my brain to not be dependent on quick stimuli and dopamine hits. If you can't chill on a park bench while waiting for a friend with just your imagination to keep you company, you need to learn how to do it ASAP because one day we may not have access to the internet.

you trained to do that. Very nice. I keep getting told it's impossible to never be bored.

As a person who started off never being bored...

I fear boredom is learned. You can learn not to be.

@brightlotusmoon @boyslit pointing at you two aggressively 🫵

brightlotusmoon

I have been training myself to not be bored, although I'm not sure I've ever truly been bored.

I actually asked my roommates how boredom felt to her, and while she was explaining I realized that I couldn't really relate, because my inner mind just constantly creates things for me to play with.

I don't have to really think or create things to play with, I can just sit there idle like my mind's screen is off.

Needing constant stimuli means you do get bored, because if you didn't do that with your mind, you'll experience it.

brightlotusmoon

Aha, I see! Taking notes. It's interesting that only in the last couple of years I've been able to just sit and let my mind idle.

Doing it while sober will be the ultimate test. I recommend practicing it that way for best results, because being high allows easier mind idling

brightlotusmoon

You know, I have found that I've done it without any meds, like within the last year. That is fascinating to me. All by myself. Although I swear I get a screen saver of colors.

That's kinda how I feel when I idle, just, casual screensaver of colors. Not really any form of entertainment, just a mind visual of chilling out

I can't believe this needs to be said but

Not all intersex people identify as queer/LGBT.

Respect them too, please.

Honestly yeah, and they want to claim our terms and our identities and our hardships and.

I wish it was just a small amount of people doing this but it's spreading. Because people didn't take it seriously.

lostaeonofthepleroma

Agreed. Feels like that one handshake meme. "Being Black 🤝 Being intersex: people will appropriate and misuse your terms, culture, etc., but won't stand in solidarity with you when things get tough."

Like, I remember seeing people say stuff all the way back in the 2000s/2010s about calling themselves "intersex" or even the h-slur because of the hormones they were taking, or even worse, they called themselves that thinking we somehow had it easier. 🙄 Frustrating.

I wish it was a small vocal minority, too, but even the majority won't call out blatant intersexism.

And don't forget f**a!!! white queers steal that one from intersex Japanese/Asian people (I can't remember if it was just Japanese so feel free to correct me)

Also 🤝 as an Arab. If I have to see "inshallah" (InshaaAllah, in shaa Allah, the video covers what goes where and what it means) being used incorrectly one more time by non Muslims I'm gonna SCREAM

lostaeonofthepleroma

That term, oh my god! It's literally Japanese for "two halfs/two parts", not "transgender woman". It's basically "h*rm*phrodite" in English, but I don't see white queers using "sh*m*le" for themselves, despite that being an actual slur against trans women. Not saying that they should, of course, but stop using "f******i" to describe yourselves while also throwing intersex people under the bus. 🙄

Thanks for the video, btw. I didn't know it was spelled wrong when I see it being used around and have written it out like that before. I'm not Arab afaik, but I was raised Muslim, so you'd think I'd know better. I will keep that in mind, too!

Some trans women won't even let other trans women use femboy so that's where we are rn. It's ridiculous.

And no prob! I'm glad I can help

lostaeonofthepleroma

Ikr? I've seen some of those posts, too about femboy being a slur that no one should use, and sure, that's fine. Don't say it, say it to refer to yourself... Whatever... but it's so weird to see that discourse, and then see perisex trans women call themselves 「二形」(f*****"i) "Let's not use femboy, because that's a slur, but we can use the Japanese slur instead." Like, what's the logic there???

Idk. It just makes me super uncomfortable to see people casually dropping the f-slur in those circles due to being called that by racist, orientalist guys who were interested in my body, race, and variation when I was younger. (I hung around a lot of weeaboos and social outcasts growing up on the internet. I found out what 二形 meant before intersex lol. Not even my own family said that.)

But yeah, it's dire out here.

Whew, I'm sorry you went through that. I had a chaser stalker on me as well, that I have scars from. I totally understand.

Bigots make no sense, and they never will.

And yes to anyone reading, you can be a minority and be a bigot, you can be bigoted to your own group too.

You should be able to listen to a full album without looking at your phone. You should be able to watch a 3 hour film from beginning to end without checking social media. If you can't do this, you need to start training your attention span as if it were a physical muscle. I don't experience boredom or restlessness because I've trained my brain to not be dependent on quick stimuli and dopamine hits. If you can't chill on a park bench while waiting for a friend with just your imagination to keep you company, you need to learn how to do it ASAP because one day we may not have access to the internet.

you trained to do that. Very nice. I keep getting told it's impossible to never be bored.

As a person who started off never being bored...

I fear boredom is learned. You can learn not to be.

@brightlotusmoon @boyslit pointing at you two aggressively 🫵

brightlotusmoon

I have been training myself to not be bored, although I'm not sure I've ever truly been bored.

I actually asked my roommates how boredom felt to her, and while she was explaining I realized that I couldn't really relate, because my inner mind just constantly creates things for me to play with.

I don't have to really think or create things to play with, I can just sit there idle like my mind's screen is off.

Needing constant stimuli means you do get bored, because if you didn't do that with your mind, you'll experience it.

brightlotusmoon

Aha, I see! Taking notes. It's interesting that only in the last couple of years I've been able to just sit and let my mind idle.

Doing it while sober will be the ultimate test. I recommend practicing it that way for best results, because being high allows easier mind idling

I can't believe this needs to be said but

Not all intersex people identify as queer/LGBT.

Respect them too, please.

Honestly yeah, and they want to claim our terms and our identities and our hardships and.

I wish it was just a small amount of people doing this but it's spreading. Because people didn't take it seriously.

lostaeonofthepleroma

Agreed. Feels like that one handshake meme. "Being Black 🤝 Being intersex: people will appropriate and misuse your terms, culture, etc., but won't stand in solidarity with you when things get tough."

Like, I remember seeing people say stuff all the way back in the 2000s/2010s about calling themselves "intersex" or even the h-slur because of the hormones they were taking, or even worse, they called themselves that thinking we somehow had it easier. 🙄 Frustrating.

I wish it was a small vocal minority, too, but even the majority won't call out blatant intersexism.

And don't forget f**a!!! white queers steal that one from intersex Japanese/Asian people (I can't remember if it was just Japanese so feel free to correct me)

Also 🤝 as an Arab. If I have to see "inshallah" (InshaaAllah, in shaa Allah, the video covers what goes where and what it means) being used incorrectly one more time by non Muslims I'm gonna SCREAM

lostaeonofthepleroma

That term, oh my god! It's literally Japanese for "two halfs/two parts", not "transgender woman". It's basically "h*rm*phrodite" in English, but I don't see white queers using "sh*m*le" for themselves, despite that being an actual slur against trans women. Not saying that they should, of course, but stop using "f******i" to describe yourselves while also throwing intersex people under the bus. 🙄

Thanks for the video, btw. I didn't know it was spelled wrong when I see it being used around and have written it out like that before. I'm not Arab afaik, but I was raised Muslim, so you'd think I'd know better. I will keep that in mind, too!

Some trans women won't even let other trans women use femboy so that's where we are rn. It's ridiculous.

And no prob! I'm glad I can help

You should be able to listen to a full album without looking at your phone. You should be able to watch a 3 hour film from beginning to end without checking social media. If you can't do this, you need to start training your attention span as if it were a physical muscle. I don't experience boredom or restlessness because I've trained my brain to not be dependent on quick stimuli and dopamine hits. If you can't chill on a park bench while waiting for a friend with just your imagination to keep you company, you need to learn how to do it ASAP because one day we may not have access to the internet.

you trained to do that. Very nice. I keep getting told it's impossible to never be bored.

As a person who started off never being bored...

I fear boredom is learned. You can learn not to be.

@brightlotusmoon @boyslit pointing at you two aggressively 🫵

brightlotusmoon

I have been training myself to not be bored, although I'm not sure I've ever truly been bored.

I actually asked my roommates how boredom felt to her, and while she was explaining I realized that I couldn't really relate, because my inner mind just constantly creates things for me to play with.

I don't have to really think or create things to play with, I can just sit there idle like my mind's screen is off.

Needing constant stimuli means you do get bored, because if you didn't do that with your mind, you'll experience it.

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Mom just sent me a gen x video and I watched it like "oh no not again" she's like "yeah I raise you like I was raised"

Me: aka not being there the same way your parents weren't there? Being raised by my great grandparents like you were because your parents wouldn't do it either? Just like me? Yeah I bet that made me gen x as fuck

(reblogs off because y'all are GENUINELY irritating about generational stereotyping)

#gen x #my age is millennial but my behavior is not

skitzskitzskitzskitz

ON MY MOMMANEMMMM🫣💟🦄🩷🍡

#THAT'S SO PRETTY I haven't seen style like this since I was a kid

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