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Are the same person

Not the same person

Several years later I'm a senior in high school. I became goth, dying my hair and dressing up. One night when I fell asleep and ended up in the white room again. I found myself wearing my favorite outfit, a white collared shirt and a black overcoat. I saw a child across the room from me. I realized the child was the younger me. The child asked me the same question I had asked years ago and I hesitated just like before. I had always wanted to live a normal life, not really having any high expectations for my future. Everything that felt like could be normal in my life would always somehow get derailed and it was always out of my control. Things like family struggles or the economy ruining any chances of college or affording my own place. I ended up giving up the idea of living a normal life, so I didn't really know how to answer the question. I ended up just telling the younger me the truth, that I never figured it out. I just try to make the most out of whatever happens and that's all there is to it. I figured I shouldn't tell younger me that last part. It's good to have hope for the future even if its not the one you want.

"In the middle of a "forcing party" where friends and I are forcing one another to do the things that we've been avoiding.

So far: [bullet list] A passport has been filed for; An inbox has been zero'd; A personal website has been created; & more.