i didn't realize this would be a problem when I posted this but some of you don't have the respect and admiration for an ancient wizard that I assumed would be more inherent and universal
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Iβve seen several people talking about how it makes them feel weird that Dog Years, a song that is explicitly about suicidal ideation, is something Halsey performs as a sexy song, and while thatβs completely fair, I personally think the performance style fits the song really well, even if itβs uncomfortable? (In fact, I think the discomfort is a purposeful, important element of the whole song)
Discussion of suicidal ideation and sex as a unenthusiastic performance below the cut
The first time I heard Dog Years I called it βevil petplayβ when explaining it to my friends because that imagery seems so deliberate. Halseyβs voice is getting all husky and low as they croon about what a good dog theyβve been and how they like a tight leash, and especially given their known love of/interest in kink, that takes your mind to a very specific and imo intentional place. But they turn it on its head β if theyβre going to be a dog, then theyβre an old, tired, weak, sickly one and they want to be put out of their misery and euthanized like you would any pet in that state, and that is very not sexy. Itβs a visceral image that can be quite upsetting and uncomfortable, all the more so when paired with the very sexually charged chorus. It makes that chorus feel like more of a reluctant performance β she doesnβt feel sexy, sheβs not in the mood, but itβs whatβs expected of her and so sheβs going along with it and hey, if sheβs a good girl maybe sheβll get lucky and theyβll put her down. βIβm not here, Iβm somewhere elseβ β theyβre going through the motions of the performance and playing along with whatβs expected of them but their heart is not in it, and they feel nothing towards it.
And I feel like that plays into the entire theme of The Great Impersonator as a whole? The whole idea of the expected performance and what that experience does to a person: going through the motions because youβre an entertainer and your job is to entertain and put on a show, but the whole time youβre in the darkest place youβve ever been both physically and mentally, so sick that you truly expect you arenβt going to survive it. But you still have to do the show, you still have to make it look good, you still have to be appealing to the crowd, and so you have to play the good girl who loves her tight leash because thatβs fun and sexy, and the rest of it is something you keep to yourself because people donβt want to hear about that.
I really like the staging of Dog Years on the FMLT tour for that reason. There is something so visceral about Halsey sitting in sexy leather lingerie while literally chained to the stage singing about how much they want someone to just kill them. Sure, itβs sexy, but she is stuck there performing for you, even as sheβs voicing some of the darkest thoughts a person can have about themselves. How does that make you feel? Is it hot? Are you enjoying it? Should you be? That just fits the vibe I get from that song so well.
Of course, I could be fully misreading and Halsey could have had completely different intentions for this song, but thatβs just how Iβve seen it?
dog years is about getting fucked, bound, beaten, and gagged by a sadist dom/domme of a God. And begging, pleading, with all your might that it will stop if you just behave. And if it doesnβt stop, at least just let me die. dog years is about being leashed to the stairwell, trapped in the house. Lighting up at the sound of the door knob jingling, hoping your Terrible Master has finally arrived home with a smile for the first time in years to ask you βwanna go for a ride in the caaaaaaar?!β but he doesnβt. He tightens the leash. youβve done everything right and youβve behaved yourself. Sat when told. Ignored the mailmen. Down girl. But it doesnβt matter. Youβre gonna waste away on the stairwell. Youβre gonna dream about the βfarmβ where youβve heard the other dogs get to go when their Owner God doesnβt want them anymore. The fun place. You donβt care if itβs a really just a bullet in the head. Your keeper is wicked and your body is oppressing you, you didnβt ask to be kept. You used to be the sort of person who would fuck and fight and kick to your death. But youβre going to meet it like a scared and submissive animal. Eat the chocolate from the hand of your killer and wag your tail. Youβre nothing.
People are so stupid about snakes. If there's a little black racer chilling outside just leave it alone, you don't have to kill it, it's probably dealing with all your pests for you, jesus christ
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"Punishment works!!!" We're drowning in three to four generations of people so pants-shittingly terrified of ever being wrong that half of everyone has constructed a worldview wherein they never even consider the possibility that they could be wrong and the other half behaves like one wrong move will make anything or anyone explode violently into a million irreperable pieces. I don't think it works guys
I know this might be a bold take but maybe teaching everyone from a young age that ever making a mistake will be met with unimaginable pain and misery doesn't actually encourage learning or correct behavior. If anything it creates a sense of terror so powerful it completely suffocates curiosity and exploration, thus leading to people knowing absolutely nothing but whatever is brought directly to them, which is a big problem in a world where information is so tightly controlled that a very small number of very powerful people basically have complete power over what people see and hear on a day-to-day basis when not actively seeking new and rigorously verified information from diverse and trustworthy sources.
if any of this sounds like you, start by looking up the definition of words you've heard and are pretty sure you know what they mean, but haven't actually double-checked for yourself. Just like, whenever it occurs to you. Great first step
This post goes out to the "we need to bring back bullying" crowd. Just because you aren't hitting someone physically doesn't mean you aren't being punitive. Maybe it isn't actually healthy to believe it's necessary to harass and humiliate anyone who makes you upset or uncomfortable. That sounds like a you problem actually.
Anyways, breaking the cycle of abuse starts with you and how you treat yourself. You have to give yourself grace and room for error or you'll never be able to cultivate a healthier mindset than your trauma left you with. It's not easy, but you have to trust yourself that whatever seems kinder than however you usually treat yourself is probably a good enough start.
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