🌻have a good day🌻

god zamn adding window ACs to the house this summer because of the multiple heatwaves and we dont have central air tripled our electric bill 😭 i zoinks!!!!ed and jeepers!!!!ed when i just opened the bill

really hard to see reality as anything but hell when i’m immunocompromised, disabled, autistic, AND uninsured with medical phobias. but this is my own selfish experience. so i put myself into other shoes. and every pair’s wearer is in their own nightmare with their own wounds and wails. only kind of reaffirming the hell thing. yes theres beauty yes theres joy but theres so much fucking suffering. samsara. cynical cycles. really really tired of the pain. i just lost a friend to suic1de two weeks ago. i dont want to put my family through what his family is going through. part of me wishes he stayed, part of me is jealous of him. im just a weak person with a low tolerance for discomfort, wading through marshes of discomfort day by day endlessly. but like. kermit the frog amiright

feeling very internally ableist. gotta remind myself it’s punk rock to live disabled in this world.