Tonight, I watched The Amazing Digital Circus: The Last Act at my local theater, and while I do have a lot of thoughts regarding it, I wanna take some time to talk about how this series has personally affected me and helped me navigate life as a whole. Don't worry: this post will not contain spoilers for TLA.
I recall seeing the first teaser on Goose's channel when it initially released and being immediately interested. I've been following her since her Undertale remixes days, so seeing her produce a full show with an entire team was exciting. While the first three episodes were good, the 4th one struck a chord with me. At the time, I was working a graveyard shift job. Working 10 hours a day, getting off at 4 in the morning, going to bed at a time most people get up for work, and waking up regularly at a PM time was awful to say the least. I felt like most of my life was being stripped for me because of my job, and on top of that, I was moving nowhere in the company alongside dealing with shitty clientele. The episode opened my eyes to how trapped I felt there, thus it inspired me to put in my 2 weeks, despite not having a job lined up. It was liberating to leave the job. I remember after I got off, I stayed at my apartment for a few hours before driving to the beach to watch the sunrise and reflect on my new beginnings.
Episode 5 was a gut punch. Yes, fans gave Ragatha a lot of shit for her actions in this episode, but I personally related to her a lot and can absolutely see where she was coming from. She was always one of my favorite characters, and this episode solidified her as my favorite. It's frustrating when all you want to do is help as many people as possible but you end up making things worse while not understanding what you did wrong. That need to help mutates into people pleasing, and you lose a part of yourself. There was a really good post that went more into detail about it that I highly recommend you read as well as a great follow up post. Kinger and Ragatha's chat about worrying people hate you and not being able to make everyone happy moved me to tears every time I watch it as, again, I have the same frustrations. I can be on the defensive at times and have irrational thoughts out of nowhere of people hating me for the most mundane reasons, and Kinger's advice has legit helped me deal with that issue. Coincidentally, a Kinger cosplayer shared similar wisdom with me, and we're good friends now.
Jax's crash out at the end of Episode 7 also gave me a sense of validation. It's frustrating when you have a bad hunch about sometime and people just dismiss your suspicions without question. When you turn out to be right, it's a very hollow feeling, and seeing how Jax reacts to being right all along made me feel seen, not to mention all the hell everyone went through because no one wanted to even entertain the idea of finally escaping being a ruse.
Without going into detail, TLA did make me cry at one point, and it did encourage me to reach out to people more often. I had a very good theater crowd, and I even ended up making some new friends afterwards. I've met some truly wonder people and made plenty of awesome memories because of this show,
If anyone who worked on the show happens to be reading this, I just want to thank you for creating a piece of art that has moved me and changed my life for the better. This silly little cartoon revolutionized my ability to tackle this wacky world of ours, and it has helped me grow a lot as a person.
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