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βOh thank goodness I donβt have THIS kind of trauma :)β
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Yeah my amnesia is βfunnyβ and βcuteβ until I forget to turn off the stove or forget to put on gloves when working with chemicals or or I ruin my roommates pan and have to take money out of my food budget, or I forget who I am or I forget who you are, or something worse that I could be forgetting. Itβs all funny.
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Here's some more things that are normal in DID/OSDD systems, and some weird myths, in no particular order
- Not realizing you're a system until later is normal (average age of system discovery is 18-21)
- It's rare for children to display distinct alters (not impossible, just a rare occurrence in a rare disorder (based on numbers, it's considered rare, yes), alters tend to form in mid-teens)
- Feeling as though you "created" an alter is normal (related to unconscious feelings of control over an uncontrollable situation, and/or tricking yourself into an explanation, also, if you have a need to be filled, the brain WILL provide)
- "mixed origin systems" are totally normal for DID/OSDD. I have a couple alters that could be considered "endogenic", but I'm really just... DID, with normal alters forming in normal ways
- Alters forming at any age/time is normal (you can form a brand new alter at fifty, after having undergone complete fusion, once the ability is there, it's always possible to split)
- Alters don't always appear immediately after a traumatic event (alters can take YEARS to come to front after forming, making it impossible to tie them to specific events unless THEY'RE aware of the connection)
- Alters can form from stress, not just trauma (and the brain is notoriously good at hiding how stressed you are from yourself)
- Comfort splits ARE normal in DID/OSDD
- The amnesia criteria in DID doesn't mean you need to experience amnesia day-to-day, you still have DID if you can't remember childhood events but have good communication now
- The dysfunction criteria is redundant and circular, where the symptoms themselves fulfill the criteria, and as per the DSM, doesn't imply any inherent need for treatment or distress-- so being happy, loving your system, feeling like your system helps you more than it hinders you, all normal (and good!) but still DID/OSDD
- OSDD 1a does not involve alters as they're known, but states or modes that influence you, and amnesia occurs during these periods of influence; OSDD 1b involves "emotional amnesia" only (which is just a stupid, fancy word for dissociation (an emotional disconnect from a memory) that doesn't actually exist in the medical world)
- You can have as many EPs and ANPs as you'd like. The majority of systems with OSDD feel as though the one ANP theory doesn't fit them, and there have recently been updates to theories to acknowledge this
- Integration is the lowering of dissociative barriers to allow for better communication between system members, and is absolutely necessary for functional multiplicity (fusion is the joining of two or more alters). These definitions come from the ISSTD, and it IS recognized by the ISSTD that integration and functional multiplicity are viable and attainable treatment goals. Keep this in mind when conversations about these topics come up-- if you can communicate clearly with alters, you're already well integrated. It's not scary, it's not bad, and no one can or will make you fuse.
- CPTSD, the basis of dissociative disorders and DID, presents very differently from PTSD -- mostly presenting as a negative view of the self and vigilance rather than the flashbacks and nightmares you'd see in PTSD (it's quite similar to BPD, but the view of the self is negative rather than unstable). If you resonate with some aspects of BPD and have a system, and you don't experience the "typical" presentation of PTSD, that's normal. That's CPTSD (complex PTSD, not chronic PTSD), maybe read up on it.
- You don't need to know your trauma to acknowledge that you have DID/OSDD, and no one should be pushing that you search for trauma. Who cares, move at your own pace, maybe you'll never figure it out, and that's perfectly fine. People who push others about their trauma will face my wrath.
- Trauma isn't an action, but a REACTION to an event. What traumatizes one person, may not have any effect on another person, and vice versa. This isn't about what might have happened to you, but how you felt about it. There is no Trauma Olympics, and people who play that way are ridiculous. Trauma reactions are personal and unique, and come from anything-- bullying, isolation and loneliness, abuse. And yes, other disorders can make you more susceptible to trauma reactions. Having autism or ADHD or BPD, EDs, psychosis, schizophrenia-- all of these create more opportunities for trauma reactions, and make someone more susceptible. That doesn't mean you're not trauma based. It doesn't mean those things caused your system. It means those things made it harder for you to navigate life and left you more susceptible to trauma. That's it.
- MADD is typically trauma based
There's so, so many more. Other DID/OSDD systems, feel free to add on, endogenic systems, ask if something is normal.
Things that donβt make you a bad person:
Displaying βscaryβ symptoms of mental illness
Being diagnosed with multiple disorders
Having one or various personality disorders
Being diagnosed with NPD, BPD, HPD, or ASPD
Having very low empathy, or no empathy
Having symptoms that cause anger, emptiness, or paranoia
Having triggers or βstrangeβ personal boundaries
Needing extra help or accommodations
Having intrusive thoughts about upsetting or scary topics
"If you had a disorder as serious as DID, we would notice."
You did notice, you just called it by a different name.
When you noticed us acting different, you called it
childish
standoffish
unpredictable
too sensitive
insensitive
dramatic
manipulative
intentionally being difficult
When you noticed our amnesia, you called it
irresponsible
flakey
forgetful
not listening
not trying
unreliable
lying
When you noticed us dissociating, you called it
spaciness
daydreaming
not paying attention
not caring
stonewalling
acting stupid on purpose
wasting time
being lazy
People love to say they care about people with mental illness, and then disbelieve anyone who has one because they've already passed judgement on them.

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[Text: This system loves their partner so much.]
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Here's my take on this DID system meme I saw, personalized with me and my alters! The first photo is edited/art by me. I used the second pic as a template.
Idk why I look like a vampire, I didn't go for that at all lmao I added sharp teeth cuz I really have them and my skin is grey by accident, but I'm too lazy to change it. I missed drawing my boys. I need more system templates.
There's more in the system, but they're dormant so I drew these fucks. The one in the back S is also dormant atm, but he used to be prominent in our lives so he got a spot in the drawing. The first two are always around though. -K
Original photo/credit goes to @/thebeesystemandmemes β¬οΈ
[Text: This system loves the moon and stars.]
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[Box 1 Text: If the alters of this system could have their own bodies, they would.
Box 2 Text: This alter wishes they could have their own body separate from the system.]
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Sorry I wasn't listening, the fuckers in my head won't shut up
Few of the artist affected by AI art thievery.
Posts by Jon Lam Art.
I see a lot of people make posts along the lines of "why use AI when you can pay an artist," but nobody really provides an alternative for those who got into AI generators specifically because they're broke and don't know how to draw, but still want visual representations of their OCs.
The answer is dollmakers and avatar games. Hero Forge, Picrew, Doll Divine. Make a free account on Second Life or IMVU and use their character creators. Download the Sims 4 now that the base game is free. You have a lot of options, and they make great reference images if you save up to commission an artist later on. They may be limited, but are they any more limited than the AI generation process?
AI art is bad because it's art theft, not because it "has no soul" or whatever. People aren't trying to shit on your fun just for shits and giggles, or because they're trying to be elitist; people are upset because the AI is pulling from stolen art and stolen photos.
I am personally not interested in debating whether AI art is "real art," because that's secondary to the theft required to make the AI work in the first place.
Me: *loudly talking about how weβre a system*
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my wife: so I heard that you and the little boy took a trip downtown today :)
me: yeah haha
my wife: you guys saw a marching band, huh?
me: uh
my wife: he said you got kind of intense about his future career