Girl over the ocean

It merges

And you can see the threads

You can see them in your stream

And you can filter them out

And you can add the new ones

Every step is in the right direction, unless you stay.

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I am afraid! So I stay.

And blame

And blame

And blame myself for weakness.

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[What a nice excuse to have.]

Shut up.

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I lost my fucking voice

Trying to please everybody

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And this is the loss that i grief and this is what i am angry about

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i lost my fucking voice

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i never learned to scream when i am reborn

and so i never die.

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i never trusted you.

my definition of truth was 'false to anything that's true for you'

and i was trying to stand my ground

in a corner, on a little island of land that hasn’t been shat on

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too busy protecting what’s left rather than discovering what’s mine

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they lied.

they lied.

they lied.

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and i am taking a victory dance

around what's left

because what truly mattered i saved

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the doubt.

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and i'm grateful to the little girl

who despite everything that's been told to her

preserved that faith in her own truth

whatever that was.

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I love you. The goal is never to stick to it. The goal is to realize what you’re worth love regardless. Not just “know it” (you know you’re a perfectionist too, how did that help?), but feel it.

You’re okay. Even if it doesn’t feel that way.