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UPDATE: 14/06/2026 01:43 UTC+7 | 2 days left $344 is still needed by 16/06 to cover my June essentials. The utilities, water, and internet portion has to be paid by the 16th. This is the part that cannot wait for later in the month. Give directly if possible. One-off support helps move the urgent bills before the deadline; recurring support helps stop the same cliff from rebuilding next month. Boosts help this reach people with capacity. Thank you, thank you

Some weeks it feels like none of this matters. That feeling is rational; it is a system working exactly as intended. This week’s mutual aid roundup listed twelve requests and eleven Palestinian campaigns that need movement. Just like me, they need help. I’m unsure if I have any reasons or justifications other than I just felt like doing it, I just felt like listing them all. Maybe because they’re there, maybe because some weeks are harder than the rest, maybe because I can and don’t need any reason or justification to do something within my capacity, or maybe because this is the only thing I can do to help them. We help not because we can, or because we want to, but because we must. If you can't or won't help me, then help them.

Some weeks it feels like none of this matters. That feeling is rational; it is a system working exactly as intended. This week’s mutual aid roundup listed twelve requests and eleven Palestinian campaigns that need movement. Just like me, they need help. I’m unsure if I have any reasons or justifications other than I just felt like doing it, I just felt like listing them all. Maybe because they’re there, maybe because some weeks are harder than the rest, maybe because I can and don’t need any reason or justification to do something within my capacity, or maybe because this is the only thing I can do to help them. We help not because we can, or because we want to, but because we must. If you can't or won't help me, then help them.

Currently fangirling over my very own Doctor Who x Yuri on Ice crossover fanfic from 2017. That girl can write stories, tf 🥹😍😭 The grammar errors are eclipsed by her storytelling skills. Such an immersive experience, it feels like watching a film in my mind. Her grammar sucked, but I love her for that; the absolute disrespect of this language committed by my 24-year-old self earns my respect and genuine appreciation.

I’ve listed mutual aid requests from last week’s checkpoint that still need urgent support: rent, food, medicine, utilities, and everything else that enables people to live with dignity. Please read through, support directly, share requests that still need movement, or boost this post far and wide so they can move beyond one feed and reach people who can help. #mutualaid #anarchism

Eid al-Adha is in a few days. Two years ago, I could afford a goat for qurban. I could even afford that along with therapy, meds, food, and bills. Now I don’t know if I’ll even be able to eat next week while also making sure I still have enough left for mutual aid. But I have a roof over my head and I’m smart and resourceful, so people keep telling me to be grateful, that I should stop being selfish and manipulative, and that I should stop begging. I 𝘢𝘮 grateful for the roof over my head, which I was able to pay the yearly rent for thanks to mutual aid. Poverty and disability don’t reflect my character or intelligence. How is something finite like money or usefulness a measure of someone’s morals and worth? It’s my finances and physical health that are experiencing bankruptcy and deterioration, not my morality or dignity. And clearly, they only measure productivity and someone's humanity and worth by profit, credit scores, net worth—and market demand, which ironically does want my skills and experiences, just not me as a whole person. I’m still productive. I am way more productive now than I ever was as a cog in a capitalist death machine. I’m just not useful or usable for corporations anymore. Perhaps those who keep telling me to be grateful and to stop being a beggar and a manipulative bitch can also contribute to mutual aid? How does the saying go? “Put your money where your mouth is”?

Measuring the worth of your contribution to liberation struggles based on impact is capitalistic. You won't see the end of it unless you realise the act of measuring worth based on output at all is the product of capitalism, the very rot that still colonises even your psyche. What matters is you did it.