Write Your Shadows.

1.01 // 2.01

She stopped once Alex told her to go relax and she got uto wlak to the living room. She rain a hand through her hair and then walked over to the couch, falling onto it and letting out a deep sigh of relaxation. She grabbed the remote and started changing the channels to find a good one she’d like, hearing Alex’s voice about her being in the living room. Once she saw Alex with her coffee, she took it from her and pulled her down a little just to kiss her lips as a thank you before relaxing again. "I found a show we both like: Batman: The Animated Series." She signed with an exciting smile on her face.

She had her eyes on the show the hold half hour but at the same time she was just enjoying the time with Kat. With her writing and Kat teaching Monday through Friday, they barely had any time together. So, this was very special to her. After the show ended, she leaned near Kat's ear and she lightly nibbled on it. "Relaxed yet, Bella?"

I’ve been trying! Like, I have pages and pages of this little notebook I have filled with just words and “feelings”, but none of them seem to really, truly describe how I feel and what I want to do by him, you know? Like, it doesn’t feel like there is any way I can put any amount of letters together to form something that would as meaningful as I’d hope— I suppose that’s just me being a perfectionist. Awe! That’s real nice. Haha, that’s true. I know he’d kill me if it got to just before our wedding and I realised the vows weren’t done and made it up on the spot.

Mm.. Maybe that's just it. Your love for him can't be formed into words. It's just by how you act and show your love for him, which there's nothing wrong with that. Maybe that's what you should say, or something like that. Yeah, ahaha, he would, he would.. Wouldn't want that for you.

Luckily I’m letting them watch a documentary the next three classes instead of turning things in.

It’s not so much that I don’t know what to say, because I actually have so much to say but when I try and get it written down on paper it just doesn’t feel like it’s good enough. Aw, that’s really sweet! When did you get married? We haven’t even got a date set, so I know I’m writing these really early but then I can just change it in the future and adapt it if need be.

Well I just say write how you feel even if it doesn't make sense, look over it, and try to make sure it says what you want it to say. Oh we've been married for two years since the 15 of September. Love every day with her.. Well better to write early than late! 

That’s a fair point. Haha, I really appreciate the offer but I think it’s considered cheating if I had someone help me with my vows.

Yeah.. Oh well if you say so. I know my wife, Kat, had to get help.. She was so stuck on what to say.. or rather have someone say for her, haha.. Best day of my life though, I'll have to say.

It does seem pretty boring, unless it was something you’re really interested in. Like, I think I could write a book on orcas and I’d love every minute of it. Not that I can write though, haha. I can talk and talk and talk but actually forming articulate sentences is pretty hard. I’m trying to write something really important at the moment and it’s not going anywhere.

Well that is true, but I don't like talking about writing that much.. and if I'm interested in anything else I just incorporate it in my fiction books. I give props to people who can write a lot of factual stuff. Oh really? Maybe I could help if you'd like.

What d’you write about, like, is it fictitious or factual stuff?

Mostly fiction. I did factual stuff once and I got deathly bored.