Reblabble Town

For Mira, she would only act out to gain the attention of her parents, since whenever she did good, they would either tell to either make sure she stays perfect, to be better, or they would just ignore her entirely. Because being perfect was what was expected of her. So acting out and be a “problem child” was her only way of getting them to notice her. Not in a good way, but at least they did. Of course, that probably resulted in some sort of punishment(be it mental or physical).

So the reason why Mira loved to bother Rumi was because she reacted, but not in the same way her parents would. Rumi would probably try to scold her and try to correct her but… that’s it. There would be no consequences. No comments about how she’s disappointed in her or a slap on the wrist. Just, flustered yelling. Rumi didn’t hurt her like her parents would.

With Rumi, maybe she felt the need to prove herself. Prove that she could be like her mother. Prove that she could fill the empty space that she left behind. Of course, while also proving that she was just as hardworking as everyone else, even if she’s considered a “nepo baby”.

When Mira came along, she would act out or make a rude comment, and nothing would happen to her. Sure, Celine would have a talk with her every now and then, but she never got any sort of punishment for what she did. That didn’t seem right. You had to be perfect in the eyes of the public. You couldn’t slack off or insult someone above you and get away with it. Rumi would try to tell Mira off but Celine would separate them, pull Rumi to the side, and tell her that Mira is struggling with something right now, and they need to give her time to adjust. It didn’t seem fair. Why would she help this girl, who’s so mean all the time? It’s all just… completely against everything she’s been told growing up.

(Then Zoey enters the chat and Rumira start to get their shit together because they cannot act up in front of a pretty girl this can’t be her first impression of them)

im just now realizing that Mira calling Rumi a nepo baby while probably coming from rich parents is definitely a form of internalized self hatred. Which doesn’t surprise me based on how her parents treated her. Really Rumi and Mira are two sides of the same coin, Miras parents hate her for everything shes not while Celine “hates” Rumi for everything she is.

Mira: Do we really have to meet this one at the airport? What if shes just a dud? 🙄

Rumi: Did you ever think Celine knows what shes doing?! Celine said shes skilled with the honmoon.

Mira: I don’t get why she gets the red carpet treatment. >:/

Rumi: Celine literally babied you for a month when she found you while I ran drills all day everyday.

Mira: 🙄

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Celine: Rumi, Mira, this is Zoey she is going to be our third hunter.

Zoey, rushes from Celine’s side to hug both of them: I'm so excited to meet both of you! I have so many ideas I need to share with you. They’re all in my notebooks! Which one should we start with "Demons are real and we are going to hunt them" or "We are going to be kpop stars this is the best day ever"?

Mira and Rumi are just staring at the beautiful half american, nearly blinded by her smile.

Zoey: Umm guys?

Mira, trying not to make her blushing obvious: "Demons are real and we are going to hunt them" sounds interesting.

Rumi, desperately ignoring the feeling of her patterns feeling hot on her skin for the first time in her life: Sure Zoey whichever you like more.

Zoey: This is going to be so much fun!

Zoey skips all the way to the car, her space bunce bouncing effortlessly with her.

Mira, looking at Rumi with a scowl: I swear to the honmoon Rumi if you mess this up

Rumi, scowling just as hard: Me?! You're the one who would-

Zoey, halfway in the car: You guys coming?

Mira and Rumi: We're coming!!

Bobby, who is still interviewing for the manager position whispering to Celine: Are they always like this?

What a pretty design, by Dakota_Doesnt_Know

Oneshot, 46k words, VERY dramatic, rumi jumps off the balcony, they manage to catch her, she immediately tries to yeet herself over the edge again. There are a lot of emotional conversations and the saja boys are very irrelevant.

Everything i wanted, by littlebluebelle

8k words, part of a series, rumi has made various attempts over the years. Some before she even met the girls.

My burning heart, by tigermoth_toebeans

11k words. Not technically a suicide attempt but. Zoey and Rumi are stranded in dangerous conditions and zoey might die. Rumi might be able to save her but only if she puts herself at great risk. She makes the obvious choice.

Years of senseless waiting, by @yanniest

37k words, again Rumo doesnt intend to kill herself but almost dies from an attempt to remove her patterns while they are all still training to be idols. It will be years before zoey and mira get an explanation for that.

Celine is still involved in the industry, in a more administrative role than when she was an idol, but she still has work friends and occasionally attends awards events. She always brings Rumi along, (because Celine may be a calm and collected badass about anything else, but when it comes to Rumi, she’s a total softie with separation anxiety).

Rumi adores going to grown up events with her Eomma. She loves picking out sparkly dresses and twirling in front of the mirror. She makes every person on Celine’s team call her Princess Rumi and demands Celine put her down so she can do a proper bow/curtsey before insisting she be carried to their next location because she’s royalty.

But as much as she enjoys showing off to the staff backstage, she likes the actual awards ceremonies even more. Usually a child wouldn’t be welcome at these events, but Rumi is the picture of politeness, sitting with her hands in her lap, oohing and ahhing over the attendees, judging every outfit as they step on stage. When she really likes a dress, she pulls on Celine’s sleeve and loudly whispers, “That’s a pretty one!” She stares at the elaborate hair and makeup, making mental notes of what she likes and doesn’t. When one of Celine’s old friends stops by to say hi after the event, Rumi is entranced by her long, intricate braid swishing around her hips and the way her lavender purple dress sparkles. She wonders if Celine also likes the specific shade of purple because when the woman reaches out and delicately grazes Celine’s arm, her Eomma turns bright red and suddenly declares that it’s way past Rumi’s bedtime.

On the way home, Rumi asks Celine why she wears pants instead a dress like all the other pretty ladies at the party. Celine shouldn’t be surprised that Rumi’s so observant and curious, but the question catches her off guard. She stills for a second and grasps the necklace with the aqua blue stone she always wears, the one Rumi has seen in old pictures of a woman Celine says is her real Eomma, before telling Rumi that sometimes, people are just more comfortable and feel more like themselves in different types of outfits. Rumi makes Celine promise to always let her wear pretty princess dresses for their two person dance parties they have in the kitchen after these events. Celine obviously agrees.

On the rare occasion that she interacts with other kids, usually the offspring of various idols, Rumi is entranced by their moms with their long, shiny black hair and delicate gold jewelry they wear on their hands. She comes home from play dates talking about how she wants to grow up to be just as beautiful and nice as so-and-so’s Eomma.

It isn’t until she shares this sentiment with other girls her age, who make fun of her and tell her how weird she is for gushing about their moms, that she realizes not everyone appreciates women the way she does. She also starts noticing that any time she shows Celine a new group of pretty, female idols, Celine’s eyes flash with something far away and bad, some emotion seven-year-old Rumi can’t quite put her finger on but thinks it means that what she’s doing is hurting her Eomma.

Her patterns, once regulated to a small spot under her right collarbone, begin to spread. She knows it’s connected to her being half-demon like Celine’s always explained, but maybe it’s also because there’s something else deep inside her that was made wrong.

She starts spending less time dancing in pretty dresses and more time training in athletic wear, convincing Celine to spar with her despite her small stature. She’s good at this, at taking all her emotions she’s not supposed to have in her little body and using them to fight bad guys, to fight the bad things in her that seem to never totally go away. Rumi figures maybe she wasn’t made for soft things like love, but rather as a weapon to be used during times of struggle and war.

The next time Celine invites her to a work event, Rumi turns it down, saying she doesn’t feel like giving up time she could be practicing her flips in their home gym instead.

It continues like this until Rumi is trading anything that makes her happy for anything that makes her feel strong and safe and secure. She thinks that maybe one day, she’ll meet the other trainees Celine has told her about and get to turn the Honmoon gold. Maybe, if she can turn the Honmoon gold, her patterns, and all the confusing, smoldering feelings she’s tucked away for the past decade will fade too.

When Rumi meets Mira and Zoey, she’s enchanted by them, by the way Mira’s long legs move with such precision and grace, by the way she can see Zoey’s tongue moving at the speed of light every time she raps.

The Animals - House of the Rising Sun (1964)

Silver Jews - New Orleans (1994)

Trespasser was trying to not have a HUD, so the way you checked your health in-game was to look down at your character's breasts:

It's a super-ambitious action-adventure with a physics & AI system years ahead of what was coming out at the time. It's super influential, sold about 5 copies, was completely impossible to play at launch, and it was created by the guy who designed the Xbox and the writer of Deus Ex & Dishonored. It's been cited as inspiration for Half Life 2, Halo, Far Cry, Doom 3, Octodad, and Surgeon Simulator. It was widely considered The Worst Game Of 1998 when it came out.

It's also a Jurassic Park tie-in that doesn't bother mentioning that in the name!