If anyone would like to know exactly what winstons thoughts were when he saw Julia for the first time, I can give it to you. He saw her wearing a chasity belt (signifying that she had never had sex before) and he saw her as something to be defiled. One glance at her and he was so angry that he “could never have her” and that she would never give him the time of day because he was an old and ugly man. (She does give him the time of day later so he was mad over nothing). He is so mad that she is better and purer than he is (in his own words) that he describes exactly how he wants to rape and murder her. He describes in detail how he wants to strip her down, tie her to a pole, fill her full of arrows, rape her, and at the moment of his climax, slit her throat.