Danger Notes Challenge: 9/?
Enjoy as I challenge myself to stretch my writing muscles by writing for at least five minutes nonstop under threat of starting the fic over
Fic 9: Even more matchablossom
âI shouldnât have said that,â
Kojiro turned white as a sheet.
âYouâre engaged to the crown prince. An entire peace treaty hinges on your wedding,â Kojiro stepped back towards the door. âForget I said it,â
The door closed behind Kojiro. Left with his own thoughts, Kaoru put his hand to his cheeks, trying to hide the color covering his face. For the first time, Kaoru was utterly lost.
His whole life had been chosen for him by his royal family. They had unofficially picked his fiancée when they were both children. That was fine with him. After all, it was Adam they had picked. Adam, who was always the most exciting part of going to a ball. Adam, who always knew how to make Kaoru laugh. Adam, whom he fell for before he knew it.
In the Shindo castle though, he could not have felt more underprepared or out of place. Trying to talk to Adam about his concerns just led to him changing the subject every time. The work as a diplomat just got harder and harder. He felt himself slipping away, lost in never ending meetings and paperwork. Stuck playing the role of the perfect fiancée, lest the peace treaty come under threat.
It seemed like the only time he was able to relax was back in his room, alone. The only place where he could ignore propriety and act as himself. Maybe he could have with Adam, but as of right now, they were unmarried and not allowed to share a room. They hadnât had a proper conversation since Kaoru came to the castle, and his pleas for another fell on deaf ears.
Kaoru found only ally he had in the castle was Kojiro. The Shindo family had allowed him to pick a chef to come with, as they didnât want him to be without the comforts of home. Kojiro was more than prepared for the challenge, as the Nanjo family had served the royal family for ages, and he had been trained in early to run the kitchens one day. He was practically the only person his own age Kaoru had around him growing up. The two butted heads over and over again because of it.
But somewhere along the line, Kojiro became the first person Kaoru told about most things. Kojiroâs input became the opinion he listened to the closest. Despite warnings to stay away, Kaoru kept finding himself at the kitchens time and time again. He desperately wanted to follow Kojiro into the kitchens again. He had no appetite in recent months, only eating the bare minimum to avoid scrutiny at meetings and the dinner table.
Kojiro was the only one who noticed.
Kaoruâs parents never noticed when he secretly kept doing calligraphy. They never noticed that he always cleaned his plate when they served carbonara. They only noticed when his posture was wrong, or if he spoke too informally. He had hoped Adam would pay more attention than that. Clearly he was wrong.
But Kojiro was always there, making sure his food was always good, and that he never went hungry. For as long as Kaoru could remember, Kojiro was the only person he believed truly cared about him. The Adam he knew ended up being a lie, after all.
And it turns out Kaoru was not prepared for why Kojiro had cared so much when Kaoru kept refusing meals.
Because I love you, dumbass.
It all made sense now. Why he had learned to cook all of Kaoruâs favorites, why he snuck in calligraphy supplies for him, why heâd sneak over to Kaoruâs room after hours so often. Why he decided not to leave the castle when his family offered him the choice to stay or not.
And Kaoru had been oblivious to it all. The heat of embarrassment refused to dissipate. Maybe Kojiro was right. Forgetting that had happened would make things easier. He could go on to the wedding as planned, and finally get to share the life he wanted with the man he loved. But there were two truths in front of Kaoru: One, Kojiro cared for him far more than Adam ever could. And two, nothing would stop Kaoru from chasing after Kojiro, whatever the circumstances.
Having finally gathered his thoughts, Kaoru was done pretending. He rushed to the kitchens.
After receiving many strange looks from the kitchen staff, he was pointed in the direction of Kojiroâs living quarters. He could only hope to apologize later for startling them, but this could not wait. Taking a deep breath to compose himself, he knocked on Kojiroâs door. He was greeted by silence followed by a light flicking off in the room.
âI know youâre in there, Kojiro. We need to talk,â
âYouâre the one person who will listen to me anymore. Please, I canât just go back to my room like this,â his voice choked up. âI just canât,â
Light once again came from behind the door, and a moment later, Kojiro hesitantly opened the door ajar, his gaze averted.
âI told you to forget it, itâs okay,â
âPlease, you know what would happen if-â
âIâm well aware, Kojiro,â
âClearly not! Do you not think it was already a noticeable scene when I left your chambers earlier? You following me back here just makes it look more suspicious,â Kojiro turned toward his room. âGo. Just⊠go,â
âI canât. No, I wonât,â
Kojiro stayed standing in the doorway.
âThis castle is somehow more suffocating and irritating than back at home, and itâs only getting worse. Not even the kitchens can catch a break. Iâm surprised you can still cook under these circumstances,â
âWell, if thereâs one thing I can still do under these circumstances, it is cooking,â Kojiro folded his arms.
âI brought you here not just because I thought youâd be honored by the chance to learn from the chefs and cuisine here, but because I wanted you here. I wasnât prepared for this place whatsoever, I couldnât go it alone. I didnât expect this place to put you under the same pressure,â
The chef shook his head. âNo, I am still learning a lot here, and yeah they demand a lot, but Iâm doing what I want to do. I came because I wanted to, not just cause you asked,â
âIâve never trusted Adam. I wasnât about to wait and see what he did once you two were at this castle and married,â
âThe crown prince, and your fiancĂ©e. And there will be no more peace if that changes. So Iâll leave,â
Kojiro sighed. âPeople talk, Kaoru. I canât deny avoid treason charges if I dismiss myself before word spreads,â
Because I love you, dumbass.
âThe other chefs know how to make most of your favorites by now, so donât worry, Iâll be fine back home,â
âThatâs not what Iâm worried about, dumbass,â
âThen why are you here?â
âWhat you said earlier⊠you were serious werenât you? I canât forget something like that,â
âIt doesnât have to change anything,â
âBut youâre having to leave now because of it! That hardly seems fair,â
âI learned what I was hoping to here, Iâm not worried-â
âKojiro, you being here made me realize something important,â
âLook at me, Kojiro,â
The two finally locked eyes.
âI actually dread living in this castle for the rest of my life,â
Kojiroâs mouth snapped shut.
âI probably would be in worse shape now if you werenât here with me. Youâre the only one who noticed,â
âIâm sure Adam did, he just never-â
âNo he fucking didnât and you know it. None of them did,â Kaoru took a breath. âIf Iâm being honest, as much as it hurts to admit after wanting it for so long I⊠I donât think I can marry Adam,â
âI really will get nailed for treason-â
âLet me be clear, I realized this a while back, now. Once I settled in as a diplomat, it didnât take long,â
âSo youâre saying, that even if I hadnât come with,â
âThat I probably wouldnât have been able to marry Adam then, either, or if I did, I think I would just waste away here,â
âSo, what are you gonna do now, then?â
âYouâre serious,â Kojiro sighed. âHow do you think it will look if the two of us runaway together? We wonât make it halfway back to the castle,â
âWhat if we didnât try to go back to the castle?â
Kojiro raised an eyebrow.
âFaced with the prospect of either getting stuck married to Adam forever or running away with you, the latter is an easy choice,â
A blush fell on Kojiroâs cheeks. âKaoru, you-â
âI thought I knew what love was, and I thought thatâs what I felt for Adam. Itâs clear to me now that wasnât the case. And⊠I canât imagine never being allowed to see you again. It would be too painful,â Kaoruâs voice got quiet, hsi eyes pleading. âKojiro, please, let me come with you,â
âSo you really wanna be branded a traitor, huh,â
Kaoru spun around, heart pounding, to be greeted by a familiar shock of blue hair.
âPray tell, what is the meaning of this?â
âAdam,â Kaoru carefully regained his composure. âNice of you to finally talk to me for once,â
âCut the formality. Explain yourselves. Now,â
âWhat I discuss with my best friend is no business of yours,â
âHah, best friend, so thatâs what youâre calling it,â
âWhat do you mean by that?â
âLike I never noticed how you longingly looked towards the kitchens when you thought nobody was watching,â Adam took a step forward. âIâm here to secure the peace treaty, no matter what it takes,â
âAnd thatâs all that matters to you? After all this time?â Kaoru clenched his fist.
âThis engagement was arranged for that purpose, to secure the kingdom. What other purpose need it serve?â
âI could have been happy, with you,â Kaoru started slowly. âMaybe in another life, I would be a more adept diplomat, I would find this place to be a second home, and I would be content to spend my time with you when a hard dayâs work was done,â he looked Adam square in the eye. âBut I see now that was just a dream,â
âYouâd want for nothing in this castle! Youâd be married to a crown prince! Such an opportunity, just to get thrown down the drain for this⊠peasant,â Adam spat.
âWho I keep company with is my business, Adam. Get to your point already,â
Adam snapped his fingers. Guards filled the hallways from both directions. âGuards, these are the traitors I informed you about. Detain them immediately!â
Kaoru froze, but luckily Kojiro had not. Before he knew it, he was pulled Kojiroâs room, and the man was desperately trying to keep the door shut. The two locked eyes while the banging on the door intensified. Kaoru anxiously began looking around the room, and caught sight of Kojiroâs window.
âYou canât be serious,â
Kojiro shook with the force hitting the door, his gaze unwavering. Kaoru hated that look. It meant Kojiro was right. He averted his gaze.
âMy chefâs knife, itâs in the top drawer of my dresser. Take it with you,â
âSoldiers are surrounding this room on all sides as we speak. Take it and go,â
Kaoru crossed his arms. He reluctantly went over to the dresser, pausing for a moment as he picked up the knife. âIâll come back for you. Be here when I do, got it?â
With a tear rolling down his face, Kaoru looked at Kojiro one last time. âIâm sorry,â
In a flutter of curtains, he was gone.