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“What is it, Tanrak? Huh? The rosary I lent you. Kongdech returned it to me. I think he must be suspicious about us. Calm down. It's nothing. What if he tells Father? You think he'd tell Father? Barth, we're screwed. It's just a rosary. People can borrow those, right? Right? It's nothing. Just let it go for now. Okay?”

And for him to be cool with La Virgen while hating everything else about Catholicism.

This scene is the turning point for Tanrak.

He's ready to end the relationship and choose the "path of God” then they meet in front of the saint to whom Tanrak's mother was devoted, the saint that gave her the gift of his parents love, Tanrak himself, a love so strong they named him after it

Barth tries to argue for his love beyond religion; his love is strong enough to overcome everything, and he wants Tanrak to say that his is too. In a final appeal, he affirms that God created us to love, therefore, their love cannot be wrong, and it's at this moment that I think Tanrak makes his decision.

i'm not god's favorite son... i'm not god's favorite son either.

“Were you waiting for me? No. Hey, wait. When you said you were wavering, is that all it is? Well, how could I feel anything more than that, Barth? Can’t you just let it happen? Let it go even further? Barth. You know what? When I’m near you, I can’t control myself. But are you happy? Yeah. Barth. Barth. Barth. Why are you calling me so loud? I’m right here. I’m not going anywhere. Thank you.”

And then he is just angry and defeated. And he has made peace with it. He is ready for that. He is ready to go to live in the church and quietly suffer and be alone and be an outsider

But then. Then he is given a fucking miracle. He meets a boy and he is sweet, and full of light but also full of a quiet sadness and he is kind to him and he believes him and he becomes a friend and then he becomes more and he kisses him back and smiles at him...