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Message to Inner Child... ❤️‍🩹

I apologize if you felt that you needed to be flawless to be accepted. It shouldn't have been necessary to earn love.

I apologize for teaching you to keep quiet to maintain harmony. You were worthy of being heard fearlessly.

I'm sorry that you felt invisible when you needed someone to see you. Your desires and emotions were worthy of being acknowledged.

I now realize that your body and mind, those protective parts, intervened because they felt compelled to. They protected you in every way possible, held onto tension, and guarded your heart. I appreciate everything they did to keep you safe.

I sincerely apologize for reinforcing your shame in the process of trying to fix you. Like the adults around you, I can now see all the ways that I abandoned you. You were never damaged. You were always complete and worthy of affection.

As I turn to face you, I would like to tell you... I am incredibly proud of you for surviving, finding light amid darkness, and persevering when it seemed impossible. I swear to check in with you, listen, and show you the love you've always earned from now on. Now you're safe with me.

There someone out there that been smiling on the outside but burning on the inside. 

There someone out there that been sure to make those who mean the world to them smile, when their heart barely cracked a smile….

There is someone who holds emotions in, just to keep up an image that they got shit together. 

There someone who still has anger but tries to channel peace.

There someone who tries to be perfect knowing they can’t be. 

There someone who wishes the pain will subside….

There someone battling between spiraling and giving up. 

There someone who is a victim to unhealed pain but continues to play the suspect…

There someone for something

There someone in something 

What if I told you that someone was me?

Endurance Beyond the Edge

Unfinished Business...

F*** I'm going to miss this mouth.

F*** I'm going to miss this mouth.

"Hold on stop," she said as she pulled the face up and looked into the deep dark-browed eyes.

"You not mad no more...."

"Letting you breathe doesn't mean I'm not mad at you, it just means I don't actually want you to pass out. That messy" she said with a smile of pleasure across her face.

"I don't know how many times I have to say it? I do actually care about you. But forget it, get your thick ass on the bed...

"No! Face up! I wanna be able to watch you scream".

The temperature in the room starts to build up, if they were not already hot they were about to get hotter.

"I'm not down for no fourplay, I need to suck that p****.... one last time I need to suck the soul from that p****"

"And every time that you think about me that p**** gone get wet, now open your f***ing legs".

The kisses against the inner thighs moved into the centerfold of the p**** as the tongue divided the lips. It was moist enough to slurp the clit just to start.

"Mhmm don't run, don't run. I miss you baby".

"Damn, I'm going miss this p****".

This is supposed to be the last time, between the two, but not only was the sex good, but also the vibe was impeccable. The thing about it was it was too hard to be together, yet the best high when they were together.

"You done squirting for me? Cause it's time for me to head out. Seeing you wanted to end things I don't wanna be too caught up. We can go back to just being cordial and I will act like I don't miss you as much as you gone miss me" she said before getting dressed.

"Wait let's do this again...."

"Do what again?"

"This relationship thing!"

"I'm good, my p**** is saying yes as much as my heart is. I really don't want this to end she said as she grabbed the throat. She knew that was the weakness of the heart and it won every time".

You can be my everything, but for now, we have unfinished business.

WHAT IF?

What if I gave you my full attention while giving you a massage?

What would happen if I put communication and comprehension first?

Would it encourage you to consider getting married?

What if, with a simple tongue flick, I devoured every part of your body just the way you liked?

What if all I focused on was how much I loved you?

Dinner by candlelight, rose petals... the kind that is romantic.

Would it make you feel more in love if we discussed your aspirations and goals?

Do you become quickly enraged at things that don't feel right?

Do you become emotionally aloof after a disagreement?

Do you just wind up missing after saying f*** what we were building?

Before sending the message, do you stop and smile at it?

If I told my friends about you, would it make you happy?

I’m sorry, I ask random s*** when I notice my time being consumed.

Never Underestimate....

1. The power of....Peace: It can make and break a relationship.

2. The power of... Growth: No two people will enter a relationship in the same mental, emotional & spiritual maturity spaces in life. Somebody will have to catch up to the other and only then can perfect harmony be established. 

3. The power of... Stillness: Being mentally, emotionally & spiritually still in an active world will allow you to see all the bullshit moving around you.

4. The power of... Direction: Knowing you have chosen a path in life allows for a more natural flow to go with. See that path until the end of it. Good or bad all journeys come to an end. Take all the lessons for your growth and go a new way (Change). The only path that should never end Is “Mastering Self” to voluntarily end that path is suicide and never kill yourself.

5. The power of... Decision Making: Knowing when to make a move and when to be still. But a life without purposeful decisions is a lost life.

6. The power of... Patience: Never start too late or soon and never end too soon or late. Patience Is Timing!

7. The power of... Thinking: There is no such thing as overthinking your understanding. Think More!

8. The power of...Truth: Never lie to yourself because your energy (Another Power) will always tell the world your truth. You Cannot Control Your Energy!

9. The power of... Self-Awareness: Become aware of your subconscious, it controls you more than you do yourself. 

Some are sworn in to protect us, while others are sworn in to eliminate us...

Life...

On the outside is still there. 

Life on the inside shivers as it will no longer live. 

Body shivers as cold phases peel through the skin. 

Absent minded.

Absent finding. 

Decision made hurt but even the innocent die young. 

Road To Recovery

#LoveMeWhileIExist

To be centred in a room full of space, but surrounded by chaos is quite an unfiltered plate. 

How can you feel so much chaos in an empty room?

Simple...

The white walls become you’re coloring book where you're able to plaster all your thoughts onto the wall...

All in different colors, all in different sizes...

But from the looks of it, it’s a travel map. 

Going...

From the pain to the happiness

From the happiness to the defeat

From the moment you overtook the truth with the understanding, you’re weak. It all makes more sense now that the room is filled...

Yet! You would rather run from what it’s for your own selfish digestions, rather than accept the love and satisfaction owed to you.

Goals...

UN- KNOWN!

Everything is everything until everything is nothing then you really figure out what everything else is.

You ever try to understand?

This thing...

This... life thing...

It’s workings.... the pain it causes.....

How it forces you to either heal or turn to ashes.

Do you ever try to understand?

This thing keeps moving...

The ants keep working...

The wind keeps blowing...

Things don’t stop for you... EVER...

You take the time to recover yourself and in doing that you’re also taking time away from something else...

Then you heal.... and NOW you’re behind...

Then you catch up... and it REPEATS.

Merciless time. Remember you’re merciless yourself.

You and death have a powerful relationship but it will never give you the chance to say goodbye.

So be honest and transparent while you’re here. Don’t be afraid to show or speak your RAW truth.

Live in your moment...

Cause everything is everything until everything is nothing...

God Over Everything

Be content with what you have means to be in a state of satisfaction. 

In order for one to continue to be grateful and thankful for GOD’s blessings that they have received, they can’t get caught up in looking at the things that cause distraction, even the blessings of others; that’s how jealousy & envy creeps in. 

While we continue to live on this current land, remembering the key concept is “securing the blessings” over everything. If anything outside of God is able to control you, then whoever controls the distraction is able to control you too. 

The scriptures say that “by longing for it, many have wandered away from the faith.” If your heart is bent on pursuing deception, then all the enemy has to do is place the deception far away from God and you’ll follow it into darkness.

Life On The Outside

Is still there...

Balancing Thyself

Set Sail ⚓

“Part 2: The Six W’s & The Big H”

WHAT

What the point in feeling when you have to second guess them?

What the point of loving and caring for someone if you got to start second-guessing?

What’s the point of the late nights staying up and missing out on sleep?

Feel like it’s just a lot of emotions that you can’t handle nor avoid, it’s like going to ride the wave and not expecting ah high tide. 

It’s like the second you breathe it’s the moments that exhale along with it. 

Let’s clear all the truth and watch the show, it’s a different motion, you’re floating… they’re floating…