tiny blonde rocket woman

“of course i will.”

“i don’t just mean tonight.”

carla says "i know you did it for me" and lisa thinks "yes. and you have no idea. you have no idea of the full extent of what i've done. for you. you have no idea the lengths i would go to, to protect you. to keep you safe. to keep you alive. you have no idea of the things i'm capable of when it comes to you. you have no idea right now. but you will. soon. you've seen me broken grieving drunk guilt-ridden suicidal. you think you've seen me at my worst. not yet. you'll see me dragged away by my colleagues. you'll see how i lied. how i manipulated. how i put you in danger when all i wanted was to keep you safe. you'll see my colleagues turn on me you'll see my daughter hate me. you'll see the lengths i went to you'll see the disregard i had for my own job my own integrity my own body my own life. you'll see me guilty. you'll see me for who i am for the mess i've created the mess i've always been."

"You're gonna be here when I get back, aren't you?" "Yeah. Yeah, of course I will. It's gonna be alright, you know?" "Is it?" "Yeah, I promise." "I love you." "I love you."