WhatNowHaya

Another session of Quasar

This was last Tuesday and I'm documenting it because " Archie" ( the medic orc with the revoked medical licence) took his revenge from this peacekeeper human🙂‍↕️ he needled his face so hard it caused his face to pull from his skull and then he cut his 10 fingers. This is all because this bastar** laid his hands on my orc.😇

It's just, I forgot the feeling of being " nervous"? " Unsure"? " Questioning if this was an impulsive decision".

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July 18th, 2025

قبل أسبوع تقريبا حضرت تجربة اجتماعية عنا هون بعمان، اسمها الانطباعات الأولى.

قعدونا بمجموعات صغيرة و صرنا نجاوب مجموعة من الاسئلة و نوعا ما عن طريقها ضربنا صحبة حبينا نكملها بجروب على الواتس آب.

و ضلينا نتعرف أكتر على بعض عن طريق طرح المزيد من الأىسئلة او المواضيع. و اليوم كان الموضوع...

Yes, it's been years since you've used Tumblr and this place has seen your darkest days more than any place else, but you've grown so much and even if you don't see it and if your brain starts to compare you to others, think of little Haya and what would she think of everything you did, and since she has always been different, she'll understand how much you flourished over the years.

You literally achieved her dream! I mean how many can say, "umm, well, now what?" And this is because you did it! You did the things you wanted as a kid, so, for real, now what?

You're 29, yes your age is getting serious BUT do you feel that you're getting older? And I'm not talking physical wise, I mean do you, Haya, feel like you lived 29 years here? If so, then yeah, you should know what now; but if you still feel like you still have things to experience then maybe just do that, and be careful, know what you want to experience, cause time doesn't wait for no one.

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Please don't compare yourself, each have their journey.

Each have their interests in life.

Everyone is simply, different.

I know you know what the world wants you to do, and I know you don't like it. And I beg you please be gentle and stand strong to what you want.

I know you think you don't know what you want but keep praying for that thing you're scared to say out loud. Say it to Allah.

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Note to self.

July 13th, 2025

And I'm back!

Social Experiment If you’re looking for an outside-the-box social activity here in Amman, you have to check out @fai.community Instagram Page This was my second event with them, and I have to say—their choice of themes and wording always wins me over. From speed friending to this time’s first impression activity, you can’t help but get excited for whatever creative idea they come up with…

40 minutes or so from Amman My experience and review at La Cueva, aqua park This was my very first aqua park experience at the age of 29🤭 Let’s talk about the park in general and final thoughts. It had 3 main areas, The adrenaline one; Some of them were fun but others you would feel every bump 😅 and some definitely needed an adult to play. cleanliness 7/10; it did have a smell tbh😅 that…

If humans had taglines, what would yours be? How life would be if each walked around with a short phrase describing them, or the person I’m about to interact with. “deal with care”, “I’m shy at first”, ” it’s just my rbf”, ” I swear, it you not me!”. Hmm, would’ve saved so much time and avoided some awkwardness… I think to save you time, ( not that you have much use of it) mine would be…

Do you have any collections? Well if I have a group accumulated through the years of dried flowers, rocks, tiny bottles, and water caps? Then yes, I have a good collection now. If having filled paged journals of my “darker” times, or my “healing process”? Then yes I do have a collection. The never shared thoughts, poems, notes, stories, sayings, playlists? Then yes, I do. I’m a 28 year old…

What is the legacy you want to leave behind? It’s such an interesting question, tbh. I did think about it before, what do I want ppl to remember about me. When Haya is all passed and gone, and if one does remember Haya, like when she passes in their memory, what will they remember, what will they see or feel? I won’t lie, not all get to see all my sides, I even shared her on different…