Kinich x reader but he has a huge crush on reader, and reader is too oblivious to know.
Which leads to Ajaw getting irritated at Kinich’s very subtle attempts to make you notice him. So he decides to step in and handle this situation himself.
On one random sunny morning in Natlan, you’re strolling through the stalls of the marketplace.
Only to be intercepted by Ajaw. Just Ajaw, no kinich or anyone. Which makes you all the more suspicious of Ajaw and his shenanigans.
“Ajaw? What are you doing here-“
“The great almighty dragon lord, K’uhul Ajaw, has taken time out of his day to meet you! Just to tell you a confession of a man who doesn’t have the balls to do it!”
Ajaw loudly announced in the streets, making heads turn and people stopping to watch. And all you can do is sigh and look at him in confusion.
“This lowly servant of mine, Kinich Malipo, apparently has taken a liking to you and wishes to court you! And for once I don’t have to berate him with insults because he actually chose a proper, suitable mate for him!”
“Ajaw!”
A familiar voice cut through the crowd, interrupting Ajaws embarrassing speech about him. Your head turns to the direction of the voice, which leads you to stand face to face with him. Kinich.
Except instead of his usual nonchalant composure; he looked down to the ground, avoiding eye contact with a huge blush on his face.
You couldn’t help but crack a smile. You slowly approached him before grabbing his hand and leading him somewhere out of the audience’s view.
Hence how you guys ended up dating, all because of his annoying “pet” K’uhul Ajaw.
Can Yall tell this is rushed, I had this in my drafts for like 4 months istg
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Heyyy, so how do u think the five wise commanders would act with a yandere partner? In a situation where they love their partner enough not to dare to leave them under ANY circumstances (including murder unless you feel uncomfortable writing it) but without approving their obsessive behavior
Assuming you’re married (IDC if they were minors at one point you guys are married.)
Author’s notes. I just found out what the inbox was so sorry this took long. I hope I wrote this well. I know yanderes have different fonts so I wasn’t sure how crazy you wanted them. I did whatever I thought was best. Reader may be a little OC to make it work with each character.
Spoiler Warning: First and second season
Senku Ishigami
You guys were together before the stone world. This was one of the many reasons he revived you. You were both smart and incredibly efficient. Who else would be a better asset for the kingdom of science?
When Senku was killed by Tsukasa no one questioned you following him. Even if he was dead everyone knew you were crazy for him. You’d grieve him and Tsukasa knew that you could never stay with him after he killed your beloved Senku.
Had Senku’s plan not worked you would have stopped at nothing for revenge which is why one of the first things Senku did was whisper in your ear telling you it was okay.
Senku definitely had to reassure you about Kohaku.
You were a poison specialist so he knew you wouldn’t get caught if you killed someone. No one else here knew much about chemistry except for Gen. Gen once asked Senku if you were trying to poison someone before Senku stopped you. Senku knowing he couldn’t lie replied to him saying. “Yeah she can be a little possessive.” He’d look at the sky with a found smile. “She’s also crazy. Definitely a red flag. But she super important for the kingdom of science. She’s 10 billion percent worth it.”
For the longest time he tried to keep his plan to marry Riri a secret. You ended up finding out the day it happened. Had he not prepared a romantic gift for you, he was sure both he and Riri would have died from carbon mono-monoxide poisoning in their sleep. He’s made sure to never leave you and Riri alone after that.
I think he tries his best to stop you from murder or harming anyone. He’s surprisingly good at convincing you.
Sometimes he might rile you up a bit so that you can channel your anger into helping him make stuff.
Gen Asagiri
Lowkey a little scared of you. He didn’t know what he was signing up for when he married you.
Convinced himself the pros of being with you is way bigger than the cons.
He’ll shiver whenever you get the look of murder in your eyes.
“Hahaha why don’t you guys excuse us for a moment. You know how relationships are. Sometimes you just want alone time with your lover.” He’ll excuse before grabbing your hand and taking you away. He’ll try really hard to make you happy so that you forget your anger.
I like to think he never directly addresses the fact that you’re crazy. He’ll mumble under his breath, yes but never directly say it.
He acts like he is only with you because he is scared to leave but in truth no one could pay him to divorce you.
He might mouth “Help me,” whenever you guys are about to be alone when he knows that you’re mad.
He might tell Senku that he hates how jealous you are but sometimes he purposely gets you in situations where he knows you’ll be jealous just because he secretly loves doing damage control.
If you guys are ever apart he’ll act like he is having the time of his life but everyone can see how much he misses you.
He’ll pretend he didn’t want to get off the boat to see you but the second it docks he’s allowing you to jump into his arms and whisking you off somewhere private.
He might exaggerate the details of what happened when you were gone. Make it sound like girls were all over him just so he can reassure you about how amazing you are.
If you do kill he will do his best to cover up your tracks but he’ll be sure to punish you for it by expressing his disappointment. He knows exactly how to get you feeling remorseful. Although he is usually able to stop you before you get to that step.
Ryusui Nanami
Everyone else had a partner and he wanted one too. He chose you a little on a whim. It didn’t really matter though. All women are beautiful to him.
He was a little shocked when he discovered your yandere tendencies. He definitely lectured you about it.
He made a deal with you saying he’ll give you a gift for every time you resist murder.
If you ever threaten him with a knife he won’t take you seriously at all. You love him too much. He knows that. You also can’t trap him. It’s impossible for you guys to survive on your own so living alone in the forest with him isn’t an option.
I think you stress him out but he wouldn’t leave. He never complains about you either.
Definitely confronts you whenever you do something crazy.
Does he hate your possessiveness and jealousy? Yes. Does he want to leave you? No. Maybe that makes him just as crazy.
Ukyo Saionji
He can deal with a girl who’s a bit possessive but he definitely can’t deal with murder.
He’s pretty good with emotions so he knows what makes you upset and what doesn’t. He’ll try to avoid upsetting you at all costs.
I think it’s a toxic relationship whenever you get out of control. He threatens to leave, you beg for him back, he agrees and it starts the cycle over again.
He isn’t sure why he doesn’t leave. He hates everything you stand for but gosh you look so pretty when you’re begging him to stay.
He can’t divorce you. He’s way too into the other aspects of you. He knows that you’re only doing this because you want him so bad. And in the very back of his mind there is a voice telling him he loves how much you want him.
Chrome
He’s never been in a relationship before so he thought your possessiveness was normal.
Even when someone tells him it’s not he shrugs. He doesn’t really mind.
He didn’t know how bad it was though until you killed somebody. He panicked really hard. He didn’t want you to get in trouble so he helped you get rid of the body.
When he finally calms down and everything settles in a day later he’s mad. Definitely a big argument, but leaving? Yeah leaving doesn’t even cross his mind.
Everyone has bad days and their struggles. Kohaku probably kills for her partner too.
If you tell him that you’re sorry he almost instantly forgives you.
He’s your number one defender if anything happens but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t get seriously upset when you do something.
🍓Waiting for shop to reset so I decided to rank and evaluate how some genshin men (my favorites, sorry i’m biased) deal with jealousy. Quick answer is: Not well, lol. May do the women next, if there is demand.
Venti: 4/10
Venti has very little reason to be jealous, in fact, he kind of enjoys when others come onto you. Finds it funny. Encourages it at times. Sure he is possessive, but that plays into it a bit. He lets it go for a little while, only to come in when the other party thinks they’ve really got a chance and squash them all at once. You will likely not be privy to his annoyance with the other person, because he plays it off so well. However, you can get him pissed off if you lean into the flirting just a bit. In that case, he’ll make it very known to both you and your companion just how taken you are. Best prepare for a long night, my friend :)
Varka: 1/10
Sorry if this disappoints, guy doesn’t care. Most carefree, hands off man in the world. Someone’s flirting with you? Good! You’re fantastic! Really, why wouldn’t he want to share your wonderful smile with the world. Besides, everyone knows you’re the grandmasters partner. Think of it like him showing off, he doesn’t mind it at all so long as you come home with him. Though, sometimes, you’ll hear him admit that it bothers him just a bit. He knows your loyalties, but it’s hard when he has to share your attention sometimes. Just kiss him, his tail will start wagging and he’ll forget why he was upset in the first place.
Lohen: 5/10
He’s a bit of an odd case. On one hand, he has no doubt in his mind that you could do any better than him (egotistical freak). On the other, what’s up with all the testing his boundaries, don’t these people know who you’re with? Kinda stupid if you ask him. I doubt he gets all that jealous often, just annoyed that people are taking up your time when they don’t need to be. It’s not hard for him to scare them off, of course, so he’d never have any reason to do much about it… but still… you’re not on the market. Does he need to tattoo it on your forehead? Maybe a ring would work instead…
Tartaglia/Childe: 7/10
Chalk it up to his lack of emotional maturity, he gets jealous pretty easy, and he makes it well known to you and your little friend. Walks up behind you and makes it very obvious you are an item. A duo. Two peas in a pod. You get it buddy? Go away?? Still, he’s… nice enough about it. There’s a level of decorum he has… a level. It’s best to just pull him away quickly, or else he’ll get a little mean, and we don’t need this dog (fox?) barking do we?
Zhongli: 4/10
It may surprise you to see him be anything over a 2, but I believe old man’s still got it. Of course, he’s fairly chill, and he’s not the type to worry about anything like that too much. But, he does know what a prize you are. You caught the eye of the lord of geo, that little mark on your wrist proves it, you’re special. Others most certainly will agree, so he has to be wary. When he does have to “confront” an issue… he does so, so smoothly, you and the other party hardly realize he’s moved the conversation to another topic. Gramps still got that smoothness.
Kazuha: 2/10
Are we surprised guys. Kazuha wouldn’t bat an eye to any stranger you’re talking to, only gets concerned if they seem aggressive. He’s a gentle soul, and he knows what your relationship is. You can hold your own, and you’ll say no if you need to. You’re not an object to covet, you’re a person. His person. So no need to worry about anything like that. Still… he’s a little more willing to step in than Varka if he feels someone is being too pushy. Checks on you subtly, and watches the interaction with a careful eye. Just in case.
Tighnari: 7/10
You absolutely have to hear me out on him I’m begging. He’s a fairly laid back person, I don’t think he gets jealous often and he doesn’t mind strangers being a little friendly with you or you back to them. However, why I put him so high, is when he does get jealous? He’s insufferable. Blame it on genetics or whatever, but when he gets that itch in the back of his skull, he has to scratch it. Very much a “I’m part of this conversation now and I’m going to remind you about ten times that this is my partner and they’re not interested oh did i tell you this i my partner yet?” kind of guy. Also a little more touchy than usual. It’s embarrassing as hell, but it’s just how he is. You smile and laugh it off, so it can’t be so bad in the end.
Cyno: 4/10
*Points behind me* This guy, amirite? Cyno is less jealous more naturally protective. He always eyes new people around you with caution until he’s sure they’re not a threat to your wellbeing. That being said, the flirting tends to just be dismissed as harmless in his eyes. So what if they’re interested, so was he. He made the move, they didn’t. …They better not. He’ll keep an eye on them just a little longer, to make sure… Yeah, you might have to get this guy to chill a little. He’s (mostly) harmless, but that endless glare freaks everyone around you out.
Kaveh: 10000000000/10
Hates sharing your attention so much, oh my god he’s pathetic. He doesn’t really have much to call his own, but you are his partner, therefore he gets to be a little jealous about the people who approach you. He’s not subtle, though he thinks he is. Sliding up against you, cuddling you into his side with a huffy little glare. It’s so funny, like an angry little rabbit. Don’t tease him, though, he won’t like that. (Alhaitham points it out every time he does it, and every single time it starts a “fight”)
Wriothesley: 6/10
He’s not outward with it, but he gets jealous pretty easily. As the person he is, he feels there are things he can’t provide you with. Sun, being the main one, but among other things. So, when he sees a relatively normal guy with a normal house and a normal job in the regular old city… he gets a little nervous. Of course, you’d never do that to him. But… well… he wouldn’t blame you for wanting a normal life. Just kind of watches the interacting with a patient stare, smiles at you when you’re done. He won’t mention it unless you notice, but he’s honest too. Figures it’s better you know than not. Give him a hug, won’t you…?
Neuvillette: 9/10
Doesn’t clock that he’s jealous, that bothers him more. Unnamed emotion he doesn’t understand haunting him like a goddamn ghost. He just knows he doesn’t like when the secretary touches your shoulder, or when the cafe owner speaks to you in such a soft affectionate voice. Never asserts himself either, just stands by and watches… wondering why he’s so… irritated by the sight. When he finally asks Wriothesley, it bothers him even more to know he is jealous. Jealous of what? You are already his. But, unfortunately, emotion doesn’t like his logic, so he stews in his jealousy quietly until your attention is back on him.
Ifa: 5/10
True Neutral. Does get jealous, doesn’t like to act on it. He’s got a good head on his shoulders, he’s not gonna cause a scene over a little friendliness. Again, he’s the type to sit on the side and watch with a passive expression. Waits for you to come back to him, then he’ll tell you he didn’t really like that person. If they keep you too long, he’ll make himself part of the conversation, but won’t do much else unless they’re touchy or pushy. Pretty relaxed and mature about it, all things considered.
Kinich: 1/10
I don’t think he thinks about it. I mean like, really. I don’t think he cares enough about the other person to really consider them a “threat” of any kind. He might recognize “Hey that’s a weird thing to say,” but if it doesn’t bother you it doesn’t bother him. Usually him just being there is enough to scare the other person off. His stare is intense when paired with his silence. Still, if they’re being too pushy, he’ll just bluntly ask what exactly they’re doing and why. Pretty effective for scaring the rest off.
Flins: 3/10
I think he would find “jealousy” a funny feeling, if he felt it much at all. Very much the type to stand to the side in bemusement of the offender. His eyes crinkle in this creepy way as he does, simply observing with delight as you give them nothing to work with. Of course, as anyone does, he doesn’t like seeing others flirt with you… but you can handle your own. And if you can’t? Don’t worry, Flins is more than able to spook any strangers from your side. All as long as you turn your pretty, praise filled smile his way.
Dottore: 9/10
Feels the jealousy, doesn’t like to acknowledge it. As I said before, I don’t believe he gets jealous all that often, because he genuinely believes he is the most superior partner for you… But when he does, he’s quite nasty about it. He’s never above underhanded tactics to get your other suitor away from you. He’ll play the long game, just to see how much hope he can give them before it’s squashed without a second thought. Very much will limit your “freedoms” (aka, get in your way when you have plans by distracting or other methods) just enough to feel you and the other party separate. He’s not much for sharing outside of himself and a special someone else.
“I don’t want the future. I want the present to stand still. I want to stay here with you…”˖⋆⟢
✦ synopsis: the way to a gamers heart..is you! (in short how loser!dottore shows his love!)
✦ a/n: the fanart belongs to cosonette on tiktok which inspired this whole thing
• No idea how he bagged but he bagged regardless.
• His actual name is Zandik and his gamer tag is Dottore he was so proud of it, he told everyone to call him Dottore as a nickname. Looking back to it he is embarrassed by his young self and even more embarrassed if you decide to tease him about it.
• “Dihhtore” “Stop☹️”
• He has you saved as muffin in his phone and basically thats your go-to pet nickname! Zandik chose this because y’all met in a cafe that serves the tastiest muffins (and you’re as sweet as muffin to him)
• Both an academic and gamer/manga typa loser. He has many medical internships requests, his skills are high demand — and at the same time he is info dumping large amounts of game lore to you with lightning speed of talking.
• or random facts “Did you know that earwax is a type of sweat?”
• His room is full with educational books and manga followed by his figure collection. Its somehow messy and organised at the same time. Whenever you come over Zandik makes effort it atleast looks decent-ish
• Corniest pick up lines
• “Are you a controller? Because I can’t function without you-“ “Bro.”
• Socialising..who is that? He only goes to college, grocery shopping and the nearby cafe that I mentioned. Most dates happen in his room, if you do insist, he will go out with you but he looks like a dear caught in headlights the whole time.
• Wears glasses due to being infront of a screen for half of his existence and places them on you sometimes as an failed attempt to flirt.
• Hands always sweaty, at first Zandik was even embarrassed to hold hands with you.
• He is clingy — too clingy. This is his first relationship so he just wants you, okay? Doesn’t matter what you’re up to just stay by his side.
• For as long as he remembers, Zandik was always an outcast. No matter how smart he just couldn’t get along with his peers, which made him accustomed to hearing his name said with hatred. When you came along and said Zandik with so much love in your voice it was like the Gods finally decided to show him some grace.
• His hair is mad fluffy and Zandik wouldn’t refuse you — if you would want to pet it while he lays down on your lap (please)
TW: BAD FOOD, not proofread, lowk just stay away from the kitchen if this mofo is cooking
Fefe's sticker note: big shout out to bro named Boah for this great inspo. This is mostly for a friend but i've made it where anyone can insert themselves into the story.
If Lohen was asked about what he'd love about you, it would be your cooking without hesitation.
He'd talk about how beautiful your dishes looked, always carefully plated, warm steam curling into the air, colors arranged like little works of art. Every meal felt made with love and care.
He'd say there was always something exciting about it too, "It has the element of surprise!" Lohen would tell to his fellow knight.
The way his heart raced before taking the first bite. The way his body reacted afterward. There was always that small moment of suspense after swallowing, where he'd quietly wait for whatever came next.
Sometimes his vision blurred. Other times his stomach twists, and his tongue would go numb for a couple of hours.
Lohen would never tell you bluntly that your food tasted horrid despite how good it looked, the last thing he wanted to do was break your heart.
Especially since you found so much joy in cooking.
Looking at it another way, this was also a good opportunity to build up his poison tolerance. If anything, this was just efficient training.
One time, when Lohen was out on duty, he felt absolutely famished after clearing out several hilichurl camps. So, logically, he sat down on a nearby rock and opened the container of leftover soup that you had lovingly packed for him.
Before he could even take a bite, though, a boar suddenly jumped out of nowhere and knocked over his lunch. It seemed he was not the only one hungry, as the animal immediately began digging in.
"Hey— that was my lunch." Lohen muttered, more offended than alarmed.
After a few seconds, however, Lohen slowly raised an eyebrow when the boar suddenly paused. The last thing he heard from it was a faint little "oink" before it collapsed onto its side, unconscious.
Thanks to what he had just witnessed, Lohen now secretly dips his dagger into any soup you made before testing the side effects on any poor slimes he happens to pass by.
"It's ready!" you announced happily as you walked into the dining room, carefully carrying a large bowl of pasta.
When you heard that Lohen was inviting a few of his co-workers over, you were delighted. You had eagerly agreed when he asked if you could cook something for them. After all, it wasn't every day that you got the chance to share your cooking with new people.
The moment you set the bowl down on the table, the rich aroma drifted through the room. The pasta looked delicious, coated in a glossy sauce and garnished with fresh herbs that made it look almost restaurant worthy.
"I can't wait to taste the food, i'm starving!" Varka exclaimed, rubbing his hands together as he stared at the delicious looking pasta.
"It looks good. I can see why Lohen eats your cooking so often," Kaeya remarked as he reached for the serving spoon and scooped a generous portion onto his plate.
You practically beamed at their words. It seemed all the effort you had put into preparing the meal was already paying off.
Meanwhile, Lohen was already digging into his own plate, happily twirling another forkful of pasta before taking a bite.
Seeing how enthusiastically Lohen was enjoying the meal, The two didn't hesitate any longer to twirl a forkful of pasta and popping it into their mouths.
The smile on Varka's face vanished instantly.
Kaeya's eye widened by the slightest fraction before he quickly regained his composure.
The pasta was somehow both overwhelmingly salty and strangely sweet. Several flavors crashed together in a way that should have been impossible.
Varka wasn't sure whether to chew faster or slower, and Kaeya wasn't sure if drinking wine would help or make it worse.
For a brief moment, both of them considered their options in complete silence.
Swallow and survive. Or chew forever and never recover.
"Well?" you asked eagerly, leaning forward slightly. "How is it?"
Varka’s throat bobbed as he forced the bite down with visible effort, his smile tightening like a strained knot.
"It’s.." he began, then paused, as if searching for a version of the truth that wouldn’t ruin anyone’s life. "Distinctive."
Kaeya chewed once more, very slowly, as if giving himself time to decide whether honesty would be worth the consequences.
Then he swallowed. Immediately after, he reached for his wine and took a slow, deliberate sip.
"..It’s not my favorite," he said once the wine had done its job of softening the memory of the taste. "But I’ll finish it."
Varka let out a careful breath, "Right— Yes," he agreed quickly. "That's.. the spirit of it."
He immediately followed up with another bite, as though speed might lessen the experience.
It did not.
"That’s so nice of you both!" you said warmly. "I was worried it might be too different this time."
"Are you kidding? This is better than last time you cooked pasta! I say you're improving." Lohen boasted as he kept eating, completely unbothered as another forkful disappeared.
Kaeya stared at deranged vice captain for a second, then slowly lifted his glass again, choosing silence over whatever comment was forming in his head.
Varka, after a brief pause, simply continued eating with the calm determination of who had decided questions were unnecessary as long as the plate kept getting lighter.
The table settled back into motion, while Lohen remained entirely pleased with himself, and you took their reactions as the highest praise.
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How genshin men would react to them falling in love with you after rejecting you
Assuming a year has past since your confession. They aren’t sure if you still like them.
Tries to win you over (Subtly)
He believes that if you liked him back then you can like him now. You haven’t got over him, have you? It’s only been a year. You have to still like them a little, right? He tried to reject you as respectfully as possible so all they can do is hope he didn’t break your heart. He goes full courting mode. He will subtly court you or even seduce you if he must. He definitely replays your confession in his head at night. How could he reject you out of all people. Anything you told him during your confession is 100% being used against you. Oh so you like how his gifts are always so considerate? Well now his gifts are extra considerate. Oh you like how strong he is? Well he just happens to show off when protecting you from some hilichurls. He catches one reaction. One small blush or longing look. Any sort of proof that you still like him and he’s asking you out on the spot. He tries being subtle about it to hide his slight guilt for rejecting you then asking you out a year later. If you make him say it then he’ll try to laugh it off. “I mean you did say you wanted to go out with me didn’t you?”
Wriothesley, Heizou, Kaeya, Flins
Desperately Tries to win you over
Similar to the last one except he’s a lot more embarrassed by what he’s doing. He feels like a moron for rejecting you. He honestly can’t tell if you do or don’t still like him. Eventually he asks you out with the same amount of effort you put into asking him. “Hey uh, is that offer for *blank* still open?” He’ll ask while actively blushing.
Kaveh, Itto, Gorou,
Locks in
He is not going to fumble you twice. He’s going to make sure you love him again no matter what it takes. You’ll suddenly notice he’s a lot more attentive. He’ll give you gifts and sometimes just look at you. You don’t know how to feel. Does he like you? He rejected you so you must be overthinking right? Eventually he asks you out as nonchalantly as he can though secretly his heart is beating the life out of his chest.
Kinich, Albedo, Alhaitham,
Plays off the rejection
He’s really hoping you don’t remember his rejection. He’s convinced he wasn’t in his right mind when he rejected you. You’re literally perfect for him. He acts a little bit like a female high schooler with a crush. Overly laughs at your jokes, sits a little too close, stares at you whenever he thinks you aren’t paying attention. When he asks you out he plays it off as a spur of the moment type of thing but in truth he’s been thinking about asking you out for a while. He really hopes that you 1: still like him and 2: that you don’t hold his rejection against him.
He feels upset about liking you. How could he have waited so long to fall in love with you. He’ll stare at his ceiling wondering how he could be so dumb. He wouldn’t confess to you. How could he? It’s been a year. There is no way you still love him. He’ll long for you from afar as if you were the one who rejected him.
Neuvillette, Xiao, Tighnari, Durin, Baizhu
Apologizes
He’ll confess to you but not without an apology. He will apologize for breaking your heart and ask for another chance with a bouquet or something else you like. He feels terrible for rejecting you but doesn’t beat himself too much over it. All he can do is hope you accept but understands why you might reject him.
Kazuha, Gaming, Diluc, Sethos,
Avoids you
He feels so dumb and doesn’t know how to deal with his feelings. His face heats up whenever you talk to him. When you first asked him out he had no interest in romantic relationships but now he wishes he had one with you. He avoids you so much you’re convinced he hates you. It takes intervention from one of his friends/siblings for you to understand what was going on.
Author Notes: Kinda inspired by his outfit and grappling hook. And yes I did do a little bit on research on firefighters just for this
Before relationship
Firefighter Kinich who first met you when you were passed out in your apartment from carbon monoxide poisoning and personally carried you outside.
Firefighter Kinich who met you again months later when your friend’s condo caught on fire.
Firefighter Kinich whose arms you jumped into when you had to evacuate from your friends balcony.
Firefighter Kinich who was forced to carry you in an awkward position because you were “too scared to look down.”
Firefighter Kinich who comforted you the whole time that you were on the balcony and in his arms.
Firefighter Kinich who put a blanket over you when he noticed you seemed uncomfortable with how little you were wearing.
Firefighter Kinich who accepted the baked goods you brought him as an apology for grabbing him so hard it would have bruised if not for his protective clothing.
Firefighter Kinich who wonders why you keep visiting his fire station to give him treats even after he’s repeatedly told you that you don’t need to repay him for doing his job.
Firefighter Kinich who slowly gets to know you by the little conversations you have whenever you bring him new pastries.
Firefighter Kinich who jokingly asks you to make him a specific dessert that his mother used to make and is pleasantly surprised when you actually make it.
Firefighter Kinich who one day randomly receives a box of biscuits with an attached post-it-note of you asking him out with your number underneath.
In a relationship
Firefighter Kinich who hates how he can’t see you during his 24 hour shifts.
Firefighter Kinich who cooks and pampers you during his 48-hour off days.
Firefighter Kinich who ends up being your children’s role model (when you have kids)
Firefighter Kinich who visits your kid’s kindergarten class and does a presentation on fire safety.
Firefighter Kinich who always bandages your wounds even if minor.
Firefighter Kinich who took an extra medical course to help treat you if you ever got sick.
your writing is so in character... for eevryone I've read from u so far but espescially heizou. not enough heizou here on tumblr so if i may ask one.....
touch starved, lonely heizou hcs... romantic...
heizou who is sooo confident to flirt with reader all if the time and he's clearly very physically touchy (hugs, hand holding as soon as he sees reader, pulling reader along everywhere he goes) but whenever reader earnestly, lovingly intiates similar contact he just kind of freezes up because he's not used to anyone reciprocating and it scares him a little. heizou who spends allllll day with reader all the time, but when they part ways every night he feels like a piece of his heart is leaving him 🥺
or something..!! if that is too specific that's okay bwahahaha
Touch Starved Heizou HCS
°❀ Everyone’s taking my weakness to Heizou to their advantage and I love it!
Content: Angst to comfort! Very toothachingly fluffy at the end though!!
Extra: This man has my heart so I have to write this so painfully accurate. So buckle in. It may be a tad bit long…
Word Count: 2109
Masterlist
• Heizou is subtly touchy before you even realize he’s flirting. A hand at the small of your back while he guides you through crowded streets, soft fingers brushing beneath your chin to tilt your face toward him when he’s teasing you, leaning against your shoulder like he already belonged there already. It comes so naturally from him, that it feels almost unfair to you. Especially paired with that smug grin of his. That look in his eyes like he already knows exactly what kind of effect he’s had on you.
• He pays attention to everything. Every startled inhale when he suddenly hooks an arm around your shoulders. Every time your face heated up when he leaned just a little too close. Every nervous little glance you throw him when he compliments you out of nowhere. He notices it all instantly, and archons, he loves it. It’s everything to him.
• “Cute reaction.” That stupid line leaves his mouth constantly when he’s around you. And the worst part? He says it so painfully casual, like he’s not actively ruining your ability to think straight when you’re with him.
• He’s the type to take your hand without asking, and just continue talking normally afterward. Like dragging you through Inazuma City with interlocked fingers is the most obvious thing in the world. Like your heart isn’t currently trying to explode out of your chest and die while he casually points out food stalls and tells you about some bizarre case he had solved last week.
• Physical affection is easy for him when he’s the one giving it. Maybe too easy…
• Because Heizou learned very young how to adapt to people. How to be able to read them. How to make them laugh, how to smoothly charm them, how to stay one step ahead emotionally. It became second nature after he left home. After the wandering. After nights spent alone in unfamiliar places with only himself to rely on.
• Somewhere along the way, touch stopped being something comforting and became something strategic instead. Controlled. Safe, as long as he was the one to be initiating it.
• And then he met you.
• Sweet you. Lovely you. You, who listened to him ramble on and on about cases with genuine interest instead of the polite tolerance he was always given. You, who looked at him like there was more to him than just the flirty detective persona everyone else happily accepted at surface level.
• Falling for you happened slowly. Then all at once. And suddenly he’s finding excuses to be near you constantly.
• He usually sat shoulder-to-shoulder with you whenever it was possible. Threw himself dramatically across your lap when he’s bored with the urge to bother you. Resting his chin on your shoulder while reading over paperwork just because he can. If he was tired, he gets even worse about it. Just half asleep and clinging onto your arm like some oversized cat that decided you’re its new favorite sleeping spot.
• And you always react. Sometimes shy. Sometimes flustered. Sometimes speechless. Heizou lives for it.
• But the thing about Heizou is that he’s observant enough to notice what’s missing, too. You never pull away from him. Never reject him. Never seem uncomfortable. But you don’t initiate anything with him first either.
• At first, he tells himself he’s just imagining it. Then he starts testing it without realizing. He waits a little longer before grabbing your hand. Wonders if maybe you’ll reach for him first.
• You don’t.
• He’ll lean against your shoulder while talking and stays there quietly for a moment afterward. You just let him. But you don’t lean back.
• He hugs you goodbye and lingers just slightly longer than usual. You smile so sweetly at him afterward that it almost physically hurts. But your arms aren’t tightening around him.
• And the terrifying thing is that he starts caring.
• Because this was supposed to be easy. Heizou is painfully good at easy. Good at flirting. Good at making people blush and laugh and fall apart beneath his attention.
• He wasn’t supposed to start wondering if maybe you only tolerated his affection instead of wanting it like he thought.
• Wasn’t supposed to notice every tiny hesitation afterward from you. Wasn’t supposed to lie awake at night replaying interactions in his head like some hopeless idiot in love.
• He starts overthinking. Maybe he’s being too much. Being too clingy. Too touchy with you. Maybe you just didn’t know how to tell him to stop. The thought makes his stomach twist painfully.
• So sometimes he pulls back without warning. Not completely. Never completely. He couldn’t do that.
• But there are days where he keeps his hands to himself more. Days where he walks beside you instead of bumping shoulders with you. Days where he smiles and jokes and acts exactly the same, except he’s carefully resisting every instinct telling him to reach for you.
• And honestly? He hates those days. Because once Heizou let himself get used to your warmth, the absence of it felt completely unbearable.
• The worst nights are the ones after he leaves you. He’ll walk home through Inazuma with his hands shoved into his pockets, replaying every moment from earlier. The way you smiled at him. The sound of your laugh. The small brief look you gave him when he held your hand.
• He will cling to those scraps like they’re enough to quiet the loneliness growing and gnawing at his chest. But when he gets home and the room is empty and quiet, cold…it all comes rushing back to him anyway.
• He’ll lay in bed staring at the ceiling, one arm tossed over his eyes, trying not to think too hard about how badly he wanted to see you again already, even if it’s been around an hour or two.
• Trying not to think about how pathetic it felt to miss someone this much. Trying not to think about how frighteningly easy it would be for you to break his heart.
• Because Heizou can handle danger. He can handle criminals, secrets, lies, pressure.
• But you?
• You have him sitting there overanalyzing the fact you didn’t grab his hand first.
• And that’s so much scarier to him than he realized.
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• The first time you cupped his face, Heizou genuinely stopped functioning for a second.
• It happened during one of his usual teasing moments too. He’s grinning, saying something smug, probably leaning way too close on purpose just to watch you get flustered again like always. And then your hands are suddenly on his cheeks, so gently that it nearly knocked the breath from his lungs as his breath hitched from your action alone.
• Silence.
• Actual silence.
• His eyes widened just a little before he laughs softly to cover it up, but it sounded a little different this time. Weaker. Breathier. Like his brain had stalled halfway through processing what just happened that second.
• Because you touched him first.
• You wanted to touch him first.
• And archons, that realization terrified him in more ways than he wanted to admit out loud.
• Heizou had spent years being the one who initiated affection first. Years being the one in control of it, however he needed. If he reached first, then he knew what was to expect. Knew how to protect himself if things ended up going wrong.
• But this?
• The way your fingers brushed his hair away from his face, all while you listened to him talk about whatever it was that he was on.
• Your hand slipping around his arm softly, while you walked beside him through the rather busier streets of Inazuma, leaning on him a bit.
• Your thumb absentmindedly rubbing across his knuckles when he held your hand in his.
• It felt so unfamiliar to him in the most dangerous way possible. Because suddenly this affection isn’t something he’s performing anymore.
• It’s real.
• And Heizou realized very, very quickly that he had absolutely no idea how to handle being loved back by someone he wasn’t even sure wanted him.
• The worst part is how obvious his reactions had become to you, once you start paying attention.
• He freezes constantly. Not for long enough that most people would catch it, but you do, since you’ve been around him long enough.
• You notice the way his breath caught whenever you touched him unexpectedly, whether it was a small touch or not. The way his teasing faltered for half a second when you leaned against him first. The way his face had softened before he hurriedly replaced it with another cocky grin of his.
• “You’re getting bold lately, huh?” he joked one day when you intertwined your fingers with his before he could do it first.
• Meanwhile his heart is practically trying to punch through his ribs at rapid paces. It scared him because he liked it too much.
• He liked the warmth of your hands. Liked when you leaned against his shoulder when you were tired, or just wanted to rest your head. Liked when you absentmindedly fixed his collar, or red ties while talking to him. Liked every tiny little thing so desperately that it started aching whenever you were gone for too long.
• He hated admitting how lonely he really felt without you. Hated it.
• Heizou had spent years surviving on his own. Wandering. Running. Learning not to rely too heavily on anyone because people could leave any second. Circumstances changed. Attachments became vulnerabilities.
• And yet somehow you’ve turned him into someone who felt so restless the second you weren’t nearby. After you start reciprocating his affection, being apart became unbearable in an entirely different way.
• Before, he could survive off the memory of your reactions. Now he knew what your touch really felt like. Which meant he craved it constantly.
• He usually caught himself thinking about it during work. Sitting at his desk at the Tenryou Commission, trying to focus on report cases, while remembering the way your hand rested gently against his chest earlier that morning.
• It ruins him.
• Absolutely ruins him.
• Some days he almost seemed quieter around you because of it. Softer. Less performative.
• He still teased you, it’s still funny to him, still flirted shamelessly like he had no problem with it, still flashed those infuriatingly smug smiles that made you smile a little too much.
• But now there are moments where he just…looked at you. Like he’s still trying to process that this is real. That someone actually wanted him this way. Entirely.
• There are some nights where the two of you part ways, and he just stood there for a second after you leave, fingers brushing hesitantly over the spot you touched last like he’s trying to preserve the warmth from it.
• And when he was alone afterward, the loneliness crept in sharper than before.
• Because now he knows what he’s missing. You’ve unknowingly became the comfort he seeked. Your touch became something safe to him before he even realized it was even happening.
• Somewhere along the way, he stopped associating affection with strategies, the charms, and carefully measured control.
• And started associating it with you.
• Which meant sometimes, when he’s especially tired, he got almost shy about it. Subtly leaning closer without realizing. Resting his forehead against your shoulder for a moment longer than he would’ve had.
• Quietly hooking his pinky with yours while walking.
• Tiny things. Tiny things that scream far louder than his flirting ever did.
• Because Heizou can flirt with anyone.
• But he only melts when it’s you touching him back. And little by little, he began to understand something he never truly let himself believe before.
• That love isn’t supposed to feel like chasing. It isn’t supposed to feel conditional, or temporary, or one-sided.
• Sometimes love was just simply your hand finding his naturally. Sometimes it’s you reaching for him before he could ask. Sometimes it’s someone looking at all the lonely, frightened pieces inside of him and choosing to stay anyway with him.
• And for the first time in years, Heizou started to let himself relax into it. Into you. Into the terrifying, exciting, wonderful realization that after all this time…
• He finally knew what it felt like to be loved back.
Hello, I have something more self indulgent as a fic idea of sorts, if that's okay. (it's gonna be very specific. ^v^;)
Something about Tighnari x reader (gn) where Tighnari indulges the reader with his bare chest, showing his 6 breasts? (that's a headcanon I adopted for Tighnari and wanna spread the "6 breasts/nips Tighnari" propaganda. It makes me feel flustered and comfy somehow)
Not completely sure what you mean by “indulge” but I’m going to assuming it’s inappropriate. Guys I don’t write NSFW. I try to even limit suggestive content. If I do write something slightly suggestive it’s short and only part of a headcanon. Thank you.
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You thought you were being nice when you pointed to your cheek. To the exact spot that Varka had a piece of food stuck to his face. Though, when he looked at you. Blinked. Smiled a little. You were greatly confused when he got up a little, leaned over the table, and kissed the spot on your cheek that you pointed to.
His hair tickled your face, and his lips felt warm.
When he sat back down and you noticed the pink dusting his cheeks. Silence hung in the air.
"You..."
He looked at you again.
"You had food on your face."
He froze over right on the spot, "why didn't you say anything?!"
"People usually point to it subtlety on their own face so the other person can wipe it off!"
𓂃⟡ ݁ ꒰ 𝑺𝒀𝑵𝑶𝑷 ꒱ ⸝⸝ .ᐟ . just some streamer! au childe headcanons
. ౿ 𝑾𝑶𝑹𝑫 𝑪𝑶𝑼𝑵𝑻 ── .✦ 752
. ౿ 𝑵𝑶𝑻𝑬𝑺 ── .✦ HIII im nana and its my first post ever ahhh!!!! i am so nervous abt posting this, pls be nice </3 it might be a bit occ…but i love streamer! au and i love childe even more so here we are…
𓏲ּ𝄢 i feel like childe as a streamer would genuinely be EVERYONE’S favorite streamer somehow. like even people who don’t play the games he streams would still watch him because he’s just entertaining (and sexy)
𓏲ּ𝄢 his main platforms are twitch and maaaayyybe youtube, doesnt seem like a huge kick person
𓏲ּ𝄢 would definitely post thirst traps on his tiktok.
𓏲ּ𝄢 he mostly streams valorant, cs, fortnite, apex, weird games on roblox, sometimes random horrors when he feels like torturing himself for fun, but if his viewers want to see something else he will do it
𓏲ּ𝄢 a WHALEE he doesnt care frfr, just give him his v-bucks </3
𓏲ּ𝄢 his setup would be expensive as hell but weirdly messy. top-tier pc (he built it himself, this man is such a try hard) multiple monitors, expensive keyboard… and then an empty redbull can balancing dangerously on the desk for three days straight
𓏲ּ𝄢 definitely the type to stream for “just two hours” and accidentally stay online for nine because he got too invested in ranked games and started having fun with chat
𓏲ּ𝄢 LOVES competitive games
𓏲ּ𝄢 anything where he can either carry the team or start beefing with enemies in all chat while laughing the whole time
𓏲ּ𝄢 his laugh would absolutely be famous. loud as hell, pretty, contagious. one of those laughs where everyone in chat starts spamming emojis in chat
𓏲ּ𝄢 weirdly terrifying at games. like he acts unserious, keeps joking, talks about some bs, starts random stories mid-match-and still somehow drops insane kill counts
𓏲ּ𝄢 absolutely the type to lean way too close to the camera while reading chat. messy orange hair falling into his eyes, blue eyes squinting slightly while he grins at donations.
“chat, be honest, was that play hot or was it HOT.”
𓏲ּ𝄢 he is such an attention whore
𓏲ּ𝄢 definitely sits in his chair horribly. someone should make posture compilations of him
𓏲ּ𝄢 his fans would constantly thirst over him, but he handles it in the funniest ways possible. sometimes he flirts back jokingly, sometimes he acts dramatically offended
“objectifying me again? unbelievable. disgusting behavior. keep going.”
𓏲ּ𝄢 he canonically loves fighting and adrenaline, so modern childe would 100% chase excitement in stupid ways. horror games at 2am, rage queueing ranked, random gym streams, paintball tournaments with other creators
𓏲ּ𝄢 collab streamer btw. EVERYONE wants to stream with him because he naturally makes things entertaining. he’s chaotic in a very magnetic way
𓏲ּ𝄢 his fans would adore him because he’s weirdly attentive. remembers usernames, asks how people are doing, notices when regular viewers disappear for a while
𓏲ּ𝄢 lowkey makes chat feel like a friend group instead of a fanbase
𓏲ּ𝄢 his mods are exhausted btw
𓏲ּ𝄢 literally impossible to control him once he gets excited
𓏲ּ𝄢 but despite being loud and playful online, he’d actually be extremely careful with privacy. especially regarding relationships or family
𓏲ּ𝄢 mentions his siblings constantly though. like every other stream somehow turns into “my little brother did this” or “my sister roasted me so hard earlier.”
𓏲ּ𝄢 if he has a girlfriend? oh he is GONE
𓏲ּ𝄢 not in a “posts couple content every second” way. actually the opposite. he keeps you mostly private because the internet is weird and he genuinely wants to protect that part of his life.
𓏲ּ𝄢 BUT.
𓏲ּ𝄢 he cannot shut up about you.
𓏲ּ𝄢 like literally every stream:
“my girlfriend made me coffee earlier”
“my girl said i look sleep deprived”
“nah chat she’d bully all of you”
𓏲ּ𝄢 he thinks he’s being subtle btw. he’s not
𓏲ּ𝄢 chat would know more about your personality than appearance because he talks about you constantly without realizing it
𓏲ּ𝄢 if you randomly walk into his room mid stream? he’s immediately distracted
𓏲ּ𝄢 like full golden retriever mode activated
𓏲ּ𝄢 “baby wait, is that food for me?? chat LOOK what she made me”
𓏲ּ𝄢 if you speak ONCE during stream the clips go viral immediately.
“OH MY GOD SHE TALKED.”
𓏲ּ𝄢 and he’d just sit there smiling like an idiot because he loves when chat likes you <3
“yeah? cute voice, right? i know.”
𓏲ּ𝄢 he needs his fair share of cuddles after every stream
𓏲ּ𝄢 let him lay his head on your chest and play with his hair
𓏲ּ𝄢 he will melt.
𓏲ּ𝄢 he yapps about everything and nothing until he falls asleep
𓏲ּ𝄢 genuinely just gives off the energy of a guy who loves having fun and loves loving people even more
How likely are you to survive a zombie apocalypse with Genshin men.
Featuring almost all genshin men with exceptions
Assuming you guys are married. It’s just you two and no one else together (except Varka I guess). You’re a normal person without a vision. In some you wonder around while in others you stay in one place. Depends on the character.
Surviving
No brainer. They are helping you survive. You can be dead weight and it wouldn’t matter. He definitely pulls more night watch than you do. He takes on majority of the work. Does it get exhausting? Yes, but seeing you safe makes it all worth it. He will be the main person looking for food, killing zombies, etc. Sometimes you’ll just sleep on him while he’s on watch and he’ll gently stroke your back as you do.
Kinich, Diluc, Flins, Cyno, Tighnari, Illuga (1)
Surviving not because of their strength but because of their intellect. He knows exactly where to go, exactly how to act if something goes wrong, and exactly where to look for food. Sometimes you forget that you’re in an apocalypse because you don’t feel as though you are as stressed as you should be.
Surviving because they are really good fighters. You guys are the wandering type. The group that never stays in one place. The amount of times you guys have been surrounded and still made it out is insane. You’re lucky you’re married to them and not a zombie against them.
Surviving because you guys were lucky. They have a few talents that came it handy (ex. Their medical or food knowledge) but you guys definitely wouldn’t have survived had you guys been in any super dangerous situations.
Bennett (ironically), Baizhu, Gorou, Mika, Ororon
Survived but it was really stressful. You guys struggled most of the time. You both will probably never mentally heal from this. You’ve gone hungry, fought zombies, and walked until your legs gave out. You can’t count how many times your lives have flashed before your eyes. If not for each other perhaps you guys would have stopped trying a long time ago.
Lyney, Kaeya
Not Surviving
You guys died from starvation/ thirst. You tried to stay optimistic. He tried to keep you fed but you guys simply couldn’t find enough supplies. You were able to escape the zombies but in the end it didn’t matter. You both passed beside each other. None of you could move anymore. You decided to lay beside each other one last time. If you had the energy to speak you spoke to each other about how grateful you were to have the other. You knew this time would come but it still felt bittersweet. It doesn’t matter if you were so thirsty that you didn’t have the ability to speak, either way you guys died in each other’s arms.
Freminet, Gaming, Chongyun, Durin,
He couldn’t protect you. He thought he had it covered. He was fighting the zombies around you but no. One snuck up on you and bit your neck. If it have been any other limp perhaps he could’ve cut it off and maybe just maybe you’d be okay. But no. The zombie bit your neck. He immediately took care of the zombie before getting you guys out of the situation but you both knew it was too late. You were panicking, tears swelling in your eyes and so was he. He tried to reassure himself. How long did you have? How long did he have? Should he be reckless and kiss you? No. You made him promise to live on without you. He stayed with you until the first sign of you losing your mind. As much as he wanted to stay neither of you could stand the thought him seeing you turn into a mindless creature. He’d try and go as far away as possible. If he does see you while you are a zombie he won’t be able to hurt you, thus becoming a zombie himself.
Thoma, Razor, Kaveh, Illuga(2),
He got bit first because of his chivalry. He saw a little girl about to be discovered by zombies and couldn’t just stand and watch. He rushed head first into the situation. He protected her but was injured. He didn’t get to fully heal before days later he was protecting you all when you were surrounded. He got bit multiple times. He protected you until the end of his life. Surviving without him though is terribly difficult.
Varka, Itto
Tried hard to keep you safe but at the end of the day he’s just a normal guy. He could have sealed with 1 or 2 zombies but anymore was just asking too much. All you guys were doing were looking for food but a zombie came out of nowhere. You both ran. You tripped and got bitten. He killed it but knew better than to stay with someone infected. By the end of that very day you guys had bid each other farewell. Perhaps it was newly found depression over losing his lover but he no longer tried as hard. Days later he had been bitten as well and found himself looking for you.
firm believer that Lohen’s ring is a promise ring. he never, ever, EVER takes it off unless absolutely necessary. and that’s like, extremely rare. even in battle he’ll wear it; he believes it gives him strength from your love.
i think Lohen would just buy it himself, (or maybe even make it himself?) swearing his devotion to you. you don’t need to wear a ring to match, not if you don’t want. but him? you can cut off all his fingers and he’ll still carry it around, he’d wear it on a necklace if that ever happened. trust him, he has backup ideas. anything to show that his heart belongs to someone.
if someone ever tries to court Lohen, he’ll either:
subtly fidget with the ring and drop hints that it means something more than just a decoration. that it’s a symbol for the sweetest apple of his eye
shove it in their face and say that his heart has been claimed already. no “i’m sorry, i’m taken” or “no thank you, i have a lover”. just straight up ‘fuck off’
sometimes Lohen will press a little kiss on it when he’s away on a mission, missing you. he hopes that through the ring, his small gesture will get to you. it fills him with love just looking at the silver band, a constant reminder that his lover is his whole world.
i think he’d place it on his ring finger a few times in private, pretending he’s already married. he can’t wait for the day he can wear a ring on the proper finger to seal the devotion between you two. Lohen can’t wait for the day he can finally call you his spouse.
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synopsis: they say poetry and letters were humanity's earliest means of expressing their thoughts. as such, will it be able to absolve the misunderstanding between you and lohen?
lohen x fem!reader, childhood friends to strangers to lovers. university au.
a/n: i wanted to make this series as a countdown to lohen's banner sooo yeah.
prologue: to the one who (probably) hates me.
-> from: tevyat university
"congratulations student, you have been assigned with: lohen. thank you for signing up with the pen pal project! happy writing!"
"...you have got to be fucking kidding me."
the name 'lohen' stares back at you from your phone. you double and triple check the email, refreshing to see if it would change at all. however, when the name remains unchanged even after five refreshes, the reality of the situation starts to sink in on you.
seven years. seven years since he left a sixteen-year-old you waiting in the fields in your hometown, seven years since you lost all form of contact with him, and three years since you've stopped seeing him in your dreams.
exactly two years since you ran into him on campus while exiting the library, and two years you've spent actively avoiding him.
and now, in your last year of university, the school system has decided to pair you up with him.
you deny it at first, thinking of it as some kind of scarily specific prank by some hacker who has a vengeance against you. but the email address is legit, the number pasted at the bottom is a real one and this is definitely an event you regret joining.
according to the website, you and your pen pal will be matched according to your answers given on the questionnaire provided when you first sign up. based on your personality, interests and hobbies, the perfect partner will be found for you. (the website's words, not yours.)
once you are matched, an email will be sent to each of you, containing the other person's name and phone number. then, over the course of one school year, you'll exchange letters and get to know each other better. obviously, the main goal of the project is for willing participants to make friends and connect with other students on campus.
by that logic, it meant the system believed you and lohen would get along with each other and were highly compatible.
the algorithm they're using must be outdated, you believe, if they put you with lohen of all people.
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lohen.
the name leaves a bittersweet taste on your tongue, reminding you of the childhood you once had with him until everything fell apart.
the both of you used to play in the fields behind his house when it was dark, catching fireflies and gazing at the stars. you'd stay there until dawn and then sneak back into your house through the window, with lohen waving you goodbye as he rushed back home as well.
a younger you would always look forward to when lohen knocked on the door, politely asking your parents for permission to play with you before throwing all decorum out of the way and dragging you out by the arm when they agreed. as he got older, he stopped asking and just waited by your bedroom window with his arms held out, telling you to jump down and he'd catch you.
"that boy is as unpredictable as can be." your mother would sigh. yet she never once forbade you from hanging out with him.
perhaps it was bound to happen, a given even with how much time you were spending with lohen, but you fell for him at the age of fourteen. from there, not only was he your best friend, lohen became your first love.
the fairytales you used to read as a child, where a knight would fall in love with a princess, suddenly meant so much more to you, your young, naive, foolish mind imagining that you were the princess and lohen was your knight.
you'd dream of a precious romance, one untainted by the struggles of reality and adulthood, one where you and lohen would skip off into the sunset together and live out a happily ever after together.
yes, it was childish for a girl your age back then, but it was your whole world. that's how much lohen meant to you. it's why you spent another two years pining after him before you finally decided to confess in the fields both of you so dearly loved.
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you waited.
you waited and waited and waited.
you waited until the sun set, until the sky turned dark and the stars made their appearance, until the fireflies came out.
you waited until your parents found you in the middle of those fields, crying your heart out.
lohen never came.
it wasn't until the next morning that you found out he had moved without telling you. no note, no words, nothing.
he just...left.
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*ding!*
2 messages from: unknown
unknown: hey
unknown: your my pen pal right?
great, as if you didn't have enough to worry about already.
you aren't lost on who this is. since they're claiming to be your pen pal, this is can only be lohen who's texting you.
you don't know why your heart is pounding so fast. you aren't the one who ditched someone and left without a word seven years ago. if anything, he should be the one who's nervous.
you: lohen.
unknown is typing...
unknown: straight to the point huh? i like it.
unknown: its been a while (name)
you scoff. he's acting like only a year has passed and not seven.
you: more than a while you mean
you: ykw i dont have to do this im blocking you
you: bye
your thumb hovers over the 'block' button when another influx of messages comes in.
unknown: wiat
unknown: u want an answer i know
unknown: meet me outside main hall
unknown: youll get one
the green dot beside the empty profile disappears. lohen's gone offline.
you're not going. you're blocking his number and you're not going. why should you? you didn't get an answer seven years ago, and you certainly don't need one now.
you can just ignore this conversation and pretend it never happened and carry on with your lohen-less life. you've managed to survive for this long.
...
you're going to regret this.
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it isn't hard to spot lohen amidst the sea of students, leaning casually against a pillar and scrolling on his phone. you spent more than half your life with him after all. you don't approach him immediately, opting to stand a distance away to observe.
visually, he hasn't changed much. still the same murky green hair, bored expression, the singular mole underneath his right eye. the only difference is that the baby fat around his cheeks has slimmed down and he's gotten taller, along with the dagger piercing on his left ear.
you curse your heart for picking up speed when lohen finally notices you.
he smiles at you, all smug and a hint of something you don't dare name as fondness. you shuffle over to him.
"hey."
"hi."
you shoot him a confused glance as lohen opens his arms, as if expecting you to do something.
"what are you doing?"
he tilts his head at you innocently.
"aren't you gonna hug me?"
"no? why would i do that?"
"you used to greet me with a hug when we were kids. you don't remember?"
the audacity of this guy. does he still think the both of you are on good terms to ask for a hug from you? how shameless can he get?
"we're not kids anymore. i'm not hugging you."
lohen only shrugs and crosses his arms in response. a minute of silence passes before you clear your throat and speak up.
"you said you had an explanation."
you watch as he nods and digs around in his bag, pulling out an envelope that has definitely seen better days. lohen offers it to you as you stare in disbelief.
the edges are torn, the envelope itself is crumpled beyond repair and there's even a red-brownish stain that you hope isn't dried blood on a corner.
"...what is this?"
"your explanation. anyways, i have a class to get to. don't be a stranger alright?"
with that, lohen brushes past you, leaving you stunned to process the whole interaction.
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you only open the letter after a long day of classes. it seems that apart from his appearance, lohen's penmanship is also another thing that hasn't changed after all this time.
it took you some time to decipher his messy scrawls, but you manage to get through the letter.
my dear to (name),
ignore that tiny mistake. anyways! i will be sending my schedule to you soon. it has all my classes, electives, my club activities, you name it.
i understand that this isn't what you want and i frankly don't care. but since the both of us are pen pals now, i thought why not make use of this opportunity? fun right?
if you want an answer from me, you'll have to write to me and ask for it.
you know my schedule, you know where to find me.
hope to hear from you soon!
sincerely,
lohen
as if on cue, your phone goes off with a message from lohen. he's sent you a document of everything he mentioned in the letter.
what a bastard.
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"lohen! a girl asked me to pass this letter on to you."
lohen takes the envelope from varka, the latter slinging an arm around his shoulder, a wolfish grin on his face.
"when did you get yourself a girlfriend huh? didn't even bother to tell the rest of your club buddies?
a yelp is heard from varka as lohen shoves him off lightly.
"she's not my girlfriend. yet."
with thinly veiled excitement, lohen opens the letter which reads:
to lohen,
i hate you.
sincerely,
(name)
truly, he couldn't be happier.
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tags for lohen works: @pjselee, @thedamseletteofficial, @salmonsaw, @fireriyu