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yβall.... I donβt wanna go to the gym today

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breathe.
manifest good things.
do good things.
let good things happen.
be a good thing.
Had a pretty heavy workout after almost a month away from the gym. My new job has me walking miles every day yet I seem to have gained a few pounds back. I want to get back where I was when I was in school, going in at least twice a week if not more. I miss working out, it felt good. Reconciliation is not a one way street. It is up hill and constant. Iβm almost 9 weeks on testosterone, and Iβm 24 now. I hope youβre doing well
isnβt it exhausting being angry all the time? Isnβt it exhausting to constantly carry with you the overwhelming feeling of being owed something by everyone you know? Iβm tired of it. Iβm tired of being anxious and thinking through every minutiae of my day to day existence. I donβt have time for it anymore. Iβve got too much shit to do and too much good shit in my life to focus on.
Everything in my life is better than it has literally ever been. Iβm tired of feeling tired and Iβm tired of feeling sad and Iβm so fucking relieved to feel the way I do now. Iβm grateful to have the people in my life that I do now. Iβm amazed by all of their incredible talents and warm hearts and just good humanness, you know? Iβm grateful. And I keep telling myself Iβm grateful to avoid feeling as bad as Iβve felt before. I keep telling myself Iβm grateful because Iβm tired of fighting myself, Iβm tired of getting in my own way. Iβm grateful, Iβm fucking grateful.

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6 weeks on boy syrup, feelin more and more comfortable in my big body every day
Reblog this if you're a fitblr with a SW over 200 lbs and you are still in the middle of your journey. I love following inspirational people who have done it, but I want to help and be helped by those still doing it.
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3 weeks on that good good boy syrup Had a pretty intense workout yesterday, little bit of everything. Iβm hoping I can get back into the groove of dividing focus areas for my workouts once I get the hang of some new exercises. My chest is developing well, and my muscles feel denser. Not sure if thatβs from the training or the testosterone. It feels weird to be coming up on my one year for body reconciliation. Progress is a tricky thing. Forwards and backwards. Keep going, you know?
I was so busy in April that I had a hard time finding a moment to work out. Been out of the gym too long and now a lot of my work is focused on building up that rhythm again. Testosterone is making me so hungry??? Like I used to 1. Not get hungry often and 2. Only had to eat a little bit to feel full. Now I'm just ravenous. I'm not snacking on bad junk though, or at least trying not to. I have to start restocking my kitchen with good snacks, fruits and junk. I'm making more smoothies again, trying to incorporate more vegetables and fruits. It was so hard to eat well during school because I was taking 5 classes and had 0 time to eat or work out, so a lot of this is re-learning. I'm making sure to be patient with myself, even if I'm not losing weight as quickly as I want to be. Hormones have really been great though. I'm more emotional which kind of sucks, everything makes me cry. Nikki told me the plot for Coco and I cried. I heard about someone having to put their dog down, a dog I've never met, and I cried. I'm just weepy. But every morning I wake up excited to see or feel changes in my body even though I know it's unlikely bc it's so early in my process. And then eventually, it's Wednesday again and I get another shot. I gave myself my injection this morning and fumbled a little bit, but eventually got it okay. I might ask my nurse friend to give it to me next week though just to be safe. I think checking in w this blog every Wednesday is a good fit, keep track of junk, you know?
lazy Tuesday w my boy

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a touchstone vocal comparison, this was two days after my first testosterone injection. I want to record the same bit in intervals as my voice changes to track my progress. This is the first few lines from Andrea Gibson's "I Sing The Body Electric, Especially When My Power's Out"
Never been so happy to see a fitness video with an actual big girl.
Sheβs so beautiful π
Get it girl #inspirational
Working out is NOT a punishment
Do not work out because you feel GUILTY.
Working out is not a punishment.
Do it because it is fun, because you like doing it, because you like who you become when you work out - but never do it out of guilt and shame.
Do it with joy and love.Β
If you had a cookie yesterday it does not mean that you have to forcefully add reps to your workout routine because you feel bad. ENJOY THAT COOKIE.
Okay? Okay.
I made this tumblr a couple years ago and started posting on it last June. When I first made it, I think it was more along the lines of wishful thinking- as if the existence of this kind of outlet would make me more likely to look after my health. I've kept it secret from friends, people who know me in person, because I didn't want to feel like I owed my fitness progress to anyone but myself. I didn't want to feel the pressure from folks around me, even if it was encouraging. I wanted to make sure that doing this, changing my lifestyle, was what I truly wanted to do, and I wanted to do it at my own pace. I've been working out consistently since June of 2017. I started because my doctor told me that losing weight would mean less health risks when I started testosterone. Today, I'm getting a letter from my therapist. On Wednesday, hopefully, I'll have my first injection. Since June, I've lost around 40 pounds. I've learned more about my body than I've ever known before, mostly because I used to regularly dissociate away from being present in my body. I think the main reason I've been more successful at getting healthier this time around is because i was absolutely opposed to doing any of the work out of hate. I spent a lot of time hating my body, I think we all kind of do, probably because we're groomed for it. But doing something, changing your body because you hate your body is not a sustainable way to health and happiness. You have to do it out of appreciation, out of love. This can be especially hard when you're transgender. So much of us is bound to our bodies and what we think our bodies need to be. I think this reconciliation with my body has not only helped me reimagine my transness, but I think it's made me more comfortable with my particular ambiguous masculinity. Of not being defined as one or the other, of letting myself breathe in this body after years of suffocating. I also think that especially for fat transfolks, it can be incredibly isolating to see a limited representation of thin transpeople. I'm fat, I've been fat all my life and doing the things transmasculine folks do is hard when you're fat. It becomes as much of an identity marker because you realize the world wasn't made to fit people like you. I can say now, with wholehearted honesty, I love my body. All of its curves, rolls, muscle. It only wants the best for me, and so I do what I can to help.
I can feel my progress the most when I see how clothes fit. This outfit used to be pretty form fitting, now it's baggy as all hell.

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February (left) to this past Saturday. I'm down to 291lb. I never thought I'd get this far
I'm at 293.8. Officially down 30 pounds