Since we recently learned we have DID, I decided to do this just for fun. Technically we're only medically recognized with DID, not diagnosed, but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
We learned about our DID earlier this year, though we'd been suspecting since 2024. We told our therapist and mentioned cases where our memory was just acting weird and she confirmed we fit the criteria.
I guess more mentally? I'm not really sure what this is asking.
Functional multiplicity. Figuring out how to manage amnesia and work through dissociation better, but we all have agreed that we want to remain a system and that we'd probably be worse off if we went the route of final fusion.
I think the only types of therapy we've had are talk therapy in the past to manage emotional regulation issues and EMDR for dealing with processing trauma. I'm not sure which we prefer.
Yes. We've told two friends. We've told our mom and sibling about being a system, but only our friends about the DID. We want to be more openly ourselves because it's somewhat distressing to be constantly called by our legal name and such rather than our individual names. We want to be known as individuals.
We're not in treatment for DID since we don't have an official diagnosis, but we started our trauma therapy journey in 2024.
We first heard about DID from a Hardy Boys TV show episode, which we saw at like... age 12? Or maybe 9? I don't know. Before teenagehood. It both scared us (because the portrayal was less than ideal) but resonated really really strongly.
I guess the thing that irks me the most is when people state the age cutoff, since that's just an arbitrary number that no one can even agree on, tied to a theory that isn't even universally accepted. Followed closely by arguments that endogenic and mixed origin CDD systems don't exist (as we're a mixed origin CDD system).
Getting startled by our reflection. That's probably the most common one. Other fairly common examples are struggling to focus because our brain is just haze and static, feeling a sort of thick cottony sensation that makes it hard to think, and (less common but still shows up fairly often) a sense that our body is "lagging" behind all of our movements.
No. We only know the TOSD and we greatly dislike it, which just grows more and more as we learn more about it.
Multiple system apps, Word documents, and a physical journal.
Mostly focused on our concerns surrounding how difficult it's been to eat lately.
I guess auditory since we use a lot of music
I'm not sure. We've been able to pick on how if we're doing something and someone asks us a question, we'll suddenly forget what we were doing, or if they ask us to do something later, it doesn't stick for longer than a minute no matter how much we try to hold onto it, but most of our amnesia has been noticed via one time knocking on someone's door to ask them a question 5 minutes after we'd seen them leave the house, being in the shower and not remembering anything we did after stepping back out, one time suddenly realizing we were wearing a shawl we had no memory of getting up and grabbing, etc.
Considering our therapist was the first medical professional we've ever opened up with about our system experiences, then no.
We interpret one of the characters in Tale of the Nine-Tailed to be at least similar to a system. I'm not sure they count as a DID system, though?
Emotions can be affected by other members being close to front. During brain fog, emotions are dulled and it's difficult to feel anything other than tired.
Depends on what sisasystem we're talking about. Members within their own sisasystem? Excellent communication with each other. Between the 3 main systems? Little bit more difficult, with some members being easier to reach than others. Any group within one of the 3 main systems? Unless you're already in the system it belongs to, you're gonna have to shout to have any chance at being heard, and the odds still aren't good. We typically use thought to communicate with each other, but also send emotions and images as well. We also write some conversations down when we want to be sure we can remember said later.
Struggling with our age is the biggest one I think. There was also one time we struggled with giving our name, because the fronter almost said his own name, then had to stop and think what our legal name is.
Social Path (Stray Kids), The Real World (Owl City), Voices (Stray Kids), Mirror (Stray Kids), Protector (City Wolf), The Monster Underneath Your Bed (Madame Macabre)
Yes, a couple others. We have some symptom holders, but honestly I think the biggest impact is the members who struggle with anxiety so much they literally hide from the doorbell like a cat vs. the members who enjoy being social (one of whom actually specifically fronted so he could talk with others and got sad when everyone else was already involved in conversations and wasn't able to join in).
Surrounded by our friends and family (minus the one family member who contributed to our trauma)
We still aren't great at untangling passive influence. The only thing I can think of right now is I enjoy hot chocolate. A while back, Micah was in front and remembered one of my memories of it tasting good so he made a mug for himself, only to nearly spit it back out immediately. (He doesn't understand how I can enjoy "mildly lukewarm water with barely any flavor" lol)
No. I'm not sure if we will or not. It just doesn't really interest us
We've mostly moved past the "what if we aren't actually a system and are just faking everything?" but since being told we meet the criteria for DID we keep finding ourselves returning to "what if she made a mistake and we don't actually have DID and everyone's going to be so mad at us for saying we did when we don't". We usually deal with it by just sort of "That's nice" or similar responses, which we started doing after coming across a post talking about how someone began treating their intrusive thoughts that way. It's helped keep us from ruminating on the fears of faking and such.
When we're really dissociated, it's unsafe for us to use a stove. You'd think we'd be quicker on the uptake, but we've had overly cooked food multiple times in a row now because we've been so out of it we forgot to set and/or start a timer.
Probably the brain fog. That's super annoying and prevents us from doing pretty much anything because it takes so much energy to focus on it that we get exhausted before we can even properly begin.
The common trait that came to mind is how basically all of us look like Stray Kids' Felix. Our brain latched onto him and was like "Alright. You find comfort in him? Bam. Everyone's gonna look that way now." As for hobbies, a good portion of us are interested in writing.
