when is a monster not a monster?

just found out i've been abandoned by god which means he's not watching anything i do anymore. you should come over.

I love socially isolated wincest. I love that they don't know how other people work, they just know how each other work. I love them thinking the outside world is dangerous and scary and being reinforced in the idea that they only have and only want to have each other. I love dean being overly protective and keeping sam glued to his side whenever they're out in public. I love them discovering romance and sexuality together and feeling safe doing so. I love them not knowing how wrong it is to do those things with your own family. I love them being each other's brother, father, son, friend and boyfriend at the same time and not needing anything else.

the way the absence of john winchester haunt sam and dean in ways that are more real than any ghost they have ever faced. the way john echoes so loudly in the narrative even in episodes he’s not mentioned, in seasons where he never appears. the way john possesses dean when he’s angry and sam when he’s grieving. the way john is the one true god of the narrative, the absent father who does not answer prayers or phone calls. the righteous man who does not break in hell but breaks down and hands his child a gun. john and the memory of his holy mary. john the prophet and his sacred text. john and his prodigal son that he knows has to die.