Baptize Me in a River of Fire

people in every queer and trans community i go to set an expectation: i should ofrever abandon my muslim past, i should explicitly stop associating yourself with it whatsoever, you either get to be queer or you either get to be raised-muslim.

in reality, there's no such expectation for christianity, and none of them are ready to dismantle their "inner christian" in their heads as much as they expect be to dismantle my "inner muslim"

none fo them get to admit how most first world countries are culturally christian, because christianity is "default" to them, as well as first world, as well as white.

me having a complicated relationship with islam doesn't mean i absolutely despise every piece of it. it means i distanced myself from ummah, but won't hear islamic criticism from non ex muslims at all, because you expect us to dismantle "our inner muslims" in ways you aren't ready to dismantle imperialism and racism in you.

your expectation is us "acting white", you don't want us unless we're that, which means you don't want us at all.

a lot of people claiming to want to uplift brown queer voices and such don't procced to do anything meaningful for them, or for brown people at all. it's just virtue signaling, homonationalism. you'd only care of brown people being queer, and you want the "brown" part of it gone as much as possible.

a lot of people say they want the leftist agenda to stop being us centric and imperialist, but then it's just pretending to care about it. you already made is so little and unhearable you'd have to get out of your way to seek for us speaking. then you'd not seek or if you find us, you will just pass by. hoping someone else would amplify the voice you took from us? and that someone else would hope for that too, so what?

you want us only when we agree with everything usa says about us, you want us until our lives don't put you into too much discomfort. when they put you into too much discomfort, you don't ask why, you'll restore the comfort by banishing us again. your tolerability of us is so intricately conditional, to meet those a third worlder has to build themselves into a first worlder mindset. this is your (inter)nationalism hey.

Kananesgi brings the fire

Custom zippo lighter featuring Kananesgi ama, the water spider, who brought fire to the people in the Cherokee first fire story

Namaygoosisagagun First Nation/Collins has burned to the ground. The entire community is nothing but ashes after being quickly consumed by wildfires. They did not have any support from emergency services, and no one offered aid. The community saved themselves by escaping into boats because no one came.

Mishkeegogamang and Cat Lake have lost power. Families are ending up in shelters with nothing. Armstrong, Lac La Croix, Whitesand, Gull Bay, Lac des Mille Lacs are currently in the fires path and all members are being evacuated.

All this loss, all this devastation, and it was entirely preventable.

After steadily underfunding wildland firefighting and purposefully excluding Indigenous wildland firefighters and Indigenous wildfire organizations from wildfire operations, firefighter training, decisionmaking, and resource exchanges, in 2025, Doug Ford slashed the forest firefighting budget.

It's hard to ignore his decision to cut funding and leave us out of adequate fire training (even though we've lived with forest fires for thousands of years—far longer than settlers have been in Canada—and made sure fires like the ones we're all seeing today were prevented through kinisitotēn) when, despite making up less than 5% of the population, we account for 42% percent of all wildfire evacuations in Canada.

And when we are successfully evacuated, we face discrimination and racism—like Kashechewan—because it's always been easier to blame us than it is to blame the true culprit: denialism, corportate greed, and colonization.

The people of Collins and every other impacted community deserve better.

Right now, the AFN is currently accepting donations to help Collins First Nation. If you're able to, please consider donating.

ONWA (Ontario Native Women's Association) is another great place to donate to. They have outreach vans going to motels and inns and offering food, water, resources, and cultural support to those impacted by the wildfires.

Other places to consider donating to are Mikinakoos Emergency Fund, Red Cross, True North Aid, Indigenous Climate Action. You can also send donations directly to Whitesand First Nation via e-transfer ([email protected]) and they request that you add your full name in the e-transfer comment section to receive a tax receipt.

*Before sending money, verify that the appeal appears on an official First Nation, Tribal Council or registered charity channel.

If you can't offer financial support, please consider donating items of need. Moontime Connections is currently accepting drop-off donations. If you live in the Thunder Bay area, Namaygoosisagagun Health Office is also taking in donations! They can also bemailed to Superior Inn Hotel & Conference Centre at 555 West Arthur Street, Thunder Bay, ON, P7E 5P8.

items needed are: food, diapers, medical masks, men’s and women’s joggers (all sizes), children’s clothing (newborn to size 14), children’s shoes, summer clothing, men’s clothing, toiletries (lotion, Vaseline, toothpaste, toothbrushes, shampoo, conditioner, soap, deodorant, etc.), strollers, adult depends-all sizes, dog & cat food

if you are in the Thunder Bay area, the Whitesand First Nations families who have evacuated their homes burning down in Ontario are requesting supplies or monetary dnations

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note the lesbian flag in my icon, the 'lesbian' in my header, and the constant references to lesbianism that I make in my descriptions of myself

as a lesbian in a religion that is full to the brim of constant pressure and messaging that True Spiritual Fulfillment is found in heterosexual marriage to a man, and as a Christian feminist who is deeply concerned about this messaging for non-dyke reasons, I am occasionally allowed to vent about how the women around me seem exceedingly eager to be with men and how spiritually and psychologically concerning I find this.

as a Catholic specifically I am allowed to criticize the ways that parish culture and particularly American Catholicism encourages all women to seek out heterosexual marriage when the fundamental tenets of our faith hold that marriage is a vocation that not everyone is called to

as a former Evangelical I am allowed to criticize the ways that the faith I was raised in treated marriage, and particularly the idolatrous ideas we were sold about how our husband was Our Perfect Match Chosen For Us By God To Fulfill Us Forever and how we would finally feel complete and be able to reach our true fulfilled potential as women once we were married

what I said was that marriage to a man will not replace God or give you the fulfillment that an intimate relationship with God will bring. this is something I was taught from birth by the married women in my life who were themselves devout Christians, and it is a message I internalized early because my mother especially was very concerned about me becoming 'boy-crazy' or being susceptible to pressure to marry. she was worried about this because that's what happened to her and she didn't want her daughter inheriting that mindset, particularly in the midst of early-2000s purity culture.

men as an oppressor class are collectively something I am allowed to be upset about and I won't apologize for that.

at no point did I say that men were awful inherently. part of the reason there is such a thing as a patriarchal oppressor class is because men consistently (as a class, not necessarily individually) choose to behave badly toward women in service of maintaining their power over us. that's a use of their free will that I am allowed to critique vehemently as a fellow child of God.